clueless

i didn't deserve being treated with violence, therefore, i must act with kindness and love, just the way i was before all this shit

if there is a god somewhere, please let me rest, i beg you

he was right tho

actually… my abuser used to have this “quirky” nickname for me: “piece of shit” or “pedazo de caca” in spanish

how could i let this happen…

im a piece of shit. i deserve everything that has happened to me

maybe im just too damaged for going back and have a normal life