A͓̽n͓̽d͓̽ i͓̽ d͓̽o͓̽n͓̽'t͓̽ k͓̽n͓̽o͓̽w͓̽ h͓̽o͓̽w͓̽ t͓̽o͓̽ s͓̽t͓̽o͓̽p͓̽

*says thank you 100 times a day because i feel like a burden to everyone*

Everything is going to hell.

there is so much hate and anger growing inside of me it’s crushing my soul

i‘m so tired of everyday being a battle, i don’t want to fight just to get through the day. everything’s keep on getting worse and i‘ve had enough. maybe i can stick around a little longer, maybe i can continue fighting, but i don’t think i want to anymore

eventually you just stop caring. not because you’re heartless, but because you’re tired of giving more than you’ve ever received

eventually you just stop caring. not because you’re heartless, but because you’re tired of giving more than you’ve ever received

i’m not ok. i’m not even close to ok. i honestly can’t remember the last time i was. my days are filled with pain and self hatred and sadness and i don’t think i can take it much longer. it hurts. it hurts so bad.

i’m fragile yet filled with so much rage

maintaining friendships is so hard when your mind is constantly telling you that you’re annoying and unwanted

hating things is so fucking fun

like yassss negativity yasss criticalality slay 

— F. Scott Fitzgerald, The Beautiful and Damned

i really am, from the bottom of my heart, an actual fucking idiot

no offense but i want every little kid to be safe and have a good childhood

got caught giving a fuck. embarrassing.

hi can someone love me pls

they’ll never understand the disgust i feel towards myself. i despise myself so deeply it makes me want to rip off my skin. i carry so much shame i can feel it burning in my veins and crushing all of my bones. there are no words kind enough or a change big enough to ever make me view myself differently. my entire existence is devoured by self hatred that i wish i could escape from, but after all those years of letting it consume me, i don’t even know who i am without it