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@clownberrypie

Libra, 22 I'm back I guess

some more book!husbands.

trying to make crowley's look scream "DICKHEAD" when you look at him and the he stands next to az and it screams "SUGAR BABY"

also when they get home:

Something interesting about Dean narrating his first kill to Gordon is that it doesn't have the ending we expect.

Dean says: "So. I pick up this crossbow. And I hit that ugly sucker with a silver-tipped arrow right in his heart. Sammy's waiting in the car, and uh, me and my dad take the thing into the woods, burn it to a crisp. I'm sitting there and looking into the fire, and I'm thinking to myself, I'm sixteen years old. Most kids my age are worried about pimples, prom dates. I'm seeing things that they'll never even know. Never even dream of. So right then, I just sort of -"

If it followed the typical rose-colored glasses flow of something we'd expect of a teen narrative, Dean would finish with "Realized how lucky I was" or "realized how badly off those other kids had it." But instead of being positive about hunting, Gordon suggests:

"Embraced the life?"

Dean pauses.

"Yeah," he agrees, almost somberly. Definitely resigned.

Because this is what this story is about: resignation. He's passed the point of no return, so he may as well embrace the life because there's no other path forward for him. And with this acceptance comes alienation. Dean isn't like those other kids. He can't be like them. He was never going to be like them.

This is especially poignant when we see later in season 9 that this first kill happened the same year Dean went to Sonny's, where he had a brief chance to worry about pimples and prom dates before the hunter life tore it all away again. It was never about choosing hunting for Dean. It was always about being trapped.

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horrorcas

john secretly looked after sam when he went to stanford. maybe even called a few times. sam never picked up the phone, either to call first or to answer. fine. but when dean calls or sam calls john because of dean, john never fucking picks up the phone. sam was in college! dean was either crying for help or literally dying in a hospital bed. then john has the audacity to get pissed. you have more than one son, bro

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horrorcas

LIKE-

Victor being convinced that Dean's the devil incarnate and Sam is just some bumbling dummy in every episode in which he appears is the funniest thing in the whole world.

Victor talking about the Winchesters: "Crazy's in there, and I just hung up on it. It's name is Dean Winchester. He's a monster. He's Hannibal Lecter. I am going to NAIL him to the WALL like a BUG.... And also his dumb brother too I guess."

CRYING

Sam can also sense Victor’s complete lack of professional regard for him as a depraved murderer and you know what??? It stings!!!