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Tired.

@bru1sedandfragile

TW!! block don’t report || they/nem ||, CW: 135, UGW: 95 || 16

Tw: self deprecation

I’m struggling so much not because I’m depressed but because I feel like I’m not depressed enough, I want a thigh gap, I want to feel skinny I want people to look at me and ask what happened to me. I want people to be concerned, I want them to notice me cause I’m skinny and beautiful, why can’t I look like you? Why can’t I feel like my Ed is actually affecting me and not making me eat more, I can’t stand this anymore, WHERE ARE MY BONES?!?

An abuser genuinely not realizing what they were doing to you does not invalidate your trauma or feelings. You are still allowed to not forgive them, to be angry at them and even to hate them. 

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bpdamn

i feel so out of place around people. i feel helpless no matter how polite or welcoming everyone is. i don’t fit in. i was made to be alone. i just need to be by myself, it’s as simple and as complicated as that.