Here’s another Harry drawing I did a while ago, since you guys like my colored versions of him! Thought you might want to see this one as well!

Title: Smell of You

Artist: anokaba

Summary: Harry loves reading and cuddling with Draco and gets distracted by his smell.

Notes: Just love drawing domestic drarry!

A little bit late but… Happy Birthday, Harry!

Not the hero you expected but a hero nonetheless

Chapters: 7/7 Fandom: Harry Potter - J. K. Rowling Rating: Explicit Warnings: Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings Relationships: Draco Malfoy/Harry Potter, Remus Lupin/Severus Snape Summary:

Original summary - “Harry has a dirty mind and Draco helps him come to terms with it. Summer at Grimmauld Place is about to get interesting.”

This one starts out kind of silly and smutty, turns pretty angsty and serious in later chapters. Canon-compliant only up to HBP.

Comments are most welcome and appreciated!

Excerpt:

Potter’s question took Draco off-guard. “Like what kind of thoughts?” he asked. He wanted to ask if they were sexual, but he figured Harry would bolt.

“Well… they started out like… sexy… about sex and stuff. They still are, a lot of the time.”

Hurrah, said Draco’s mind. “That’s perfectly normal for a 17 year-old male,” said Draco’s mouth.

“Uh huh. Just wait. Like I said, it started out like that - blowjobs, handjobs, stuff like that. But they’re getting dirtier.”

Now Draco’s mind was rubbing its figurative hands together in glee. “This sounds better and better all the time. I had no idea you were even able to contemplate such things.”

“It’s wrong. Sometimes, these fantasies, they’re. Well, they’re sort of… violent.”

“That’s not wrong. In fact, that makes perfect sense.”

“Huh? How?”

“Well, you feel out of control in your life, so naturally you’re going to have some pent-up aggression. If you want the violent sex fantasies to stop, you’re going to have to act out in real life a bit.”

“Okay, Malfoy: one, where did you pick up the Muggle self-help book, and two, how am I supposed to act out… no! I can’t even- it’s too - it’s just disgusting. I can’t do it.”

“But I’m right. You have these urges and you have no outlet for them. And you need one.”

“I just feel all this energy that -I just. Fuck!” Harry abruptly sat down, a scant foot away from Draco. He scooted back a few more inches and leaned back on his hands.

“It would be nice, wouldn’t it?”

“What?”

“A fuck.”

“Oh. Yeah.”

Neither boy said anything for a few moments, Draco wondering if he’d gone too far with his little word-play, as Harry looked fairly unsettled. He wasn’t leaving, though. That was something.

“Potter… that’s why it’s better with blokes.”

“What? What is?”

“Men are dirtier. They’re hornier. Sometimes they like it rough.” Draco hoped he didn’t look too pathetically eager. He licked his lips. You look like you’re gagging for it,his brain helpfully informed him.

Luckily, Harry wasn’t looking at him. He just sat there, staring at the floor. But he wasn’t leaving. Draco decided to press on.

“What kind of fantasies are these, anyway? Who’s in them?”

“Well…” Harry let out a heavy sigh. “Ginny.”

“Of course. Right.” Draco couldn’t keep the derision out of his voice. He prayed that at least it would cover the disappointment.

“Yeah, ‘of course. right.’ She’s… she was my girlfriend.” Harry paused. “And other people.”

“Ooh, what other people? The Mudblood?” Draco knew he sounded even more derisive now, but he couldn’t help it. It was stupid to be bitter that Harry was straight.

“What the fuck, Malfoy?” Harry suddenly sat up and looked directly at Draco, leaning forward. “Don’t use that word about her ever again.”

“Okay, okay, Granger then.”

“No, god no! Not Hermione! Just. ..other people, okay?”

“Right. Got it. And what’s going on? Do you touch yourself when you have these fantasies?”

Harry shot him a look but apparently decided it was a fair question. “Um, sometimes.”

“How?”

“Through my clothes, mostly.”

“Through your clothes? Potter, you’re doing it wrong!”

Harry looked mortified. “Well, it’s… so what? It still feels good! What difference does it make?”

Draco couldn’t help but laugh. “It makes a lot of difference, believe me. Show me what you’ve been doing.”

“What? No!”

Normally, this was the time Draco would start making fun of Harry for being a prude, but now it actually seemed like they were getting someplace. Taunts and insults were for times when he didn’t have Harry’s attention. Now he appeared to have Harry’s full concentration and they would just be a distraction.

“C'mon, Harry, I’ll show you how I do it, if you show me how you do it.” He was already unbuttoning the trousers he’d been given by Fred his first day here. Even if things never went any farther than this, even if Potter clocked him for being gross and perverted, this was the most exciting thing that had happened in months. Ever, maybe.

Potter opened his mouth, then closed it again. He shifted around uncomfortably and ran his hand through his hair. “I’ll just watch you and see how I feel. After.”

Again, had this been a normal situation, Draco would have insisted that turnabout is fair play and all that rot, but it wasn’t. There was nothing normal about him taking his pants down in front of Potter and displaying the erection he had been half-heartedly trying to conceal for the past few minutes.

The thing about Harry Potter as a character is that he is insanely observant when he actually cares enough to pay attention. Meaning 90% of the stuff he deems unimportant flies over his head, but he makes these huge leaps of logic and intuition when he bothers to focus. Like in the books when it comes to anything relating to Voldemort or Death Eaters or People Not To Be Trusted (Draco, Umbridge). Growing up, he had to be able to see when a situation was going south long before the frying pan or Dudley’s fists came his way. But he also had to be able to ignore and tune out the constant flow of shit and neglect he was treated to.

If you think about it, for all the better aspects of Hogwarts, it still followed this same basic pattern. He had to pay close attention to the things trying to kill him (even classes took a back seat to this), but find a way to ignore and not acknowledge all the rumors and staring and people thinking he’s a prat or the heir of slytherin or a liar. I think this is why the arguments that Harry is a mushroom and notices nothing, and the arguments that he is deductively brilliant can exist side by side. He’s both. It’s also why, in my opinion, he tends to be ridiculously observant of Ginny once he starts to notice her as something important. She barely exists in the early narrative other than Someone to Be Saved. It’s also why Ginny can sometimes feel like she ‘comes from nowhere’ in the narrative. As far as Harry is concerned, she did come from nowhere. The switch in Harry’s brain went from Doesn’t Matter–Ignore to Very Important–Pay Close Attention, and BAM, there she was. Everywhere.

This is why I don’t get people who think Harry has no characterization. He’s very smart and is a product of neglect and abuse.

He has low self esteem in book one, cause the Dursleys treated him like nobody. He’s utterly devoted to his friends cause he’s never experienced love. How loving he is is actually super touching. Hogwarts seems amazing to him not so much because of the magic but because there’s so much food and love and friendly people and he’s assumed to belong there and to be worthy of inclusion!

He investigates things on his own or with the few friends he trusts, rather than going to teachers or asking for help, because no adults have helped him in life so far. He’s survived the Dursleys because he relied on himself. Authority figures are not to be trusted. Remember when Umbridge is torturing him with that quill? He just treats it as a private contest between himself and Umbridge. Ron and Hermione are appalled, and Hermione tells him to go to McGonnagal. But Harry has been set up to internalize abuse and assume no help will come. And because of his experiences with abuse he pays attention to where the real power lies. Cause that’s where the real threat is. He’s right that Umbridge has more power than McGonnagal, and more even than Dumbledore. When Dumbledore is called upon to protect Harry from Umbridge, Dumbledore does, but at the cost of his own job. And then he’s not there to protect anyone else after that.

Harry’s a very good example of someone whose ptsd is an asset in some ways, cause he often has the right insticts at dealing with actual danger. He’s very skilled.

For instance, he’s very tuned in to signs of danger and he always takes them seriously. This is partly why Hogwarts seems so dangerous to us (I mean, also cause it is, but this is partly why). The idea that Snape could be working for Voldemort? The worst is always possible! The idea that McGonnagal is gonna hit him with a wooden stick? The idea that he’s gonna be expelled any time in the first book? The idea that he’s gonna die on this detention in the forbidden forest? They all seem like real threats, but if Voldemort hadn’t been back, that detention would have been fine, and McGonnagal put him on the quidditch team instead of hitting him, and he was never gonna get expelled. Some of the sense of urgency and danger is just Harry being hypervigilent.

More examples:

The idea that the mermaids are gonna drown Hermione and Fleur if the time runs out in the second task?

The idea that he needs to go into the Chamber of Secrets instead of telling a teacher?

The idea that Voldemort had Sirius in the department of Mysteries?

Harry sometimes gets it wrong and sometimes gets it right, but he always assumes that any danger is real and reacts as though it’s the worst case scenario. And when it is the worst case scenario, that serves him well.

That’s a mentality that comes from growing up with the Dursleys, because the worst frequently did happen and Harry had to watch out for danger all the time. Which leads to hypervigilence.

People sometimes think he’s stupid for not realizing the second task wasn’t going to kill anyone, for instance. But it’s just his ptsd - he’s primed to go into fight or flight at any time.

It’s also why he has that “saving people thing.” He’s suffered, so he is empathic to suffering. He doesn’t want people to suffer.

And he’s had bad things happen around him, so he’s ready for the worst to happen to other people too. And he’s never had anyone save him, so he doesn’t think anyone else will jump in and save the day. And he’s had people be bystanders of abuse to him all his life, so he won’t be that.

So he’ll jump in and save people. It’s a strong urge.

He’s also used to suffering himself and thus will internalize a lot before going to anyone for help. Remember when he was fourteen and felt embarrassed that he wanted someone like a parent to write to about a murderer possibly being back (his scar hurting)? He wrote to Sirius.

He was embarrassed. In his own head. For wanting to have an adult he could confide in. At 13.

And when he was fifteen and had just seen someone murdered? He yelled at Ron and Hermione a lot. Lots of people have trouble with that too and find him over the top.

But they’re his family. He doesn’t have any adults to yell at. (He does eventually yell at Dumbledore). He only confides in Sirius that one time, and then realizes that could put Sirius in danger and stops.

Harry’s also very snarky and sarcastic and he loves his friends a lot and he’s very determined and stubborn. And he has a huge amount of love and appreciation for good things - time at the Weasleys, jokes, good food, love and friendship. He appreciates it so damn much. It breaks my heart and makes me love him.

So yeah. He’s damn good at resisting and fighting. Cause he’s been doing that all his life, and cause he’d do anything for the world that showed him love for the first time.

Ooooh this is interesting!

Seeing as the Malfoys are an extremely eloquent family I can’t help but imagine Draco being super polite every time he has sex with Harry. Whether that ranges from “Please can you fuck me?” to “Thank you, Harry.” And each and every time Harry falls in love a little bit more.

While reading fanfic

Me, at the beginning: FLUFF! only fluff. Smut ruins everything. Gimme all the fluff. I want the cuddle and the the blushing, alllllll the soft flirting, han-

Also me, three chapters in: Sooooooo…. When are they gonna fuck?

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