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THIS IS V URGENT PLS HELP. i know y’all hate me and get tired of hearing about this shit but the death of my mother has ruined me not just emotionally, but entirely. because of the process of getting the valid documents secured (valid, 100% complete death certificate stating cause, etc. which took months), i was not able to update all proper information with my section 8 caseworker. when i did, she tole me my rent would be paid back to november (in february, mind you) and paid up to his month! not only that, but THE LANDLORD WOULD OWE ME MONEY!

and now i’m being told i owe $1500 to the landlord because i was making too much money at my ($2.62/hr+shit tips) serving job and am now required to pay $285 in rent each month, which supposedly dates back to november 2017 (none of this, again, was disclosed to me upon changing my name to the leaseholder with section 8/my landlord)

so on top of owing ~$1500 in back rent, i just got this electric termination for $358 in the mail recently and have absolutely no idea how i’m supposed to pay for any of this with my current wages at my job. i cover shifts and pick up extra hours to the point where i’m working almost 7 days a week and i’m getting absolutely nowhere for it.

i’m currently going through a list of local organizations and charities, getting in touch, and asking for any and all forms of financial and rental assistance but i know i’ll need all the help i can get right now.

if you wanna help a mentally ill trans person who has literally no one and nowhere to go stay off the street, you can paypal or cashapp me at:

paypal.me/bvlgaribitch

cash.me/$bvlgaribitch

venmo.com/bvlgaribitch thank u to anyone who even considers helping me out!!! if ur into art or music nd want to commission something or would like any work done for a donation lmk!!

UPDATE!!

as i said in a previous update, the power is taken care of. as of now, i’ve gotten $500 towards the rent thus far but that’s not even half paid up and he calls almost every other day hounding me for more and dangling eviction over my head.

on top of that, my water’s about to be shut off since i’m 100% incapable of paying my sanitary (~$133) or water bill ($~87). not sure how i’m going to pay next month’s $285 rent payment either. i’m not eating or even paying for basic necessities at the moment just to try to get myself out of this situation and i really hate asking for help but unfortunately it’s my last resort before complete homelessness.

current goal: ~$1,505

ANY AND ALL HELP IS MORE THAN APPRECIATED!! PLS BOOST AS MUCH AS U CAN!

PLEASE BOOST!!

THIS IS V URGENT PLS HELP. i know y’all hate me and get tired of hearing about this shit but the death of my mother has ruined me not just emotionally, but entirely. because of the process of getting the valid documents secured (valid, 100% complete death certificate stating cause, etc. which took months), i was not able to update all proper information with my section 8 caseworker. when i did, she tole me my rent would be paid back to november (in february, mind you) and paid up to his month! not only that, but THE LANDLORD WOULD OWE ME MONEY!

and now i’m being told i owe $1500 to the landlord because i was making too much money at my ($2.62/hr+shit tips) serving job and am now required to pay $285 in rent each month, which supposedly dates back to november 2017 (none of this, again, was disclosed to me upon changing my name to the leaseholder with section 8/my landlord)

so on top of owing ~$1500 in back rent, i just got this electric termination for $358 in the mail recently and have absolutely no idea how i’m supposed to pay for any of this with my current wages at my job. i cover shifts and pick up extra hours to the point where i’m working almost 7 days a week and i’m getting absolutely nowhere for it.

i’m currently going through a list of local organizations and charities, getting in touch, and asking for any and all forms of financial and rental assistance but i know i’ll need all the help i can get right now.

if you wanna help a mentally ill trans person who has literally no one and nowhere to go stay off the street, you can paypal or cashapp me at:

paypal.me/bvlgaribitch

cash.me/$bvlgaribitch

venmo.com/bvlgaribitch thank u to anyone who even considers helping me out!!! if ur into art or music nd want to commission something or would like any work done for a donation lmk!!

UPDATE!!

as i said in a previous update, the power is taken care of. as of now, i’ve gotten $500 towards the rent thus far but that’s not even half paid up and he calls almost every other day hounding me for more and dangling eviction over my head.

on top of that, my water’s about to be shut off since i’m 100% incapable of paying my sanitary (~$133) or water bill ($~87). not sure how i’m going to pay next month’s $285 rent payment either. i’m not eating or even paying for basic necessities at the moment just to try to get myself out of this situation and i really hate asking for help but unfortunately it’s my last resort before complete homelessness.

current goal: ~$1,505

ANY AND ALL HELP IS MORE THAN APPRECIATED!! PLS BOOST AS MUCH AS U CAN!

THIS IS V URGENT PLS HELP. i know y’all hate me and get tired of hearing about this shit but the death of my mother has ruined me not just emotionally, but entirely. because of the process of getting the valid documents secured (valid, 100% complete death certificate stating cause, etc. which took months), i was not able to update all proper information with my section 8 caseworker. when i did, she tole me my rent would be paid back to november (in february, mind you) and paid up to his month! not only that, but THE LANDLORD WOULD OWE ME MONEY!

and now i’m being told i owe $1500 to the landlord because i was making too much money at my ($2.62/hr+shit tips) serving job and am now required to pay $285 in rent each month, which supposedly dates back to november 2017 (none of this, again, was disclosed to me upon changing my name to the leaseholder with section 8/my landlord)

so on top of owing ~$1500 in back rent, i just got this electric termination for $358 in the mail recently and have absolutely no idea how i’m supposed to pay for any of this with my current wages at my job. i cover shifts and pick up extra hours to the point where i’m working almost 7 days a week and i’m getting absolutely nowhere for it.

i’m currently going through a list of local organizations and charities, getting in touch, and asking for any and all forms of financial and rental assistance but i know i’ll need all the help i can get right now.

if you wanna help a mentally ill trans person who has literally no one and nowhere to go stay off the street, you can paypal or cashapp me at:

paypal.me/bvlgaribitch

cash.me/$bvlgaribitch

venmo.com/bvlgaribitch thank u to anyone who even considers helping me out!!! if ur into art or music nd want to commission something or would like any work done for a donation lmk!!

UPDATE!

The power is taken care of!

Bad news, landlord just called.

he’s expecting to be paid or else he’s going to go start the eviction paperwork and i’m having a full panic attack, i have like $120 to offer him right now and that’s literally ALL i have and i don’t get paid again until next friday.

PLEASE BOOST IF YOU CAN!

THIS IS V URGENT PLS HELP. i know y’all hate me and get tired of hearing about this shit but the death of my mother has ruined me not just emotionally, but entirely. because of the process of getting the valid documents secured (valid, 100% complete death certificate stating cause, etc. which took months), i was not able to update all proper information with my section 8 caseworker. when i did, she tole me my rent would be paid back to november (in february, mind you) and paid up to his month! not only that, but THE LANDLORD WOULD OWE ME MONEY!

and now i’m being told i owe $1500 to the landlord because i was making too much money at my ($2.62/hr+shit tips) serving job and am now required to pay $285 in rent each month, which supposedly dates back to november 2017 (none of this, again, was disclosed to me upon changing my name to the leaseholder with section 8/my landlord)

so on top of owing ~$1500 in back rent, i just got this electric termination for $358 in the mail recently and have absolutely no idea how i’m supposed to pay for any of this with my current wages at my job. i cover shifts and pick up extra hours to the point where i’m working almost 7 days a week and i’m getting absolutely nowhere for it.

i’m currently going through a list of local organizations and charities, getting in touch, and asking for any and all forms of financial and rental assistance but i know i’ll need all the help i can get right now.

if you wanna help a mentally ill trans person who has literally no one and nowhere to go stay off the street, you can paypal or cashapp me at:

paypal.me/bvlgaribitch

cash.me/$bvlgaribitch

venmo.com/bvlgaribitch thank u to anyone who even considers helping me out!!! if ur into art or music nd want to commission something or would like any work done for a donation lmk!!

UPDATE!

The power is taken care of!

Bad news, landlord just called.

he’s expecting to be paid or else he’s going to go start the eviction paperwork and i’m having a full panic attack, i have like $120 to offer him right now and that’s literally ALL i have and i don’t get paid again until next friday.

PLEASE BOOST IF YOU CAN!

THIS IS V URGENT PLS HELP. i know y’all hate me and get tired of hearing about this shit but the death of my mother has ruined me not just emotionally, but entirely. because of the process of getting the valid documents secured (valid, 100% complete death certificate stating cause, etc. which took months), i was not able to update all proper information with my section 8 caseworker. when i did, she tole me my rent would be paid back to november (in february, mind you) and paid up to his month! not only that, but THE LANDLORD WOULD OWE ME MONEY!

and now i’m being told i owe $1500 to the landlord because i was making too much money at my ($2.62/hr+shit tips) serving job and am now required to pay $285 in rent each month, which supposedly dates back to november 2017 (none of this, again, was disclosed to me upon changing my name to the leaseholder with section 8/my landlord)

so on top of owing ~$1500 in back rent, i just got this electric termination for $358 in the mail recently and have absolutely no idea how i’m supposed to pay for any of this with my current wages at my job. i cover shifts and pick up extra hours to the point where i’m working almost 7 days a week and i’m getting absolutely nowhere for it.

i’m currently going through a list of local organizations and charities, getting in touch, and asking for any and all forms of financial and rental assistance but i know i’ll need all the help i can get right now.

if you wanna help a mentally ill trans person who has literally no one and nowhere to go stay off the street, you can paypal or cashapp me at:

paypal.me/bvlgaribitch

cash.me/$bvlgaribitch

venmo.com/bvlgaribitch thank u to anyone who even considers helping me out!!! if ur into art or music nd want to commission something or would like any work done for a donation lmk!!

please boost!!

THIS IS V URGENT PLS HELP. i know y’all hate me and get tired of hearing about this shit but the death of my mother has ruined me not just emotionally, but entirely. because of the process of getting the valid documents secured (valid, 100% complete death certificate stating cause, etc. which took months), i was not able to update all proper information with my section 8 caseworker. when i did, she tole me my rent would be paid back to november (in february, mind you) and paid up to his month! not only that, but THE LANDLORD WOULD OWE ME MONEY! and now i’m being told i owe $1500 to the landlord because i was making too much money at my ($2.62/hr+shit tips) serving job and am now required to pay $285 in rent each month, which supposedly dates back to november 2017 (none of this, again, was disclosed to me upon changing my name to the leaseholder with section 8/my landlord) so on top of owing ~$1500 in back rent, i just got this electric termination for $358 in the mail recently and have absolutely no idea how i’m supposed to pay for any of this with my current wages at my job. i cover shifts and pick up extra hours to the point where i’m working almost 7 days a week and i’m getting absolutely nowhere for it. i’m currently going through a list of local organizations and charities, getting in touch, and asking for any and all forms of financial and rental assistance but i know i’ll need all the help i can get right now. if you wanna help a mentally ill trans person who has literally no one and nowhere to go stay off the street, you can paypal or cashapp me at: paypal.me/bvlgaribitch cash.me/$bvlgaribitch venmo.com/bvlgaribitch thank u to anyone who even considers helping me out!!! if ur into art or music nd want to commission something or would like any work done for a donation lmk!!

everything is falling apart and i really hope i die soon or gain the courage to fucking end it i cant do this anymore i can’t i can’t take it

PLEASE HELP ME, IM STILL STRUGGLING AFTER THE LOSS OF MY MOM.

i’m completely desperate. commissions haven’t been coming in and camming has been on and off/iffy. money is nonexistent after i paid my electric bill. i’m flat broke.

i’m waiting for my background check to come back (i was told to call friday) before i can start this serving job i interviewed for. until then, i have no money and i haven’t been able to make anything through other means.

i’m late on my sanitary bill and if i don’t pay it by friday, they’re going to shut my water off and add a reconnection fee on top of my bill in order to turn it back on.

on top of that, my actual water bill is due on the 28th and i have no idea how i’m going to pay it.

please, please, anything helps. please consider helping a disabled, mentally ill trans girl who’s still mourning the loss of her mom and has never had to be so alone before.

i offer cam services, custom videos, i’m not currently doing large commissions but i will do smaller, less detailed pieces. please contact me if you’re interested.

DONATE HERE:

paypal.me/bvlgaribitch

cash.me/$bvlgaribitch

venmo.com/bvlgaribitch

UPDATE: SANITARY WAS TAKEN CARE OF, STILL WORKING ON WATER!!

thank u to every single person who’s helped me out i am so grateful i cannot express!!! if i get a few more donations i can pay my water bill, but any donations are appreciated because i’d also like to have some groceries. i start orientation on monday!! i just won’t be serving and making tips until maybe saturday of next week at the soonest.

pleass donate or boost if you can!! thank u again!!!

PLEASE HELP ME, IM STILL STRUGGLING AFTER THE LOSS OF MY MOM.

i’m completely desperate. commissions haven’t been coming in and camming has been on and off/iffy. money is nonexistent after i paid my electric bill. i’m flat broke.

i’m waiting for my background check to come back (i was told to call friday) before i can start this serving job i interviewed for. until then, i have no money and i haven’t been able to make anything through other means.

i’m late on my sanitary bill and if i don’t pay it by friday, they’re going to shut my water off and add a reconnection fee on top of my bill in order to turn it back on.

on top of that, my actual water bill is due on the 28th and i have no idea how i’m going to pay it.

please, please, anything helps. please consider helping a disabled, mentally ill trans girl who’s still mourning the loss of her mom and has never had to be so alone before.

i offer cam services, custom videos, i’m not currently doing large commissions but i will do smaller, less detailed pieces. please contact me if you’re interested.

DONATE HERE:

paypal.me/bvlgaribitch

cash.me/$bvlgaribitch

venmo.com/bvlgaribitch

BOOST! PLEASE, PLEASE, HELP ME OUT ON THIS FIRST THANKSGIVING WITHOUT MY MOM.

Imagine paying $40 extra a month for Tumblr

That’s what is going to happen if we let Ajit Pai, the FCC chairman, go through with repealing Title II (AKA Net Neutrality).

Simply put, without Net Neutrality, Internet Service Providers like Comcast, Verizon, and AT&T will be able to “bundle” websites much like cable ON TOP OF paying for internet connection. “Want access to Netflix AND Tumblr? Get the Entertainment Package! $40 a month. What about Amazon and Ebay? Add an extra $20 a month to get the Shopping Package.”

Not only will they be able to bundle websites and charge more, they will also be able to censor and block websites that they don’t agree with entirely.

THIS WILL BE THE END OF INTERNET AS WE KNOW IT.

For business owners, it will be even worse. Ex: Comcast will ask Amazon to pay high fees to be available in a low-cost package, fees that websites like Poshmark or Etsy will not be able to pay. Therefore, only Fortune 500’s will be available to web users at a low cost. Say goodbye to Etsy (unless you’re willing to shell out $70 a month for the “All-Inclusive” package).

To learn about Net Neutrality, why it’s important, and/or want tools to help you fight for Net Neutrality, visit BattleForTheNet (https://www.battleforthenet.com)

There are five people deciding the future of the internet, three men (Rep) and two women (Dem). The two women have come out as No votes. We need only to convince ONE of the other members to flip to a NO vote to save Net Neutrality.

There are many ways you can help:

WHAT TO DO IF YOU’RE A LAZY TUMBLR USER WITH ANXIETY WHO TRIES TO HELP WITH JUST REBLOGS / LIKES:

Here are 2 petitions to sign, one international and one exclusively US.

(After you sign make sure to verify via email, it may take up to 30 mins to receive the email).

Text “resist” to 504-09. It’s a bot that will send a formal email, fax, and letter to your representatives. It also finds your representatives for you. All you have to do is text it and it holds your hand the whole way.

HERE ARE MORE STRAIGHTFORWARD ACTIONS YOU CAN TAKE:

These are the emails of the 5 people on the FCC roster.

Blow up their inboxes!

Ajit Pai - Ajit.Pai@fcc.gov

Mignon Clyburn - Mignon.Clyburn@fcc.gov

Michael O'Rielly - Mike.O'Rielly@fcc.gov

Brendan Carr - Brendan.Carr@fcc.gov

Jessica Rosenworcel - Jessica.Rosenworcel@fcc.gov

You can support groups like the Electronic Frontier Foundation and the ACLU and Free Press who are fighting to keep Net Neutrality:

Set them as your charity on Amazon Smile here (https://smile.amazon.com/)

Write to your House Representative here

Write to the FCC here (https://www.fcc.gov/about/contact)

Here’s an easier URL you can use thanks to John Oliver (http://www.gofccyourself.com)

Also check this out, which was made by the EFF and is a low transaction cost tool for writing all your reps in one fell swoop.

Most importantly, VOTE. This should not be something that is so clearly split between the political parties as it affects all Americans, but unfortunately it is.

PLEASE HELP ME, IM STILL STRUGGLING AFTER THE LOSS OF MY MOM.

i’m completely desperate. commissions haven’t been coming in and camming has been on and off/iffy. money is nonexistent after i paid my electric bill. i’m flat broke.

i’m waiting for my background check to come back (i was told to call friday) before i can start this serving job i interviewed for. until then, i have no money and i haven’t been able to make anything through other means.

i’m late on my sanitary bill and if i don’t pay it by friday, they’re going to shut my water off and add a reconnection fee on top of my bill in order to turn it back on.

on top of that, my actual water bill is due on the 28th and i have no idea how i’m going to pay it.

please, please, anything helps. please consider helping a disabled, mentally ill trans girl who’s still mourning the loss of her mom and has never had to be so alone before.

i offer cam services, custom videos, i’m not currently doing large commissions but i will do smaller, less detailed pieces. please contact me if you’re interested.

DONATE HERE:

paypal.me/bvlgaribitch

cash.me/$bvlgaribitch

venmo.com/bvlgaribitch

URGENT!!! PLEASE HELP ME!!!

hi guys, sorry to be so informal, but as of monday (10/16/17), i woke up in my mom’s arms for the last time to find that she had passed. i am suicidal. i am not eating. i am not taking care of myself. i cannot work as my internet has been shut off and as of now i am writing and posting from my phone.

i have no living relatives and i have never been without my mom or her guidance and i am not coping well with this.

financially, her SSI helped get the bills (mostly) paid and my cam work and art helped take care of the rest. the only support i currently have is the moral support of three unrelated friends in real life. i’m already clinically depressed, bi-polar, i have intermittent explosive disorder, i have chronic PCOS, fibromyalgia, chronic fatigue, and more.

i’m trying to make it through this and carry on, for her. i need help. please. just a single dollar or even change would be helpful as of right now. i’m currently due $75 to internet, past due on water $54 (likely breaking my payment arrangement), and in terms of a memorial, $4,290 and after the state helps with $2,395 i’m left with $1,895 to pay out of pocket.

i’m truly grateful for anyone who even reads this, much less to anyone who donates. this is the hardest thing i have ever done and the most pain i have ever endured.

DONATE HERE:
paypal.me/bvlgaribitch
cash.me/$bvlgaribitch
venmo.com/bvlgaribitch

please boost this if you can, i still REALLY need help and i’m already starting to recieve november bills and i’m honestly having a huge, extremely long panic attack that i can’t escape.

UPDATE! STILL NEED HELP DESPERATELY!!

i got the internet taken care of, it’s expected to be on by friday, nov 3rd. i’m working out my water situation, but i still don’t have the funds to have my mom cremated and get her back home to me.

i haven’t been eating to keep what little i have in my pocket to save for that purpose, and november bills have already started arriving. i’m drowning in anxiety and worry. my body is starting to really show the side effects of not eating. i’m scared, desperate, very alone, and trying to stay alive and keep pushing.

i have put in applications for work at several places within walking distance but i haven’t heard anything back yet. please pray that i get a call back!

PLEASE, IF YOU CAN, HELP! I’m grateful for every cent!!

PLEASE BOOST!! my internet has still not been set back up and i am almost entirely out of data on my phone, idek how i’m gonna pay my phone bill at this point.

i just used my last few $$ on my phone bill ($45 straight talk plan) and i’d really like to eat tonight if at all possible, i’d be rly grateful for just a few bucks to make it through the day with some groceries!!

paypal.me/bvlgaribitch

cash.me/$bvlgaribitch

venmo.com/bvlgaribitch

i can’t believe all the people losing their shit over this post are the same people who make ‘triggered’ jokes.

Here’s the thing.

If you at all monitor your language based on your audience—avoiding curse words in front of kids, using bigger words in front of your boss—you obviously care about the impression your words give people. 

Do you avoid talking about the attractive sex after your bestie’s breakup? Congratulations, friend, you’re being a decent human being.

Your friend wishes you call them Charlie instead of Charlotte. It’s just a nickname. Would you say “No, your birth certificate says Charlotte so I’m calling you Charlotte?”

Your co-worker tells you that he gets extremely uncomfortable when you clap him on the shoulder, due to a creepy uncle who did the same thing. Do you make a point to clap him on the shoulder every time you see him?

It is really not that difficult to be “politically correct.” It does not mean that you must eliminate all opinions completely, it merely means—at a basic level—that you should attempt to be aware of your audience and how your words and actions affect them. 

Don’t call it being “PC,” if you must. Call it being “aware and empathetic.” Being a human with decency and respect for other people, cultures, and experiences.

^boom. couldn’t have said it better myself.

It’s funny that people bitch about “PC culture” ruining their “traditional values”, but the fact of the matter is that their great grandparents would have called it “being polite” and probably slapped the shit out of them for considering asshole behavior a virtue.

URGENT!!! PLEASE HELP ME!!!

hi guys, sorry to be so informal, but as of monday (10/16/17), i woke up in my mom’s arms for the last time to find that she had passed. i am suicidal. i am not eating. i am not taking care of myself. i cannot work as my internet has been shut off and as of now i am writing and posting from my phone.

i have no living relatives and i have never been without my mom or her guidance and i am not coping well with this.

financially, her SSI helped get the bills (mostly) paid and my cam work and art helped take care of the rest. the only support i currently have is the moral support of three unrelated friends in real life. i’m already clinically depressed, bi-polar, i have intermittent explosive disorder, i have chronic PCOS, fibromyalgia, chronic fatigue, and more.

i’m trying to make it through this and carry on, for her. i need help. please. just a single dollar or even change would be helpful as of right now. i’m currently due $75 to internet, past due on water $54 (likely breaking my payment arrangement), and in terms of a memorial, $4,290 and after the state helps with $2,395 i’m left with $1,895 to pay out of pocket.

i’m truly grateful for anyone who even reads this, much less to anyone who donates. this is the hardest thing i have ever done and the most pain i have ever endured.

DONATE HERE:
paypal.me/bvlgaribitch
cash.me/$bvlgaribitch
venmo.com/bvlgaribitch

please boost this if you can, i still REALLY need help and i’m already starting to recieve november bills and i’m honestly having a huge, extremely long panic attack that i can’t escape.

UPDATE! STILL NEED HELP DESPERATELY!!

i got the internet taken care of, it’s expected to be on by friday, nov 3rd. i’m working out my water situation, but i still don’t have the funds to have my mom cremated and get her back home to me.

i haven’t been eating to keep what little i have in my pocket to save for that purpose, and november bills have already started arriving. i’m drowning in anxiety and worry. my body is starting to really show the side effects of not eating. i’m scared, desperate, very alone, and trying to stay alive and keep pushing.

i have put in applications for work at several places within walking distance but i haven’t heard anything back yet. please pray that i get a call back!

PLEASE, IF YOU CAN, HELP! I’m grateful for every cent!!

PLEASE BOOST!! my internet has still not been set back up and i am almost entirely out of data on my phone, idek how i’m gonna pay my phone bill at this point.

URGENT!!! PLEASE HELP ME!!!

hi guys, sorry to be so informal, but as of monday (10/16/17), i woke up in my mom’s arms for the last time to find that she had passed. i am suicidal. i am not eating. i am not taking care of myself. i cannot work as my internet has been shut off and as of now i am writing and posting from my phone.

i have no living relatives and i have never been without my mom or her guidance and i am not coping well with this.

financially, her SSI helped get the bills (mostly) paid and my cam work and art helped take care of the rest. the only support i currently have is the moral support of three unrelated friends in real life. i’m already clinically depressed, bi-polar, i have intermittent explosive disorder, i have chronic PCOS, fibromyalgia, chronic fatigue, and more.

i’m trying to make it through this and carry on, for her. i need help. please. just a single dollar or even change would be helpful as of right now. i’m currently due $75 to internet, past due on water $54 (likely breaking my payment arrangement), and in terms of a memorial, $4,290 and after the state helps with $2,395 i’m left with $1,895 to pay out of pocket.

i’m truly grateful for anyone who even reads this, much less to anyone who donates. this is the hardest thing i have ever done and the most pain i have ever endured.

DONATE HERE:
paypal.me/bvlgaribitch
cash.me/$bvlgaribitch
venmo.com/bvlgaribitch

please boost this if you can, i still REALLY need help and i’m already starting to recieve november bills and i’m honestly having a huge, extremely long panic attack that i can’t escape.

UPDATE! STILL NEED HELP DESPERATELY!!

i got the internet taken care of, it’s expected to be on by friday, nov 3rd. i’m working out my water situation, but i still don’t have the funds to have my mom cremated and get her back home to me.

i haven’t been eating to keep what little i have in my pocket to save for that purpose, and november bills have already started arriving. i’m drowning in anxiety and worry. my body is starting to really show the side effects of not eating. i’m scared, desperate, very alone, and trying to stay alive and keep pushing.

i have put in applications for work at several places within walking distance but i haven’t heard anything back yet. please pray that i get a call back!

PLEASE, IF YOU CAN, HELP! I’m grateful for every cent!!

URGENT!!! PLEASE HELP ME!!!

hi guys, sorry to be so informal, but as of monday (10/16/17), i woke up in my mom’s arms for the last time to find that she had passed. i am suicidal. i am not eating. i am not taking care of myself. i cannot work as my internet has been shut off and as of now i am writing and posting from my phone.

i have no living relatives and i have never been without my mom or her guidance and i am not coping well with this.

financially, her SSI helped get the bills (mostly) paid and my cam work and art helped take care of the rest. the only support i currently have is the moral support of three unrelated friends in real life. i’m already clinically depressed, bi-polar, i have intermittent explosive disorder, i have chronic PCOS, fibromyalgia, chronic fatigue, and more.

i’m trying to make it through this and carry on, for her. i need help. please. just a single dollar or even change would be helpful as of right now. i’m currently due $75 to internet, past due on water $54 (likely breaking my payment arrangement), and in terms of a memorial, $4,290 and after the state helps with $2,395 i’m left with $1,895 to pay out of pocket.

i’m truly grateful for anyone who even reads this, much less to anyone who donates. this is the hardest thing i have ever done and the most pain i have ever endured.

DONATE HERE:
paypal.me/bvlgaribitch
cash.me/$bvlgaribitch
venmo.com/bvlgaribitch

please boost this if you can, i still REALLY need help and i’m already starting to recieve november bills and i’m honestly having a huge, extremely long panic attack that i can’t escape.