i am undone without you

@braveveth

zilver. 25. she/her. currently: black sails, station eleven, critical role, our flag means death, station eleven, 911, critical role, the wilds, severance (& more)
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STATION ELEVEN (2021)  ↪ episode one — wheel of fire

Hey, Kirsten. Your- your parents just messaged me. I messaged them earlier, I think they just got it. Turns out their car got stuck in Lake Forest. So, yeah, they want you to come with me and stay the night at Frank’s. It turns out they know Frank from work, so they’re cool with it. Also, I was wrong. The world’s not ending. So... that’s cool. 
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figuring out whether or not you're really aro/ace or just a very aware and skittish person is like a special kind of hell. like i think purgatory might just be me having conversations like "well i think i'd be okay with having a romantic relationship and having sex with a hypothetical partner but i'm not interested in doing all the performative bullshit that comes with dating and it's exhausting trying to find anyone who's okay with someone so inexperienced and unsure and i have such a strange way of showing affection and nobody showed me what intimacy or flirting was when i was young which i'm simultaneously grateful for and resentful of because now i'm an adult who's never kissed anybody but at least i had good grades and friends in high school anyway yeah if the interesting guy from class decides to ask me out i'd say yes but i'd feel like throwing up the whole time so what does that say about me"