Ima Meet My other Half of me today . I’m so nervous I’m so flooded with emotions today I’m extremely overwhelmed. My insides are in shambles .
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A tweet by user @maddyfurgiuele that says
“Best thing I learnt in therapy: if a thought starts with ‘what if’, it’s an intrusive thought. That means the thought isn’t coming from you. It’s the opposite of who you are and is there to scare you. Let it be, let it pass. You will be okay.”
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I pulled back mid to late last year and pulled all the way out this year but honestly I thought I was hurting myself more leaning on others to Help me ease my way through my pain truth was I was causing more harm piling up more baggage on my Trauma it was the blind leading the blind for sure . I really feel more secure with myself now more than ever I feel like NO NO THANK YOU she’s speaking up for herself now! She’s really healing that little girl who never got to be a little girl . ♥️ this process has been HELL TO SAY THE LEAST but I Have kept my Faith in God Praying every single time my head goes to that negative place . Even when I allowed myself to swim deep in my pain & it felt like There was no easing up just one hit after another I kept telling myself there’s a BLESSING BEHIND THIS I’m Glad the pond is draining I can start to see the bottom on it now. GOD THANK YOU !
— Paul Valéry, from Collected Works; “The Voice of Things.”
— May Sarton, from a journal entry.
Trying to spread positivity onto to others while going through my storm is what’s kept me going.