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@brotha-lamp

You either know who runs this account or your don’t. Either way, feel free to let me know if I share a post from a TERF or someone as equally hateful so I can remove it. I usually use this account at night after a long day so I don’t always check sources.

The Most Realistic Bucket List:

Since my health seems to just be leaning towards failing and this time it doesn’t seem like I’ll bounce back, I’m putting together a quick bucket list in no particular order. If you know who I am, please don’t put this info up anywhere on my main blogs, or public accounts. Thank you.

(May add more later)

1: see an owl saw a Snow Bunting!

2: take one more really good photo and be proud of it regardless if other people like it

3: make sure I’m around at least long enough to keep Noodle comfortable in her old age. (So take the barf med.)

4: make something that mom really likes

5: provide as much comfort to her and Noodle as possible. Which means doing more even if it hurts

6: do more Google earth traveling since we can’t really travel. Fuck running out of internet data.

7: eat Brie it hurt me insides

8: draw what I really feel like drawing not only stuff for other people

9: read the books. Read them

10: I want to see the ocean again

11: plant milkweed

12: carve something out of wood

13: I want a churro

14: I really want to see a whale

15: draw one really awesome book cover for any book, any fanfic, anything.

16: write. Literally anything. I wrote a thing

17: be cheerful. No one wants to hear about the negative stuff in your life anymore. Tell them only good things

18: get your permit/license Jfc

19: go out more. Fuck it. Waste gas going to the lake or whatever

20: remember to say I love you to friends and don’t let trauma get in the way.

21: find the perfect gift for Q. It has to be possible.

22: allow myself to stim like I actually need to to feel comfort

23: buy noise canceling headphones and actually use them for when noise is too much DONE! Thanks to a very kind friend who helped me out ♥️

24: see if I can help my mom quit smoking one more time.

25: make her her favorite samosas

26: buy a small grill and grill some fucking zucchini finally! Life long dream!!

27: let go of the biggest dreams/wants. They can’t happen. Let it go. —This is an ongoing process.

28: feed a bird from my hand

29: write summery endings for all my unfinished fanfics IN PROGRESS!

30: see the northern lights properly I finally got to see them! (As clearly as possible for where I am.)

31: have a lobster roll with butter

32: WE WANT TO GO TO HAWAII 😭

33: genuinely feel proud of myself for stuff I’ve done

34: try to find an rv for my mom. Even a rental.

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There's a user called Erika Horn (@erikahorn.art) on tiktok who made a "duet me" challenge so technically impressive that all of the duets are exactly like this LMAO

Okay guys I have NEVER recommended anything here other than books and hashtag not sponsored BUT. I just got my Nike Go FlyEase shoes and they are a disability GAME CHANGER for me.

[img desc: a person steps onto an odd looking sneaker which is folded partially in half. the shoe closes around their foot as they step down]

They are a funky little shoe that literally FOLDS in such a manner that they can be put on and off entirely without your hands; you can just step in and out of them.

The history of them is actually very interesting; the FlyEase line was always designed with disability in mind (the first one was inspired by a teenager with cerebral palsy, Matthew Walzer). They've been a thing for years but they never had one that particularly stood out to me amongst other similar shoes... until the Go.

You see, along with being someone who has only a few bends in me per day before it's all over, I'm also a fall risk. Like a comical fall risk. I've fallen into traffic. I will just roll over and die at a moment's notice. And most slide on shoes are unstable and slip around on your foot. This shoe clamps onto me like a goddamn vice. It's Got Me. It's also got good arch support which is like, a plus. By freeing up a bunch of bend-overs per day, this is going to leave me with a lot more ability and energy, especially on the bad days.

They sound too good to be true (I was VERY skeptical buying them despite the video review), but seriously, you can just step into them--and out of them by stepping on that chonky back heel there. God knows I'm not the only person with difficulty sliding on heels or tying laces in the world, so I thought I would be remiss if I didn't recommend them. If you think they might help you out, they probably WOULD, as they were recommended to me by Footless Jo, an amputee YouTuber, and as mentioned, were inspired in part by people with disabilities ranging from cerebral palsy to past strokes.

They're Pricey but ultimately average when it comes to Nice Shoes(tm), the ones I got were $125.

Kikiz is the company that developed this specific tech! Nike opted to fund them rather than buy them out, in part because a lot of their workers were old Nike employees.

It’s almost as if focusing on eradicating the factors that drive people to addiction, rather than criminalizing the addiction itself, has a better outcome. who would’ve guessed 🤔🤔🤔

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OKAY WAIT I HAVE TO ADD SOMETHING.

One of the other consequences is that Lisbon now does have a drug problem… with fake drugs. Seriously. People are hawking flour as ‘cocaine’ and ground bay leaves as ‘hashish’ to tourists on the street. The police have run anti-bay-leaf campaigns, but they can’t arrest these dealers because the items they’re selling are perfectly legal, and technically if a tourist is stupid enough to buy flour and think it’s cocaine, that’s their own fault.

You guys I just realized that what I’ve always wanted out of werewolf fiction is a story where lycanthropy isn’t a purely human condition

Like this dude wakes up from his wolfbender and his room is full of all these fucking chickens from local farms that he initiated into his pack. They all start clucking and crowing at the moon and when it’s full they all transform into these tiny little weird bipedal wolves with wings.

I don’t remember making this post but it’s going around again and I’m losing my shit

Imagine becoming a werewolf because you got attacked by a fucked up chicken

A wildlife rehab centre discovers that one of its patients is a lycanthrope when the full moon hits and their wolf transforms into a slightly different wolf.

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Casual reminder that The Washington Post is owned by Nash Holdings, which is controlled by good ol’ Jeffery Bezos.

Was going to keep this in the tags BUT I think it’s important people understand that sturgeon caviar is only a luxury in the first place because of colonization. Anishanabae and other Great Lakes area tribes (and I’m sure more I’m just speaking where I am from) have been fishing Sturgeon for literally thousands of years. Besides consuming the fish eggs and meat we also made glue from its bladder, bags from its skin and used the oil from the fish as well. Sturgeon is important to many of our tribes traditionally and spiritually. So much so we even have Clans in honor of the Sturgeon. Than European settler-colonizers showed up and like they decimated Buffalo populations to starve Natives they did similarly with Sturgeon. When they pushed our people onto reservations they also created laws and legislation to keep us from fishing and hunting in our own ancestral lands. Than they built fisheries and Damns, destroying habitats and overfishing sturgeon to near extinction.

a lot of people in the notes are saying “this is the opposite of what happened with Lobster” so I wanted to point out that no it is actually exactly what happened to lobster.

Did you know that leeches were once used to predict storms? Well, a tornado warning just dropped and my squad is climbing

My dad is a meteorologist and he has never once warned me about an incoming storm. My leeches, however......

https://amp.theguardian.com/news/2015/apr/19/weatherwatch-forecasting-tempest-prognosticator-storm-leech

*urgently* Lads, the leechometre is at 12 bong, I repeat, 12 bong!

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"tempest prognosticator" absolutely sounds like some kind of arcane device a wizard would have lying around in his workshop

It would also probably have leeches in it.

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PSA: *Beware* AI-generated fungi guidebooks!!

…Not a phrase I imagined myself typing today. But, via @heyMAKWA on Twitter:

“i'm not going to link any of them here, for a variety of reasons, but please be aware of what is probably the deadliest AI scam i've ever heard of:

“plant and fungi foraging guide books. the authors are invented, their credentials are invented, and their species IDs will kill you.”

…So PLEASE be careful if you run across anything of this kind.

(ETA: Corrected egregious typo in the title. Apologies, as I was [a] in bed [b] typing hurriedly and one-handed on the iPad, and [c] I think its native keyboard may need recalibration, but also [d] I was upset about what I was having to post, because seriously, WTF?!!)

Source: twitter.com

So what this paint company does is take iron pollution from abandoned mines that are polluting soils and rivers and makes iron based red pigment paints out of it.

Basically they realized hey no one's cleaning this shit up, it's polluting the streams, killing all the fish, making the water undrinkable and there's a huge market for it so why not make money by cleaning it the fuck up?

They remove this stuff by the industrial bucket load from the rivers. The idea is if it's in a painting, if it's in your home, it's not poisoning wildlife.

anyway its cool as shit, please support tf out of these people https://gamblinstore.com/reclaimed-earth-colors-set/

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Let me add the Swedish "Falu Red", the paint that's been doing this cool shit for centuries and is the the reason Swedish (and other nordic countries) wooden houses are traditionally red with white trim;

It's based on mineral rich waste products from the Great Falu copper mine and its been in production since the 18th century.

Cole is an inside cat, and that means he takes it EXCEEDINGLY personally whenever he finds somewhere in the house that he's not allowed to go. he also Yearns for the washing machine.

Gustave Caillebotte, The Floor Planers, 1875

All hail Gustave Caillebotte, the only Impressionist who bothered to say “You know what this art movement doesn’t have enough of? Shirtless rough trade, that’s what!” And then he became the change he wanted to see in the world, and I think that’s beautiful.

What is dat *aggressively scuttles* 

I still contend that this is, in fact, the best video on the internet, period. The sheer comedic timing. The knowledge that it cannot possibly have been constructed. The very human expression Pallas cats’ round pupils give them. And the backstory that this was literally the first footage captured by this camera in this placement, that this is the cat immediately noticing his environment has been changed and investigating with all the suspicion of a grumpy old gardener whose gnomes have been moved again…. *chef’s kiss*

Source: justcatposts

it took another trans man sharing his blood test results with me for me to realize my doctor was committing malpractice for the past seven years by giving me far too little testosterone

it took many trans masculine people sharing their results with me to confirm it so I knew to try to find a different doctor, and they are now doubling my testosterone

I'm going to make sure to warn as many trans people as I can, as an individual, so that other people were not hurt in the way that I was hurt

this is why it's important to build communities for trans people and include them

To add to this point: It took me three years to realize my doctor committed malpractice by massively overdosing me on testosterone. It took me collapsing on my way to work and not being able to use my legs for them to figure out I was about to have a stroke as a direct result. My blood being as thick as it was meant even with twice daily blood thinners the phlebotomy I needed wasn’t possible with a 16G needle. I had a McDonalds strawberry milkshake running through my veins as apposed to the blood that should have been there and I just wouldn’t bleed. No matter how hard they tried they weren’t able to draw enough blood.

In part due to the autoimmune response that alerted me something was wrong I’ve been in pain everyday since the day before I collapsed. It’s been 5 years.

I had to be taken off testosterone and placed on blockers multiple times to prove that testosterone at healthy levels wasn’t contributing to my symptoms continuing. As an additional “fuck you” we already knew my body doesn’t function well on an estrogen dominant system. I required hospitalization and medication when I had periods when I was off testosterone. As a result of that it was recommended I get a hysterectomy sooner rather than later. Now I’m back on testosterone off blockers with a few less reproductive organs and a shit ton of medical trauma.

I will continue to scream this story from the top of my lungs until people realize the importance not just of testing your levels but understanding what the hell they even mean.

Talk to your friends about your levels have them talk to you about yours. Remind each other when it’s time to get tested. Ensure you and your friends don’t wind up like me.

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for reference:

-between ~300 and 600 ng/dl is the average male testosterone level across men across most age groups (excluding under 18)

-average male red blood cell count is between ~4.5-6 million red blood cells/mcl

-average male hemoglobin is ~13.5-17.5 g/dl

testosterone can cause your body to produce a lot more red blood cells (polycythemia) which can cause the blood thickening ^ not only should your doctor be checking your testosterone levels AT LEAST once a year, but they should also be checking your rbc count and hemoglobin levels. your doctor should also be sharing these results with you so you can make educated decisions about your health. please ask your doctor to see your results if they dont already share them, and if your levels are off, please try to see a new doctor if possible 💚