this was just barely a joke before but now i'm about to spend Real Money.
“This character is dead in canon” to you. They’re dead in canon to you. To me they’re fine
“This character is dead in canon” then explain to me why they’re still running around and living rent free in my head.
do you ever just desperately want to be okay again. want someone to break your skull open and rewire some neurons and just feel one single iota of dopamine that lasts more than an hour max. do you ever just want to live in the moment and not all up in your head for once
Ollie Schminkey
[Image Transcription of a poem titled "THE FIRST BIRTHDAY HE IS NOT ALIVE":
we all order his favorite drink.
we forget the hole he punched in the door. the hole he shot through the dog. he was so good at making holes, except when it came time to dig one for his body.
there could be bones mixed in with our flour, and we would never even know. we could be eating cookies, and he could be dead inside our mouths.
it feels stupid to be sad when he was mean for so long. he only got nice when he was dying, and i don't know if that counts as becoming a better person.
sometimes, i imagine him watching over me, and i hide.]
