yourlocalbisexualdisaster
When the depression gets so bad it hurts.
It hurts e v e r y w h e r e.
My body aches with every breathe. Every move I make takes away more and more energy.
It’s so exhausting, so painful, I don’t want to live like this anymore.
Please understand that I get so messed up inside sometimes
the education system
(these are my poems, my dms and ask are always open to anyone)
A text message I never sent to my mother:
I’m not doing okay. I’m too depressed to do anything anymore but I still worry and have anxiety about everything. I nearly killed my self. I think about it every single day. I sat on the edge of my bed holding a handful of pills. I tried to write letters. But I didn’t swallow the pills or go too deep with the knife because I don’t want to hurt anyone. I’m not strong enough, I can’t deal with it anymore. I feel everything and completely numb at the same time. I know people have it worse than me but everyone has their own breaking point. I’ve hit mine.
I love sleeping, you don’t miss anyone and you don’t feel any pain
It’s just you, Alone in your head, Peaceful Bliss
i really wanna hurt myself again
It just wont seem to leave my mind
do you ever look at yourself and feel completely useless, like nothing you do would ever change what you look like. and then you feel like a failure, and like you’re stuck in this shitty horrible ugly body for the rest of your life. it fucking hurts.
I want to kill myself so bad right now
