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A girl gazed up to a sky that was two

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half-fog girl, jewish, trans, multiple, bi, white a place for me to write about things I'm dealing with, share really strange free-writings, keep a collection of others' art that creates vivid places inside my mind, and re-blog things that make me feel warm inside, feel comforted, or that make me think.

Anya from the amazing Spy Family.

This show is honestly the new gold standard for entry into the world of anime, and Anya is the star attraction. This cute goofy little mind-reader stole our hearts.

Pro Tip: If you’re a cis woman avoid saying “welcome to womanhood” to a trans woman in response to some shared experience. Or in any context really.

Cis people and cissexism/transmisogyny are the driving reasons we were in the closet in the first place. If anything we should be welcoming you to a more nuanced understanding of womanhood and female experience.

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Who is adult Brier? Perhaps I don't need to know. Start with who I imagined myself to be, and grow into her

Ahh the problem isn't my body. The problem is I never perceived a self who grew up

How do I defeat this final threshold to being who I wanted to be? Is it simply just dressing how I want? Or is it perceptual?

How do I square away the concept of perception of self outside of the toll of violence?

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I am the girl I saw myself as in the Digital World as a kid.

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I feel like I'm circling around a self. On the one hand perceiving myself absolutely as the girl I imagined myself to be in the Digital World as a kid. On the other, my body discomfort where I perceive myself as not female. Androgynous maybe, but it's hard to perceive myself physically as a girl.

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How can I perceive my psyche and self as female but my body as not? How much of it is innate? How much the scars of current and past psychic violence.

How do I see myself as the girl I am? How can I not when I so absolutely realize I am her after refusing to be treated as anything but her at the martial arts group.

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I am the girl I saw myself as in the Digital World as a kid.

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I feel like I'm circling around a self. On the one hand perceiving myself absolutely as the girl I imagined myself to be in the Digital World as a kid. On the other, my body discomfort where I perceive myself as not female. Androgynous maybe, but it's hard to perceive myself physically as a girl.

Cis women grow fucking up and get used to tolerating trans women existing in your vicinity