Dead Grunge

“They tell me “there will be someone else,” but I don’t want there to be I only want you.”

“You are everything I have ever wanted and more. Imagine how much my heart beats for you.”

“but when you leave who will my words be written to whose heart will my own long for and whose eyes would i fall for over and over again when you leave who will i ever love?”

“I’ve started to notice how there were never stars whenever we kissed, they were broken shards of glass. How there were never butterflies in my stomach but instead, it was my own gut trying to warn myself of the pain you’d cause me. And how there was never love, only a love for the idea of what I thought was love. What a tragic misconception we were.”

“It hurts that I have to stop myself from delving into the deeper parts of your soul, because I know how deep I’d fall, how in love I’d get with your vulnerability and perfectness all at once.”

“I guess one day I’ll find you again. And if I do, then I guess I’ve found love.”

“I hate you. I hate you because you cannot be any more perfect. I hate you for being everything that I have ever wanted. I hate you so much. I hate you because you can never hate me the same reason I hate you. I hate you because I have loved you all this time.”

“I asked if he were to fall in love again, would it’ve been me?”

“He said I tend to look at him like he was the only thing I needed in the world. But that’s because he was.”