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@bpd-sadboi-hours

Wow it sure is fun to have a crippling fear of everyone leaving ! Why not make memes about it instead of get actual help! That me!

I saw a tiktok about how diagnosis of mental health conditions at an early age is not a privilege and it's so true -- when your behavior is so extreme and your quality of life is so bad your school can't even handle it and demands you be evaluated, it's not a positive. You have so much autonomy stripped from you as well and the shit they try to do to "help" that ends up further traumatizing you because you're a child and don't know what these adults are doing. Like I would literally scream and cry for help alone in a room. Kindergarten has suuuuch bad memories. I didn't ask for any of this. My family didn't ask for it!

Little kids don't get to advocate for themselves, either. Even if I knew what was going on back then I wouldn't have been able to explain it and fix the problems the treatment was causing me. Instead I got put on jacked up meds and called fixed.

(logging into the beating a slightly funny joke into the fucking ground website) they better not be beating a slightly funny joke into the fucking ground in here

Butch and femme aren’t clothing styles or specific pronouns they are both actually ways of subverting traditional gender roles and there’s no right or wrong way to be butch or femme so jot that down I guess.

Me at my advisor today,

“I (5ft tall adult child) am going to body slam one of my professors (6ft 8in full as grown man) into the ground”

My advisor: Um yeah okay noodle arms.