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@clchelseaa

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You can’t love people with conditions and call it love or love them when its convenient to you , when its easy . You love them right through the darkness bringing them all the light that you can . Because saying I love you while closing the door on them is one of the most cowardly lies you will tell another being

sometimes it’s all about staying// Kriti.G (via wnq-writers)

It’s a gift to have someone who doesn’t get tired of your sadness , of listening to you go through the same stuff over and over again someone who knows how isolating it can be and how it’s not always rational and how it makes you not act like your usual self but they stay right there by your side till you learn to be yourself again .

i hate how exhausting it is to fake support and force sympathy. like of course you matter to me, atleast i think you do. but right now i can’t feel anything and its so hard for me to comfort you when i dont have the energy or motivation. i dont care, and i dont know why. i’m trying to find ways to make myself feel bad for you but i find absoloutley nothing. im not happy that youre upset but im not sad either, i dont know how to explain it.

Believe me. I loved you. I did. Why else would I wait for hours just to fit myself in your schedule? Why else would I adjust my sleeping patterns so that I could catch you awake? You were busy. You were pursuing your dreams and that you were good at what you were doing. I understood that. You strived to find time for me, and I appreciated that. But I needed more. I couldn’t stand days of not seeing you because unlike you, I didn’t have anything to keep me occupied. Over time I realized that I needed you more than you needed me, and that I was miserable. I needed to get out Everyone else was discrediting what I felt because I left you. They said I didn’t love you. They were angry at me for breaking your heart. I’m sorry. I know I hurt you. I’m sorry for wanting the things you couldn’t give. I know it was selfish. But I loved you. Nothing will ever change that. It was real. It didn’t work out, but it was real.