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I Am The Architect Of My Own Destruction

@chelbyclaire

Night Thinking,
Day Dreaming
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the-seizure-blog

epilepsy explained in 6 words

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fuckepilepsy

Hey doc? Are you even listening?

I’d trade brains with literally anyone.

Well, I used to be smart.

FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK SHIT FUCK 

I’d trade brains with a monkey.

Could you repeat that? Sigh… again.

Lamictal is a hell of a…

… … … … … …

Huh? What? Did I blank out?

“Hopes and dreams” lol what’re those

I’d trade brains with Donald Trump.

Well, I used to have friends.

Remember that one time? I don’t.

Were epilepsy tangible, I’d destroy it.

Okay, not Trump. I deserve better.

Am I technically “disabled?” Anybody know?

Don’t tell me “could be worse.”

SUDEP: sounds gentler than “you’re fucked”

Sorry my seizure ruined your party.

Well, I used to go out.

IT’S RANDOM NEURON PARTY TIME BITCHES

Mother Nature is a fucking sadist.

Wait–did I take my meds?

Better take ‘em just in case.

Is this blood in my ears?

Well, I used to feel alive.

I wanna kick my brain’s ass.

“Try harder!” “Push through!” FUCK OFF.

[six consecutive wails of emotional anguish] 

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thetwitchylife

I wildly prefer @fuckepilepsy‘s additions to the original.  (I usually do.)  As for my own:

Not again. Can I go home?

Shit, I forgot my meds.  Bye!

Fucking insurance ruined my day (again)

Sleeping late because I can’t not.

Rent’s ridiculous because I can’t drive.

I’ll never repay you all.  Thanks.

No don’t call an ambulance, really.

What’s the word for- uh- um-

“You’re so brave.” No I’m not.

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mrsmarymorstan

Ooooh! Can I add my own? Too late I’m gonna. 

Shit, did I take my meds?

Where did I put my meds? 

Wait, what is my dose again?

FUCK how am I out ALREADY?

Look Doc, just give me them!

Madly silencing medication alarm in class.

I have no memory of this… 

Let us play Daydream or seizure! 

Alert Bracelet Stuck in jumper again.

Will half a cider kill me?

Yes, but is there a bus?

Stop telling me I should drive.

Fuck the fuck off dear sister.

Why are things so far away?

Do I really count as disabled?

Do I really count as Epileptic?

Do I really complain too much?

Please turn your music down?

I need sleep to stop seizures.

No, Seriously, I am not joking. 

It is 3 am please stop. 

….. …… ….. ….. ….. …..

Great a seizure, that’s nice thanks.

FUCK YOU FLATMATES FUCK YOU!

Woke up this morning like NOPE.

Cold + Period = Brain Hell 

Thank GOD for London Freedom Passes!

Shit, it’s still on the bus. 

I blanked out and dropped it. 

How do I get home now?

Fuck fuck bloody fuckity fuck fuck 

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captainfantasticspastic

Yeah I stare. It’s a thing.

Oh for fucks sake, like why?

Brain, don’t we have enough problems?

Do you mind turning that down?

Fuck you strobes! I’m still conscious!

Shit. Where are my driving glasses?

Where did I put my keys/purse/wallet/everything?

I run out of pills TOMORROW?!?!

Hey, could I bum a ride?

So long license. It was fun.

OH MY GOD, I WONT DROWN.

…. No, seizures don’t work like that.

I should have brought my cane.

OUCH! My mouth! Why, body? WHY?

Actually, I’d rather NOT read aloud.

Hey, sorry, what’s my name again?

Also who are you? So sorry.

Okay, who drank my Atkins Shakes?

FUCK! I MISS EATING PEOPLE FOOD!

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inkskinned

when someone loves you - really loves you - treat them gently. text your best friend back when you can. tell your mother you noticed her haircut and that she was right about that recipe. tell your grandfather that the boats in his bottles are the best things you’ve ever seen. be good to the people who are good to you. it’s the least you can do.

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achingchest
1. People who are jealous of you will talk badly about you. 2. If other people hurt you, it is a reflection of themselves, not you. 3. Misery loves company. 4. Where there’s a will, there’s a way. 5. Confidence is intimidating. 6. Actions speak louder than words. 7. If you don’t ask, the answer will always be no. 8. You only regret the chances you don’t take. 9. Hard work pays off. 10. Pain is inevitable, suffering is optional.

10 clichés that are actually true / @scarredconversations (via scarredconversations)

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babydollamelia

You know when you’re have a twilight zone feeling and you’re fucking waiting for something to happen. Like should I push through?? I was at a yogurt shop and I was trying to look at the flavors and I couldn’t do it. I had that moment where I had to decide to move or go through with the yogurt lol. That’s the part of ‘chronic’ that normal people don’t understand. Like its not a seizure or aura on paper but still a thing. Blurs or moments can happen everyday and know one really know. Invisible chronic illness.

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all-my-friends-are-trees
It’s a dark feeling that eats away at all happiness from avoiding all of your fears A feeling that tears down all those walls that you’ve been building up over the years Those walls that made you feel safe in your head As if nothing could possibly go wrong But you always knew that they would fall, All along

September Stories (via all-my-friends-are-trees)

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blythebaird
SEPTEMBER HOROSCOPES virgo, actively seek balance. libra, trust these are the right decisions. scorpio, separate fact from feeling. sagittarius, remind yourself how you got this far. capricorn, it is a time of luck. aquarius, unpack your current fear. pisces, take on this challenge. aries, you will find a place to belong. taurus, let it happen. gemini, toast to self-acceptance. cancer, embrace the love around you. leo, you are safe here.

SEPTEMBER HOROSCOPES, by Blythe Baird (2014)

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SEPTEMBER HOROSCOPES Virgo, you are the lover who finds everyone at the most crucial time in their lives. Libra, it is impossible not to grow around you. Scorpio, do not fall in love with your sadness again. Sagittarius, you have the ability to make everyone in your company feel magical by association. Capricorn, you are the one that sparkles and floats through a room. Aquarius, you have to sleep. Pisces, let go of your guilt for having a body. Aries, there is nothing romantic about hating yourself. Taurus, do what you need to do to recharge. Gemini, your heart has a remarkable memory. Cancer, you have the gift of being able to make people feel something. Leo, stop trying to please those who hurt you.

SEPTEMBER HOROSCOPES, by Blythe Baird (2015)