@thecarvingwitch / thecarvingwitch.tumblr.com
Not my favorite feeling but I guess if I don't want to be a miserable person to be around I have to stop digging into what's been done to me and start digging into what I can do to make myself healthy now
I'm at the stage of cleaning house where everything looks worse because it's been exposed and rooted around. It's been unpacked..... Now I have to figure out how to put it all in boxes and if I even have to keep it.
the alienation of so many humans in ‘developed’ countries to the realities of food production blows my fucking mind. it produces the “i’ll eat as much meat as i damn well please” suburbanite, the child slavery quinoa vegan, the angry “where’s my pineapple in January” Karen, the “all guns are evil and hunting is a hobby” liberal, AND the “eventually we can print meat” fully automated space communist climate shit-for-brains.
please. have any of you ever skinned a deer? i don’t think any of you have ever skinned a deer.
yes many people are gonna have to cut back on meat consumption if we were to actually balance our land-use (particularly in the US). no, your quinoa harvested by child slaves/exploited laborers/trafficked persons is not more ethical than killing a chicken, even one slaughtered in a commercial farm. realistically, a sustainable balance of local, hyperlocal, and imports/exports is gonna make fresh pineapple in January impossible. hunting, when managed well by the local hunting and game authorities, is necessary for ecological health and feeds a large chunk of rural families all around the world. technology that is more labor and resource intensive than just properly managing what we already have will not save us, and is in fact diverting energy and focus away from the real rubber-to-the-road solutions.
Trying to figure out if I should be contrite for stressing someone out with my stupid emotions or if that's just my bullshit cptsd talking
You know, this is a really stupid thing to say, but it took me long enough to figure out other stuff like "You shouldn't say random facts that pop into your head that are completely unrelated to the conversation but you'd like to infodump about all the sudden".
It sort of ties in with my autistic need for complete honesty always and the fact that I'm only within the last couple of months allowing myself to express my emotions and not blame myself so much for having them- not everyone needs to know all of my emotions all the time, regardless of how close they are. They're pretty big for just me, so it's unfair to saddle someone with all of that. I'm going to try to keep it appropriate with the people I'm currently stressing the fuck out.
I'm sorry you had to meet me at the beginning of a journey to heal instead of a more complete point.
If someone on your first date tells you that they're looking for a primary and emotional partner because they have a FWB but aren't able to be emotional with them and you agree that you are looking for that too, and then you start dating because it turns out you like each other like, a LOT and you start spending all of this time together and you've told each other "I love you" literally a month and a half into the relationship and you think of them as your primary partner....
It seems like a reasonable assumption that you are also this person's primary and emotional partner.....right?
I guess I did assume...but it felt like a natural assumption to make.
I have covid and the place I thought I was going to move into doesn't want me anymore.
I have three options. Go crawling back to my father and move to a family compound in Pennsylvania and spend the rest of my life locked up like an invalid.
Move to Mississippi with the guy who asked me to move in and marry him on the second date.
Or find a high bridge. The bridge seems pretty tempting, with those two as my other options.
Chronic pain flare up for the past few days.
Been clammy, chilly, and sweating since yesterday. Unable to stand without feeling sick.
There is a chemical burn in my throat and sinuses. I'm at work. I'm whispering. I have a double shift.
I just want to collapse and cry.
Poor Medic. Another ruined night's sleep because of my obsessive paranoia. The thing is, I'm the person equivalent of an abused shelter dog. I need rehabilitation to live normally and this is the poor bastard who got landed with the job.
Nobody's ever protected me.. I've been out here on my own this whole time. Lovers have never defended me, my parents never kept me safe- the first time someone tried to be inside me, I was 4. I feel as if it would be dangerously naive to NOT assume people mean me harm. And I realize...that makes things difficult for a lover who wants to be close to me....
But it's just me out here. People who claim to love me are constantly hurting me and using their love as a justification to make it okay. Im still afraid for myself every day. I'm really trying to trust you, it's just so hard to trust ANYONE when it's consistently violated.
I honestly don’t understand why there aren’t more people who, when given the platform to discuss minimum wage, don’t simply distill it to the simplest of facts:
The young woman had spoken to everyone in town, asking them to teach her to fight. The warrior, the hunter, the knight, all had declined. Finally, in desperation, she spoke to the dwarven blacksmith. Lowering his massive hammer he looked at the fire in her eyes and said “Aye. I could do that.”
Whimpering in my sleep last night, apparently. I have a month to find a new place to live- which will mean a new job because I don't have transportation. I have an interview tomorrow....gods, let this work out.
Good news! It costs exactly $0 to respect my pronouns!
If you're gonna clown though, it's 50 bucks
all hail william the werewolf, proto-enby
Diversity win! The werewolf in your village goes by þei
