IM STARTING TESTOSTERONE TOMORROW MORNING I HAVE THE PRESCRIPTION I REALLY HAVE IT !!!!!
i have my next endo appointment in less than ten hours and this might be the one where i can actually start testosterone IM SO EXCITED
WHY. IS. MY. BODY. BEING. SO. WEIRD!!!! FUCKING STOP!!!!
#first i get my period a whole FOUR WEEKS LATE#my tits regularly hurt for a bit during/right before my period BUT they hurt the entire 4 weeks that my period was late#and they hurt worse than im used to like i walking even with a bra hurt bc of the movement up and down#and now. i have my period all is well. UNLESS#im lactating. what the ACTUAL fuck#this isnt new to me its happened before but the last time it was caused by my meds (fuck risperidone) but rn im unmedicated#dont worry i have an appointment with a gynecologist next week cause i already wanted to talk to her about how irregular my period is#this is just another thing to talk to her about#but generally. what the fuck#(also i googled around a little and while breast cancer was mentioned it said thats only if the substance is bloody and it is not)#im guessing hormone imbalance (although idk what its caused by) BUT THATS THE EXACT THING I DONT WANT RN#bruh i have my next endocrinologist appointment TOMORROW ! TO GET ON TESTOSTERONE !! I MIGHT BE ON T JUST 24 HOURS FROM NOW#i can NOT have something wrong with my hormones right now. please.
4h 58m - finished june 14 2023
☆ party poison ☆
part 1 of 4 of my killjoys series
all i care about today are those pictures of gerard way in a black button up and waistcoat and THATS IT
yes, hello, i am LOOKING
giant bone in your hair is sucg a classic look for when youre a caveman woman
the wedding is fucking amazing actually
#first of all i was seated next to a trans guy#didnt expect that#but we talked a lot and he gave me so much hope cause hes on t since april and his voice is already so deep !!!#and he uses gel which i thought didnt get results that fast but!!! damn !!!!!#also its the first wedding im at where im old enough to drink and have a good time so im having a lot more fun than at all the other ones#AND my asshole cousin hasnt made a single comment all evening so im great <3#ALSO this is peak romanticizing material like. humans are great#to celebrate love like this#to dance and have fun like this#to just BE#god i love humanity
an hour into seeing my (asshole right wing) cousin i heard the first slur 👍
#wasnt directed at me but it was a slur against intersex / trans people that i dont think exists in english#it technically refers to just intersex people but the lines blur at some point so it does also refer to trans people#(not that it being directed at intersex people isnt bad enough as it is already)
"It is often my nature to be abstract, hidden in plain sight, or nowhere at all." Gerard Way
i finally got my period today after it was late for FOUR WEEKS 💀 im so relieved right now you have no idea
#had several breakdowns about it bc i was CONVINCED i was pregnant#i was fucked up to the point where i lied to my classmates that my uncle had died bc i needed a reason for why i was crying so much#i took 4 pregnancy tests and they were all negative but i was still convinced#i researched how to get an abortion and made plans with my best friend along the lines of 'im taking two tests today and if theyre positive#were going to (planned parenthood equivalent) today'#omg i just realized that now theres nothing standing in my way of getting hrt#i have my next appointment in 6 days and should get it then omg omg omg#i was so afraid#but now i dont need to be anymore
positivestress
I wish I was a female tiger because then if I was talking to someone and I was getting off topic I could say “but I tigress,” and then kill and eat them because I am a tiger
it's strooping absolute wafel
dyed my hair black (instead of my beloved lime green i had before), took off my nail polish and all my rainbow bracelets to minimize the scene i will inevitably cause at my cousins wedding for showing up in a suit
#not from that cousin tho hes an icon he doesnt mind#the rest of the family is more of a problem#and one other cousin hasnt seen me in a while and doesnt know im trans yet but he is VERY homophobic and transphobic#which is why there will be a bit of a scene#i hope he will just shut up and leave it cause its a wedding and i dont want to be the cause for ruining their special day
everyone saying multiple is a coward . pick a favorite
#we didnt have most of those#but we did have a sort of caravan/trailer thingie that me and my friends like to play under#yes not in. under.#it was about half a meter of space under there so we liked to crawl in it and pretend it was our secret lair#(i had to google how to spell lair and tbh im still not sure
forgot to tell yall to wish me good luck for my last exam today but guess what, i didnt need it and got another 1.0, the best grade possible
Which is sexier, a werewolf or a vampire?
Depends if you find it sexier to submit to the will of charismatic evil or to be overwhelmed by animalistic power. And that's not a decision I can make for you.
