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The struggle is real Batman. So real. 

Do you ever look back and ask yourself, what the hell was I thinking? I did this morning. I just woke up, reflective. Literally NOTHING about my ex, inside OR out, was attractive. They weren't my type at all and had a disgusting personality. A piece of shit all around. I must've felt so low about myself.. I settled for the absolute bottom of the barrel. It's embarrassing to look back on.. everyone close to me was shocked and confused at my choice. So am I. There was genuinely nothing good about them. Nothing. I had to conjure and create traits and qualities that were never there. I was lying to myself.. but I always knew. Internally, I always felt so disgusted by them. I never felt safe or comfortable, ever. I was constantly gaslighted, controlled, degraded and discarded. I've never met someone so cruel and warped in the head. So fucked up. I'm just gratefuI I left that abusive, traumatic situation. It was very painful, still is in some ways.. but I learned a lot: I know what love is NOT. I know what to watch out for, I identify the red flags and listen to my gut. I love myself more and I'm cautious with my heart. Selective with my love. Protective of my energy. That person is on a sinking ship, karma is on their ass for LIFE. They will never know true peace, only superficial highs that lead straight back to darkness. That abyss was never meant for a light like me. Healing is a process but I made it out. Thank God.

I’m like romantic horny

no offense but i’m literally starving for affection but when people give it to me i can’t accept it as valid because i’m worried i’ve manipulated their perception of me by only portraying myself a certain way and feeling like this portrayal of myself is an imposter and makes me disingenuous and not deserving of the affection they give me.