this quote about First Light is the only thing that matters to me right now
Coming out the other side and having a new relationship with light as something you don't want to hide from or disappear from. It's something you can celebrate- as if you're seeing it for the first time- for it's brilliance, as opposed to something that is blinding.
the way Unreal Unearth is so much about opposites, and contradictions, and paired things, and nature as a force. light and darkness, knowing and the unknown, the self and the other, the inner world and the exterior, the ceaseless and unstoppable flow of water and tide, places and the finding of them, naming and being seen, being lost and being found in the finding of yourself. the land and the sky juxtaposed, the rivers running through it all. falling and crawling and rising. mourning and celebrating. anguish and relief. it makes me think of togetherness for some reason. connectedness. and the life cycle. death and rebirth and loss and regaining through collective memory. and pain being lessened when shared. there’s something so Joyce about it too, this groundedness in place, and the layers, so many layers.
and it reminds me of John Donne’s ‘No Man Is An Island’:
‘any man's death diminishes me,
because I am involved in mankind.
And therefore never send to know for whom
the bell tolls; it tolls for thee.’
imagine fantasising about the love of your life while listening to “take me to church” by hozier and then the love of your life in question hits you with “nothing lasts forever” and just leaves after you confess your feelings and just a few weeks later hozier drops an album with a song literally named “all things end”
well that’s more or less what happened to my buddy Crowley— wonder how he’s hanging on there
on icarus.
(Attributed to Oscar Wilde//Sigmund Freud- Interpretation of Dreams//@meanwhilepoetry//Herbert James Draper- Lament for Icarus//Joseph Campbell//Hozier- Sunlight//Rainer Maria Rilke- The Notebooks of Malte Laurids Brigge//Mary Oliver- The Sun//Vincent Van Gogh- The Sower//Matthew Ward- The Collected Stories//Florence and The Machine- Falling//Billy Collins- The Art of Drowning//Renè Milot- The Fall of Icarus//Hozier- I,Carrion (Icarrian)//Virginia Woolf- The Waves//J. Bengt- Icarus Flew//??)
every single person who reblogs this
every
single
person
will get “doot doot” in their ask box
HOW
I WANT TO KNOW YOUR SECRET
SERIOUSLY THOUGH WHAT ARE YOU
I GOT THIS AND I WAS LIKE WHAT THE FUCK
there are over 128,000 notes and i still got one
how
i reblogged this less than 2 minutes ago
how the actual fuck
well
do not question
ive done this before you truly do get doot doot in your askbox
Lol doubt it
Haha doubt this will work buuuut
What the hell, I’ll try it
I GOT A DOOT DOOT
I wants a doot doot
hoooowwww does this work??!
wonder if this works
…. Bet
Nah lol this wont work
I wonder
Update:
2 million plus notes now. I bet not.
Gimme the doot doot
Last time I reblogged this I didn’t get Doot Doot in my ask box. What gives?
It’s not gonna actually happen, is it?
nope
update:
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Doot doot when
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Put an egg in your ramen. Put scallions in your ramen. Put chili oil in your ramen. Put kewpie Mayo in your ramen. But nori in your ramen. Put tofu in your ramen. Put miso paste in your ramen. Put mushrooms in your ramen.
Do NOT reply or comment except to add good things to put in ramen. That’s what this post is for.
put fish sauce in it!! chopped garlic!! sriracha! vegetable tempura! pork belly! sprouts!
// I love cooking comics best. And this one has ingredients so cheap I made a point to save it to my harddrive. It was originally drawn by Lucie Bryon here on Tumblr.
Pimp that ramen, y’all!!
being queer and seeing historical queer love is like a punch to the gut in a good way every time
crying and sobbing crying and sobbing etc
some more vintage photographs that make me weep and wail, now including trans people!
Happy tears
love is stored in the historical queer pictures
top surgery tip 1)
get yourself used to sleeping on your back (and possibly elevated depending on your surgeon) BEFORE surgery.
top surgery tip 2)
have cough drops on hand because your throat will probably be sore from the breathing tube they use with anesthesia.
Top surgery tip 3)
Get and use straws. You'll have T-Rex arms for a while but you still need to hydrate.
top surgery tip 4)
the post surgery compression binder is more comfortable than youd think but it still gets pretty itchy. so dont be afraid to take benydryl, itll help you rest and stop the itch
top surgery tip 5)
sounds weird but try not to flex your pecs… watched a horror game play through and every time there was a jump scare my whole body tensed up including my pecs which hurt like a bitch
Top surgery tip 6)
Have hand sanitizer/ body wipes incase you cannot reach across sinks easily and to also put under your armpits if you cannot get deodorant there
top surgery tip 7)
you might be numb in some areas affected by the surgery. especially if your surgeon does any liposuction along with just cutting your boobs off. right now my armpits are numb which makes cleaning them weird. less of a tip and more its normal for early in recovery
top surgery tip 8)
about a week in stuff starts to feel like pins and needles. i thought that meant my one nipple was falling off. turns out its the opposite and its them coming back to life. the post op compression binder while annoying does help the tingling feel less weird
top surgery tip 9)
you surgeon may be ripped to hell and back like mine and put the compression binder on super tight. ITS OK TO LOOSEN IT A LITTLE.
its there for compression to keep the swelling down but same rules apply as a regular binder: it might be a little uncomfortable and feel tight but you need to still be able to BREATHE
top surgery tip 10)
invest in a long pair of tongs or one of those claw grabber things. i just made ramen that was in a cabinet above the microwave. how? tippy toes and tongs.
Top surgery tip 11)
You can buy little hair net looking guys at some major pharmacies that include shampoo and can be used to wash your hair in bed if you’re having trouble in the shower
(This is a general surgery tip but all my disabled friends swear by ‘em post surgery it makes your life much easier and you can feel properly clean)
top surgery tip 12) it’s okay to sleep on the couch or in a chair if it’s too difficult or painful to get in and out of bed. My couch plus a pile of throw pillows on either side of me was the perfect place to sit and simmer as I recovered. I also recommend getting one of those airplane pillows that go around your neck. very useful if you end up sleeping sitting up and don’t want your neck to crick.
top surgery tip 13)
when it comes to scar care. anything is better than nothing. and you dont need to shell out hundreds of dollars for fancy scar creams. to massage your scars as long as everythings properly closed you can just grab an gentle unscented or naturally scented lotion and use that. shea butter, cocoa butter, bio oil the like. youre just looking for something for sensitive skin and thatll keep them hydrated.
y'all really missed the boat on calling these tip top top surgery tips
y'all really missed the
boat on calling these tip top
top surgery tips
Beep boop! I look for accidental haiku posts. Sometimes I mess up.
top surgery tip 14)
during recovery, my chest muscles would feel really tight and painful. it wasn't something i was warned about, so i thought something was wrong, but when i looked it up it is apparently a fairly common side effect of having surgery for the muscles in that area to seize up. i did some gentle massage and put a heat pack on the sore areas to help the muscles relax and that helped a lot, along with the muscle relaxants and pain meds my dr sent me home with.
Top surgery tip 15)
"Typical trans guy stance" as my doctor puts it (shoulders down and forward, slightly hunched, makes boobs less prominent) while good for dysphoria, can affect the healing of your chest post surgery. Work on your posture before surgery (and yes this might trigger your dysphoria but its worth it to heal better)
Top surgery tip 16)
Get the longest phone/tablet chargers they make. At least 6 feet, 9 feet are even better.
Chest surgery tip 17)
Shower chairs/benches (pre-installed) are very helpful. With backrests if you have the space in your bath. Also sponge/loofah on a stick.
If you have someone to help you, leaning forward for someone to wash your hair may be easier than leaning back, as long as you don’t put weight on your arms.
Top surgery tip 18) Black people go ahead and get braids, retwist, etc 2-3 days before surgery. This 1: gives it time to loosen up, and 2: makes it easier to care for your scalp without worrying about detangling/matting. I personally got fulanis so my hair wasn’t in my face/didn’t mat/wouldn’t need extreme detangling during takedown.
I'm seeing some confusion out and about over the title A Companion to Owls (generally along the lines of 'what have owls got to do with it???'), so I'd like to offer my interpretation (with a general disclaimer that the Bible and particularly the Old Testament are damn complicated and I'm not able to address every nuance in a fandom tumblr post, okay? Okay):
It's a phrase taken from the Book of Job. Here's the quote in full (King James version):
When I looked for good, then evil came unto me: and when I waited for light, there came darkness. My bowels boiled, and rested not: the days of affliction prevented me. I went mourning without the sun: I stood up, and I cried in the congregation. I am a brother to dragons, and a companion to owls. --(Job 30:29)
Job is describing the depths of his grief, but also, with that last line, his position in the web of providence.
Throughout the Old Testament, owls are a recurring symbol of spiritual devastation. Deuteronomy 4:17 - Isaiah 34:11 - Psalm 102: 3 - Jeremiah 50: 39...just to name a few (there's more). The general shape of the metaphor is this: owls are solitary, night-stalking creatures, that let out either mournful cries or terrible shrieks, that inhabit the desolate places of the world...and (this is important) they are unclean.
They represent a despair that is to be shunned, not pitied, because their condition is self-inflicted. You defied God (so the owl signifies), and your punishment is...separation. From God, from others, from the world itself. To call and call and never, ever receive an answer.
Your punishment is terrible, tormenting loneliness.
(and that exact phrase, "tormenting loneliness," doesn't come from me...I'm pulling it from actual debate/academia on this exact topic. The owls, and what they mean. Oof.)
To call yourself a 'companion to owls,' then, is to count yourself alongside perhaps the saddest of the damned --not the ones who defy God out of wickedness or ignorance, and in exile take up diabolical ends easy enough...but the ones who know enough to mourn what they have lost.
So, that's how the title relates to Job: directly. Of course, all that is just context. The titular "companion to owls," in this case, isn't Job at all.
Because this story is about Aziraphale.
The thing is that Job never actually defied God at all, but Aziraphale does, and he does so fully believing that he will fall.
He does so fully believing that he's giving in to a temptation.
He's wrong about that, but still...he's realized something terrifying. Which is that doing God's will and doing what's right are sometimes mutually exclusive. Even more terrifying: it turns out that, given the choice between the two...he chooses what's right.
And he's seemingly the only angel who does. He's seemingly the only angel who can even see what's wrong.
Fallen or not, that's the kind of knowledge that...separates you.
(Whoooo-eeeeee, tormenting loneliness!!!)
Aziraphale is the companion.
...I don't think I need to wax poetic about Aziraphale's loneliness and grappling with devotion --I think we all, like, get it, and other people have likely said it better anyway. So, one last thing before I stop rambling:
Check out Crowley's glasses.
(screenshots from @seedsofwinter)
Crowley is the owl.
Crowley is the goddamn owl.
nobody does it like him
need people to understand like if youre my friend you should bother me anytime. call me randomly send me something you think is funny ask for help with an essay i literally do not care. i love you
Anti-Christ and his plus one <3333
Just a quick piece cause I wanted to practice Martin and Jon together!! Hehehehe
Can you please make a post on How To Create A Good Main Character (hero/antihero)?
Specifically, how to avoid the instance where a secondary character stands out more/is more lovable?
Creating a compelling main character, whether they are a hero or an antihero, is crucial for engaging storytelling and capturing readers' imaginations. The protagonist serves as the driving force behind the narrative, and their journey and development shape the overall story arc. To create a good main character, consider the following elements:
Is it cringe to be into trans men but not cis men? I’m a transfem and I don’t know if this is fetishistic but I’m just always feeling unsafe around cis men in a way trans men never made me feel. I feel guilty about it and don’t know how to explain it outside of that.
nah i think it’s valid. there are gonna be some ppl who will be weird abt it bc they’re obsessed with insisting that trans men are indistinguishable from cis men but that’s just simply not true. we’re different from cis men, so dating us will be a different experience, and that’s okay. it’s okay to want that different experience, especially as a fellow trans person. as long as you just treat them like a human being and don’t make weird comments about their genitals, which i’m sure won’t be a problem, then you’re all good. live ur t4t dreams.
and like. i kinda have weird feelings abt fetishization bc like ok.
i hooked up with a queer person who used all the right language and did all the right things, but then they told me they only date ppl who were afab, regardless of gender. they’ll fuck ppl who were amab but they won’t date them, only afab ppl. the further we got into the convo, it became clear that the reason they only wanted to date ppl who were afab is bc we are more likely to have been socialized to take on the brunt of the domestic and emotional labor in relationships. that hookup ended up lasting over an hour bc they kept interrupting sex to complain about their ex wife. by the end i was practically shoving them out the door because i was so uncomfortable.
the guy i’m hooking up with right now is very cis and found me through the ftm tag on grindr, so he was specifically looking for trans guys. he told me he’s into trans guys because he likes sleeping with masculine people, mostly men, but he also likes the way vaginas feel. could that be seen as fetishistic? sure. does it feel that way to me when we have sex? nope. he uses gender affirming language without even being asked, he tells me he’s super into my body and gets excited when he notices that i’ve grown more hair or had a t dick growth spurt. he likes my body because it’s trans, and i’m perfectly okay with that.
i felt so much more fetishized by the queer person who was actively seeking out afab ppl to take advantage of essentially patriarchal trauma than i ever have by the guy who just likes trans pussy. so i feel like we just really need to have a conversation about what it actually means to fetishize someone because it very much feels like it’s just become “thinks trans ppl are hot” and i hate that literally other trans ppl are scared of finding other trans ppl hot for fear of fetishizing. trans ppl are fucking hot! our trans bodies are hot! it’s okay to be sexually attracted to trans bodies!
THIS. This this this, a thousand times this.
I personally think that a lot of people have decided that "being attractive to something non-normative" = "fetishizing" which... Is just blatantly not true. But it's how you end up with people who think that someone who is explicitly (and perhaps only) attracted to trans/genderqueer bodies is an evil fetishizer instead of, you know. Someone who likes that kind of body. Same vein of thinking as people who think that those who are attracted to fat people are all chubby chasers with a fat/feeding fetish instead of just people who find fat bodies attractive.
Like imo? There is no fucking difference between saying "Oh yeah, I really like guy pussy" and "I really like big dick and muscles." It's just what you like, and I hate that when someone expresses that they like something that is seen as "not normal"- not a straight, cis, white, abled, thin body, people act like it's a fetish or it's objectifying. Because what that says, at least to me as a fat genderqueer transmasc, is that being attracted to me as I am is inherently not normal and not good. And that is a fucking SHITTY message to send.
The problem with trans chasers and chubby chasers and "fetishizers" (and honestly, people really need to like, read up on what a fetish is because I'm sick of seeing it used as some bad thing all the time, it's not) is that they treat people as not whole people. Whether, as in the example above, they take advantage of actual or perceived trauma and behavior associated with one's assigned gender, or as a personal example, they're only interested in sleeping with you because they've "never fucked a fat chick and hear that you girls give awesome head". People who do that shit see the people they go after as experiences or novelties, or as something exotic. A sex object that they can use.
Whereas someone who is just into trans bodies, fat bodies... They just like those bodies. And they will treat you as a whole person. You're not a sexual toy to them- you're a person that they think is hot, that they want to sleep with. They care about you and your body and what you need. Again, it's no different than someone who dates people with brown eyes or cool dyed hair because they find those things attractive. It's just "this is what I look for physically in a partner".
'#i genuinely really like this post#because it is always difficult for me to acknowledge that i do have preferences due to this sort of thing#are they strong ones? no. but just the fact that they exist doesn't meant that i'm fetishizing something!!#however my brain and american purity culture are both mean' will smith gesturing meme goes here
I hate that I have to explain to people these days that "you must be equally sexually attracted to every single person on the planet or you're Morally Bad" is not actually more progressive than "you must be exclusively sexually attracted to the opposite (cis)gender or you're Morally Bad."
like there comes a point where you think something is fundamentally wrong with you. and then it turns out it’s just Friday and you haven’t washed your hair in three days and maybe you’re also just a little lonely and the combination of all three of those things is whittling a hole into your chest every time you breathe. but also the sun’s up. and you’ve survived everything so far, so you’ll survive this too, even if it hurts, even if you have to survive it many times.
Oh my God
Aziraphale is in his Adam-at-peak-Antichrist phase. The point where Adam's puppeting his friends & saying "it's a bad world but we can fix it." People keep saying Zira's fallen back into his old Heaven is good mentality but it's not quite that.
His immediate impulse is to say he doesn't want to go back. He's convinced by the combo of "you can fix things" & "you can bring Crowley." Leaving the issues of his reasoning wrt Crowley aside, he's hesitating again after the argument, till Metatron brings up the Second Coming.
This isn't about "Heaven is good and perfect." This is about "Heaven has always claimed to be good and I can make that happen now." Just like Adam in Antichrist mode. This is about "I can be the right people & stop the next apocalypse, unlike last time when my call went wrong."
It's not exactly a regression so much as a sideways swerve of some kind, imo.
YES!
I feel like...the first story, the book/season 1, is going to be a blueprint for the overarching plot of the whole show, and ultimately, it will result in Aziraphale and Crowley learning the same things that caused Adam to reject Satan.
It's not a regression at all, in my opinion. I understand why it feels that way to a lot of people, but Aziraphale has never been promised the power to make a real difference before; he was only offered a choice of "go along with Armageddon" or "struggle for Earth until the very end." The Metatron knew he wouldn't be able to resist being told he could make a difference. It's what he was asking the Metatron for in the first place.
And it matters that what brought Adam back to himself was love - but crucially, it was both his friends being brave enough to walk away, to set their terms, and his own memories of his friends and parents' love.
I've been yelling my head off for a while about how the key at the heart of Good Omens is love (and how my brain associates that with a very different canon, lol) and that's still going to be true.
In a way, both Aziraphale and Crowley have taken that walking away role, because of course unacceptable terms go both ways. Running away is as unacceptable to Aziraphale as Heaven is to Crowley.
Aziraphale has to learn what Adam-as-Antichrist learned - that he's a person, who loves and is loved, and that you can't just make things happen. You can't make people stay with you, you can't slot them into neat roles.
But Crowley has to learn that last bit too - you can't just tuck away a couple people (or one angel) and let everything else implode, you have to try to stop it. And I think what he'll learn is what Adam and the Them seemed to understand instinctively - that it's worth it to try.
And it's worth it because he loves the world like he loved his stars, I just don't think he's fully realized it yet.
And, circling back to love and standing together, Aziraphale has... a lot more amends to make than a little boy who scared the fuck out of his friends, he and Crowley need to have a long conversation and find the places where they both went wrong, but in the end they'll be there together.
Hope you're not sick of me yet but great meta like this is helping me to work out my feelings about S2.
"crowley stop" trending bc of that petition is so funny
am i the only one who doesn't want to know crowley's angel name
my beautiful baby girl [INFORMATION REDACTED]
exactly! there’s a reason he didn’t say it when Aziraphale introduced himself. we’re not supposed to know!!
Exactly. Attaching a name to his angel identity overshadows his identity as Crowley. It puts too much focus on who he was, not who he is. And Good Omens is a story about choosing to be who you are, not who birth or society says you're supposed to be.
The show had a perfect opportunity to give us Crowley's angel name, and it pointedly did not take it. He's Crowley. That's all we need to know.
