The Most Realistic Bucket List:
Since my health seems to just be leaning towards failing and this time it doesn’t seem like I’ll bounce back, I’m putting together a quick bucket list in no particular order. If you know who I am, please don’t put this info up anywhere on my main blogs, or public accounts. Thank you.
(May add more later)
1: see an owl saw a Snow Bunting!
2: take one more really good photo and be proud of it regardless if other people like it
3: make sure I’m around at least long enough to keep Noodle comfortable in her old age. (So take the barf med.)
4: make something that mom really likes
5: provide as much comfort to her and Noodle as possible. Which means doing more even if it hurts
6: do more Google earth traveling since we can’t really travel. Fuck running out of internet data.
7: eat Brie it hurt me insides
8: draw what I really feel like drawing not only stuff for other people
9: read the books. Read them
10: I want to see the ocean again
11: plant milkweed
12: carve something out of wood
13: I want a churro
14: I really want to see a whale
15: draw one really awesome book cover for any book, any fanfic, anything.
16: write. Literally anything. I wrote a thing
17: be cheerful. No one wants to hear about the negative stuff in your life anymore. Tell them only good things
18: get your permit/license Jfc
19: go out more. Fuck it. Waste gas going to the lake or whatever
20: remember to say I love you to friends and don’t let trauma get in the way.
21: find the perfect gift for Q. It has to be possible.
22: allow myself to stim like I actually need to to feel comfort
23: buy noise canceling headphones and actually use them for when noise is too much DONE! Thanks to a very kind friend who helped me out ♥️
24: see if I can help my mom quit smoking one more time.
25: make her her favorite samosas
26: buy a small grill and grill some fucking zucchini finally! Life long dream!!
27: let go of the biggest dreams/wants. They can’t happen. Let it go. —This is an ongoing process.
28: feed a bird from my hand
29: write summery endings for all my unfinished fanfics IN PROGRESS!
30: see the northern lights properly I finally got to see them! (As clearly as possible for where I am.)
31: have a lobster roll with butter
32: WE WANT TO GO TO HAWAII 😭
33: genuinely feel proud of myself for stuff I’ve done
34: try to find an rv for my mom. Even a rental.

















