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Cay🧜🏾‍♀️

@caytheblkmermaid

9teen! She/her♡ Ur fave black, nerdy ace, mermaid! ♡ Lover of mythical creatures & fandom ♡
+, pro-hoe, pro-choice, etc. ♡

🐚♡Welcome to my blog🐚♡

My nickname is Cay! I’m a black nerd whose obsessed with mermaids and the ocean.

I also love photography, reading, anime, plushies, animal crossing, & art.

My blog is a mix with mermaids, fandom, moodboards, head canons, dark academia, and more content.

Also a safe place for black people and poc of all kinds!

- My mood-boards always portray black people in cute scenarios so check those out. Feel free to suggest sum, I’m happy to do them. :-)

Completely sfw, all ages are welcome
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The panic attack scene with Carmy and my understanding of why thoughts of Syd calmed him down is that she, unlike the people from his past (including Claire), is the one thing he feels he got right/is getting right in his life.

Before taking on the Beef and meeting Syd he was a walking shell, dead inside. A disappointment to himself and also his family (at least in his head). He didn't feel like he measured up. He didn't feel like he was enough and even less for others.

But in the present, which Syd signifies, he has yet to let people down (especially her) and he strives on this path of ensuring he never does. She looks up to him while the people from his past often had reason to look down on him or doubt him.

Long story short, I feel like Sydney is his relief. A breath of air he needs when he's ran out. The assurance he needs that he's getting something right.

It was why he lost it in s1 when she up and left. It's why the thought of her got him back together during the panic attack.

Corny, but it fits to me.

I like you too, like a lot. I kind of knew that. Whatever. So for how long did you like me? Like, how long? Pretty much since the first day I got to Abbott. Really? Mhm. Me too. But I couldn’t really admit it because- Tariq. Yeah. 
Quinta Brunson and Tyler James Williams as Janine Teagues and Gregory Eddie in Franklin Institute (S02E22) Abbott Elementary (2021-present)

I submit to you that these two are actually the same ship:

Two middle-aged female coworkers who are absolutely in love with each other: one a closed-off but lovable badass with certain "connections" and aspects of her past that it's probably best not to ask too many questions about, the other a flawless Black queen who personifies grace and elegance but also knows how to let loose sometimes.