How dare you to think if you texted me after a couple of weeks to ask me if we can talk again i will reply and say yes. You threw your half of my heart back at me and didnt want to talk anymore because i fell for two people at the same time and wanted just sex.... well im sorry this is my reply to you. No i dont want to talk to you. I gave your half of my heart to my teddy bear and he ran with it. Im not gonna ask for it back. He is protecting my heart like a grizzly bear who got disturbed from hibernation in the middle of winter. He shows me what i am to him in his eyes and i would not ask for anything more. So please forget my name and number and dont call me sweety because you no longer have that right. Good bye!!

So deep in love.... i can be me; act stupid; a big kid; give smart ass remarks; show my vulnerable side and not worry what he will think or say... what i thought was love was being caged up not expressing me or doing silly things.... some how i thought love was being a robot and listening to commands was love was all about... until i reconnected with my teddy bear and he showed me what love really is.... i am free to be me and he accepts everything: the good, the bad and the ugly... and i accept him: the good, the bad and ugly... he makes me so happy it makes people sick.... he is my other half!!

You are my type because my heart said so and i am perfectly fine with that.

My early valentine's present... he knows me too well... we both couldn't wait... he knows how to put a smile on my face everytime!!!

When im with him im at home. He makes me happy and whole. Knowing I can be me without being criticized or judged os the best feeling in the world. He brings out the big kid out of me. He reminds me of a sour patch kid, sour at first and then he becomes sweet. He always puts a smile on my face even when I dont want to. He is my partner in crime and I am his. He stole one half of my heart and then I gave him the other half. He wipes my tears away and I cry and tells is it will be alright. I already love him with all of my heart. Some may think I rushed it but I dont care. When im with him I can see everything. He is me and I am him. Its scarey to find that other half who shares your same fears and dreams. Just to be accepted and loved. We complete each other. We are two peas in a pod. I love holding him everywhere we go. He takes my breath away. When we are apart we ache and our hearts cry. I can talk to him all day and night but it will never be enough until I see his beautiful green eyes. Im in love with my teddy bear.

I done fucked up!! I knew this week I would be getting my period. But because I slept at my teddy bear's house I came unprepared. Woke up and BAM! Now I am hoping there is a store that will be open in this stupid blizzard so I can my stuff. fml

Needs to be seen with the right person....

So... falling for to people at the same time and letting them both know how you feel is so fucking wrong. Well according to one. I didnt expect to fall head over heels for anyone. They just came at the perfect time and showed me what I havent had in a long time. Thats okay I still have my teddy bear. Im perfectly fine with that. I just hope I dont him. He may not look like gods gift but in my eyes he is. He opened up to me and let me walk in knowing he wasnt the only one who held my heart.

For my teddy bear

You were supposed to be just a friend. My feeling grew more and more everytime we spent time with each other. I dont want you as a rebound,  but possibly a forever. You scare me with your tenderness. I like you more than you can know. One day at a time is all I ask then maybe I will ask forever. Im rooting for you to steal my whole heart away. But you already started took half. Give me time to know what is I want and I will show you what is right.  You became my best friend and my lover at the same time. I want to tell you all of my horror stories so you can kiss my pain away.  All I ask is one day at a time and hopefully I will be yours and you’ll be mine.

I dont know what just happened. Fell for two sweet guys and I want them both. One knew I was talking to another, the other just found out. Both are torn because of me. I like them both and they both have half of my heart. It wasnt supposed to be this way. I wanted some fun and be free after being caged up in a bad relationship. One is new and the other I already knew. Both fell for me anf I fell for them. Im scared what the outcome will bring because in the end someone has to get and I hope its me.