she said she wanna fuck i said i am scared of the horrors this life brings me every day
Maybe you weren’t a terrible person maybe you were just fifteen
Edit: some of the reblogs are doing my head in. So to put it here again: “I was both” maybe!!! But don’t judge your teenage self against who you are now. You were a child, working with what you had and knew at the time. Of course you would’ve acted before thinking. Of course you yelled and regret it now. Of course you said a few mean things. Hindsight is 20/20. Give yourself some compassion. You were a kid.
“You owe no one anything” is not a philosophy of love nor is it sustainable. We owe each other a lot.
““You’re not a monster,” I said. But I lied. What I really wanted to say was that a monster is not such a terrible thing to be. From the Latin root monstrum, a divine messenger of catastrophe, then adapted by the Old French to mean an animal of myriad origins: centaur, griffin, satyr. To be a monster is to be a hybrid signal, a lighthouse: both shelter and warning at once.”
— Ocean Vuong, from “On Earth We’re Briefly Gorgeous”
(via lamenade)
How to get better sleep.
I have lots of difficulty sleeping so I like to do a lil bit of self care during my various restless nights.
- Make some warm milk or soothing tea. (I prefer to heat up milk on the stove and add in lavender, honey, and vanilla)
- Listen to ambient noise. (Rain, piano, lofi, or whatever else you find relaxing)
- Find bedding that is the comfiest to you. (Silk bed sheets/pillow case and a huge puffy blanket is my preference)
- Light a calming candle if you have one available. Incense works too. (My favorite scents are of the floral variety, rose in particular)
- Manage whatever you’re stressing over, otherwise it will definitely keep you up. (My schoolwork stresses me out so I make a to-do list to feel like I have my shit together)
- Read something in bed! While I generally prefer to watch tv instead of read, it can actually cause you to stay awake. (I’m currently reading “The Bell Jar” but anything works, including comics and manga)
- Find little things that relieve pain or make your sleeping experience more pleasant! (I have an electric heating pad I sleep on top of)
That’s all for now! I have more ideas but these are the ones that came to mind first. Hope this helps fix ya fucked up sleep schedule!
“And I dream too much and I don't write enough and I'm trying to find God everywhere.”
— Anis Mojgai, from Those Who Can Ride in an Airplane For the First Time
I used to be yours, and now I am mine.
-Poetry At Most
I didn’t want to wake up. I was having a much better time asleep. And that’s really sad. It was almost like a reverse nightmare, like when you wake up from a nightmare you’re so relieved. I woke up into a nightmare.
Ned Vizzini (via thoughtkick)
It is never pleasant to have our old shrines desecrated, even when we have outgrown them.
L. M. Montgomery (Anne of the Island, The Shadow of Change)
I guess being needed is almost as good as being loved. Maybe better.
Betty Smith, A Tree Grows in Brooklyn (via thoughtkick)
Keeping your body healthy is an expression of gratitude to the whole cosmos—the trees, the clouds, everything.
Thich Nhat Hanh (via aspiritualwarrior)
Love is never any better than the lover. Wicked people love wickedly, violent people love violently, weak people love weakly, stupid people love stupidly,
Toni Morrison, from The Bluest Eye (via firstfullmoon)
But no matter how mad I’ve been, I never for one second stopped wanting you here with me.
Colleen Hoover (via quotemadness)
Source: quotemadness.com
Letting go. Everyone talks about it like it’s the easiest thing. Unfurl your fingers one by one until your hand is open. But my hand has been clenched into a fist for… years now; it’s frozen shut.
Gayle Forman (via sunsetquotes)
Be strong now because things will get better. It might be stormy now, but it can’t rain forever.
Unknown (via thoughtkick)