but still, how sweet the release of bitter death ?

You’ve gotta stop making yourself look stupid. Offering promises to yourself as the world watches on to see you stumble like a fool who is too use to making claims of grandeur

you could only hope to become half of what I will be someday

the hopeless explorer

I’ve noticed my tendencies to think I’m something special. I believe that no one can compare to me and fall short in regards to the specifics. Have I gone crazy or did the sky part to tell me my destiny? If I believe in my divinity what does it mean for me?

promise to self

I had realized that people make me feel. They are to blame for my happiness and yet they are at fault for my sadness. I have given too much power to the world around me. I will no longer give a single soul that power over me. You will never be the reason for my smile. You will never be the reason for my ache. That is my power and I claim it as my own. I will hold my heart in my own hands, careful not to loosen my grip.

Dec 31 2019

What is it that allows you to hurt in so many places at once but never gain the energy to help yourself? Hopelessness begets despair and you become paralyzed. Im at the bottom of a pool watching the air glide across the water, but I don’t have the strength to swim upwards. I feel trapped.