Avatar

There's a butterfly in the well...

@butterflyinthewell / butterflyinthewell.tumblr.com

✨Queer 40+ year old fandom hag. Nerdy autistic self-advocate. Antibullying activist. Likes to sing. Yells about Godzilla.
⚠️ *** Blacklist β€œnaughty post” to avoid occasional NSFW content. It’s usually fanfics and bawdy jokes/memes, but pics or fanart that show a bare butt may happen too. ***
πŸ¦‹Blog desktop background credit: lbkr14 on Desktop Nexus.
⛔️No DNI lists here; I hit the block button when I see someone I don’t want to interact wi

July 16th, 11:22am est, 8:22am pst.

It’s been 10 years since I saw the Facebook post that brought me to tears.

10 years since this precious child breathed her last.

Let’s end cancer. It’s ended too many young lives.

β€œIt is with a heavy heart that we share with all of you that Talia has earned her wings at 11:22am. Please lift her beautiful soul, her beautiful light to heaven and please send your love and prayers to her family during this most difficult time. God speed little one, may you be free from pain and suffering, may your soul feel the light and love that you brought to so many of us on this Earth during the short time you were her with us. We will miss you more than you will ever know baby girl.”

Clean the mold out of your reusable water bottle including the cap and straw

Mold poisoning will kill you and has a high chance of causing severe hallucinations and nightmares while it's doing it. My final message goodbye

Oh, hey, yea that's a good reminder! Wait a second tho

Avatar

A year or so ago I saw someone who studies bacteria on food surfaces talking about how she never ever uses a water bottle for longer than 2 days without washing it with hot water and soap or running it through the dishwasher and I've become really adamant about it ever since. Everyone has enough water bottles to keep them cycling through the dishwasher and in use.

Also please don't die.

Yup to all of this, but also, if you read this and went β€œlol, I have too much ADHD for that - do you know how many water bottles I would actually need to buy?”

I need you to listen closely, right now

Yes, you might, in fact, need to buy a mountain of water bottles

β€œBut the plastic-”

There comes times when disability, sustainability best practices, and your health cannot co-exist

And you cannot stop being disabled

You might need to not only buy a mountain of water bottles, but also keep prepackaged single use water bottles for emergencies when every surface of your house is covered in reusable water bottles that haven’t been cleaned, and you find yourself asking β€œwhat’s the harm in using this one for one more day?” for the seventh day in a row

Or going β€œwell, I’m not that thirsty anyway” and stopping drinking water altogether

Don’t make yourself ill holding yourself to standards you cannot meet

Denture cleaning tablets are your friends, people who like stickers on your water bottle! They are dead cheap and in conjunction with a bottle brush, they clean effectively.

I buy single use water bottles. I'm disabled and individual. I do wash in hot water but I also am good friends with a microbiologist who likes to infodump Fun Facts about food and bacteria

I gave up on my reusable water bottle when I started to get sick to my stomach once a week. Cramping, diarrhea, bloating, etc. It stopped once I went back to my regular water bottles again.

Btw yes I was diligent about washing all the parts inside and out, and I still kept getting sick until I switched back to disposables again.

If you attack people in fandom for what they ship, stay away from me.

No, I don’t care if it’s a gross weird badwrong ship. I can block and move on to not see it, you can’t undo the trauma caused by massive dogpiles and harassment.

Fandom used to be where the nerds came to escape bullies, and now those bullies moved into fandom and make everybody miserable.

Good grief.

one day you will wake up, and live your life without some constant ache in your chest. one day you’ll look back at the angry, sad, lonely, desperate journal entries or suicide note drafts and realize that you can barely remember what it felt like to be consumed with such anger and sadness. because even though you may not be where you want to be just yet, you’ll be better. your scars will have healed. your heart will have healed. you will have healed.

and i promise, that day will come for you, no matter how impossible it may seem. all you have to do is hold on.