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Wander

@brittneyrendon2000

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I thought you were magic. When I fell in love, it felt like this high I never experienced. I never wanted it to end. But it did. It ended .
I remember the moment I fell in love with you, it was May 5th. It was dark and we went looking underneath the stars, an we looked at each other you told me you were in love with me. I said it scares me to say this I love you too. It felt like everything was whole. Nothing could go wrong. Everything felt right in this moment. And we are still dating till this day, an I couldn’t be more in love with you.
I need more. As in just sex. I know we both got busy schedules but if you wanted to you could make way more time for me. I see you like every couple days for a hour or two. And you don’t even pay attention to me. I stay looking at you. Wanting to kiss you be in that moment idc if I’m tired b/c I can do that at home. But always once your done with sex I have to leave. Thanks for letting me cuddle you an you watch the office. I want us. How you missed me so much an reminded me everyday. How you told me you loved me with a bunch of hearts. Little things like that made me so happy. But 3 months later I get 1 or 2 hours every couple days. I get I’m not the only thing on your busy schedule you have to make time for friends of course, gym, school that kinda thing. I know you aren’t free all the time. But when I get out of work at 6 wouldn’t you wanna spend more time with me. We can go for a walk or anything where it involves us really there with each other. I don’t feel like we’re connecting anymore. The kisses are short. Only time we do is when you get in my car and say ma baby an hug me. That is the time. An I soak that moment in like crazy because I know the rest of the night I’m not there. I don’t think this is too much to ask for. We use to spend every day together in the summer. And that was really nice, we became best friends. But now I feel like I’m losing my bestfriend. I don’t wanna be a object on the side for only you want to have sex. Why can’t you WANNA see me talk with me. Hold me. That’s what couples do right? I want him to want me like I want him. I’m that person that soaks in moments with him and he is just waiting to sleep because he got what he wanted. I am better than this. I need more.
uptional
“People scare me. They change their minds so quick. One moment it’s “I love you” and “you make me happy” and the next it’s “I’m not sure anymore” and “this isn’t what I want.””

— Unknown (via feahrs)

My vows to you: I can’t believe this day is here. I have been thinking about this day since I was 14, I have always wanted an extraordinary love, and you given that to me. You are my person, my bestfriend. I am so glad I have found you. I can’t wait to go on adventures with you. You are my everything.
My breakup letter: thankyou. Thankyou for the experiences! Like a whole bundle of them. While we had rough times where we didn’t understand one another I will look back and cherish our good times. You have given me memories I won’t ever forget. I will always have a special place for you in my heart, I love you baby.❤️
My body is my temple. Don’t hate it. Just give it love. Why is it so hard to love ourselves. We keep comparing with one another that we aren’t good enough. Were all completely different and that’s okay. I’m okay. I need to love myself more tenderly.
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“Please, keep looking. Not for a person, but for your passion, your love, your courage, your goals, your dreams, your happiness, yourself. Keep looking. Explore yourself before you explore another. Know your worth, know yourself. Only then will you know what you need over what you want. You need yourself to become your own.”

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unknown

note to self

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