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you heathens will reblog day specific posts any day of the week. i woke up thinking it was wednesday

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happy wake up thinking it was wednesday sunday

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Reblog if you have read fan fiction better than some published books

Help me prove a point

I have never reblogged anything faster.

I reblog this every single time that it crosses my dash.

Or better than the actual show 

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Yep. 

(And full disclosure: not just better than published books. Better than my published books.) ☺️

(Gotta tell the truth…) 😏

Y’know what? Fuck you. *Plays an acoustic guitar version of your leitmotif to show you still have tenderness and care in your heart, and compassion for others*

yeah? well fuck YOU *plays a music box version of your leitmotif to show that this is your home and its comfortable and nostalgic here*

No, piss off! *plays your leitmotif with immense reverb and a toned-down synth sound to show that nostalgia can also be about loss of what never truly was, a reflection of a reflection and a false memory of a false memory*

ok, boomer. *plays your leitmotif using discordant synth bass to display your spiral into villainy after you discover that your memories were a fabricated illusion that were created just to keep you complacent, and how that information is destroying you*

How many times do I have to teach you this lesson, old man? *plays your leitmotif in harmony with my own, intensity of both changing as our climactic battle’s balance shifts back and forth, eventually leaving only one with long, low pauses to musically represent our mutual struggle to overtake the other, yet not being able to exist in full without them.*

oh, you’re going to regret that! *plays your leitmotif on piano in short, soft notes to show that you’re being worn down, and that your energy is at a low, but with a steadily rising bassline that foreshadows your upcoming second form*

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If you have 10 minutes please take the time to make a comment.

[Image ID: Tweet made by user Erin Reed with twitter handle ErinInTheMorn. Text reads  Hey everyone! If you have ever asked “what can I do to help trans rights,” I have something for you. Biden’s title IX change protecting trans people in schools is open comment. It is getting FLOODED by TERF comments. GO MAKE A COMMENT IN SUPPORT! followed by a link.]

In addition to this I would suggest adding some kind of personal comment so it doesn’t get weeded out for being on a script. 

[Image ID: Tweet made by twitter user Jojo twitter handle the other jojo. Text reads as follows  Can anyone come up with a sample script for something helpful to say? I know “my own words” would be best, but I have cognitive difficulties that make this kind of thing hard for me. Text ends then is followed by a reply by twitter user Steph twitter handle SSnorkels. Text reads as follows  “I am in support of trans youth fully participating in sports like their cis classmates! There is no need to monitor, restrict, or ban their participation in activities. They are kids and deserve to have fun in school.” ]

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What happened the to asteroid itself after the huge Impact? Was it just eroded away? With how big it was, there’s gotta be at least pieces of it left, right? This is thing that always get me with stuff like this. People almost never talk about what happened to the asteroid, though I don’t really have enough interest to seek the info myself so that could just be me not looking

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most of the Chicxulub asteroid was vaporized on impact and settled into a layer of fine particles that's found in rock layers worldwide, but it also actually did punch all the way through the crust and into the mantle, completely destabilizing Earth's volcanic cycle, so slight traces of it may still exist inside the Earth as well!

but yeah this is what it looks like now:

that's the asteroid that killed the dinosaurs. it's both everywhere and nowhere.

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I love the call-and-response between asking the intuitive question “it was so big so there must be pieces left, right?” and getting the terrifying answer “actually it was so big that there aren’t any pieces left”

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Vampires when they sip on your blood and catch extra strength Tylenol, at least two psychiatric meds, two cups of coffee, weed, and microplastics 

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slightly important life update:

i’ve been letting a 1930s italian american mobster guy take refuge with me after he fell through a time portal rift. for about a year now. he can’t go back to his time period because who knows what would happen. it sounds really sad but like he doesn’t have a family and he was in a gang so like. he’s okay with it and pretty amazed by iPhones he’s happy to be here. i’ve been giving him catch-up lessons in pop culture and trying to get him up-to-speed to absolve any bigotry. he was actually very cool about race stuff but he doesn’t like protestants at ALL. any other religion is fine though, he says “they got themselves a different God, bless their souls” which is kind of dicey but, for the circumstances, it’s fine

i told him he’s probably gonna have to catch up on all this lgbt shit and that i was gay and he was like “HEY! OH! WATCH IT PAL!” and called me an italian term i’d rather not repeat but he pretty quickly apologized because i think he thinks i own some sort of ray gun blaster thing. i’m not sure how much sci-fi a mob goon in new york in the thirties was exposed to so it’s hard to pinpoint his frame of reference for future shit

anyways, he’s been practicing typing on a desktop computer. he likes playing fruit ninja on iphone but that’s about as far as he gets with it. he’s been working out a lot and showing me how to do a workout called “jailbird curls” but it’s like, kinesthetically speaking, extremely inefficient and strenuous and definitely informed by the antiquated idea that the more a workout hurts the more you beef up. so like he’s coming around on modern society and he figured out how to zip files and so he zipped one and labeled it PRIVATE and doesn’t realize i can just read whatever .doc he saves there it’s a bit long but this was his most recent journal

2022 OH MARONE STOP

DA NEW CAPO GAVE ME SOME OF DAT EYEPI AYE BEER AND WE GOT FUCKIN BLOTTO AND COOLED FACEDOWN ON DA FLOOR SOMETHING FIERCE STOP

YOU PACK THAT MUCH HOOCH IN STATEN ISLAND BACK IN MY DAY THEY GONNA FRY YOU FOR IT STOP

DA NEW CAPO IS A BIT OF A YA KNOW IT STARTS WIT A FA AND RHYMES WITH BANOOK IF YOU CATCH MY DRIFT BUT MAMA DIDNT RAISE NO INGRATE SOS I LISTENS TO HIM SEE STOP

HE SAYS TO ME HE SAYS DAT THESE DAYS FOLKS ARE MAKIN WHOOPE EVERY WHICHAWAY SOS HE GIVES ME DA LOWDOWN STOP

BROADS KNOCK BOOTS WIT BROADS STOP

GUYS MAKE IT WIT GUYS STOP

SOME GUYS EVEN MAKES IT WIT DOLLS AND FELLAS ALIKE STOP

SOME JANES USED TO BE A JOHN AND SOME JOHNS USED TO BE A JANE IF YOU KNOW WHAT IM SAYIN LIKE WHAT I READ IN DA PAPER ABOUT THEM SOIGENS IN BERLIN STOP

DIS SOIGERY BUSINESS IS A MIRACLE THEY MAKE EM UP GOOD AS NEW REAL KEEN TOO I REMEMBER SOIGERY BACK IN MY DAY YOU GET CLIPPED WITH A TOMMY IN DA WOIM FUGGEDABOUT GOOD AS DEAD STOP

THESE DAYS DEY SET YA UP WITH A NEW ONE MADE OUT OF SKIN FROM YOUR GAMS I SHIT YOU NOT STOP

GUYS ARE GETTIN MARRIED TO OTHER GUYS AND NOWS I THINK ABOUT IT I COULDA PULLED ONE HELLUVA RACKET IN MARRIAGE COITIFICETS FOR ANY GOOMBAH WHO WANTED TO HITCH UP I SURE AS HELL DID WORSE STOP

so yeah it’s kind of unclear if he thinks this is like a private journal or telegrams both of which are kind of irresponsible forms of record keeping/correspondence for a mob guy but i gather he wasn’t that smart before he fell in the time portal either

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Still bothered by the US cultural idea that men can only be non-romantically intimate with one another in war-like or competitive circumstances.

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I'm pretty quiet about the fact I'm a transman usually, but holy shit I need to tell you about the culture shock I'm going through because it's blindsiding me.

There's a huge sense of social isolation that comes with being perceived as male, because now people are subconsciously treating me as a potential predator. All strangers, no matter their gender, keep their guard up around me.

It made me realize that there is no inherent camaraderie in male socialization as there is in female socialization—unless, of course, it's in very specific environments. And the fact I don't amnbiently experience this mutual kinship in basic exchanges anymore is an insanely lonely feeling.

You know how badly this would have fucked my mind up if I had grown up with this?

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It is 4:30am and I'm mourning the loss of a privilege I didn't even know I had.

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Anyway, I'm going to figure out how to navigate this. Don't know how yet, but I'm gonna.

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Absolutely, because it's an extremely sticky issue.

Frankly, this is something I would've never understood without living the experience.

It's now blatantly clear to me that most cis men probably experience chronic emotional malnutrition. They're deprived of social connection just enough for it to seriously fuck with their psyches, but not enough for them to realize that it's happening and what's causing it.

It's like they're starving, but don't know this because they've always been served 3 meals...except those meals have never been big enough.

This deprivation comes from all sides of aisle, by the way.

In the case of women: When I'm out in public and interact with women, all of them come off as incredibly aloof, cold, and mirthless. I have never experienced this before even though I know exactly what this composure is—the armor that keeps away creepy-ass men.

As someone who used to wear it myself, I know this armor is 100% impersonal. Nobody likes wearing it, and I can say with absolute certainty that women would dump the armor in favor of unconditional companionship with men if doing this didn't run the risk of actual assault. (Trust me when I say women aren't just being needlessly guarded.)

But I only have a complete understanding of this context because I've experienced female socialization. If I hadn't, I would've thought this coldness was a conspiracy against me devised by roughly half of the human population. Even now, with all that I know about navigating the world as a woman, I'm failing to convince my monkey-brain that this armor isn't social rejection.

And as for male socialization? Again, it seems taboo for a man to be platonically intimate with men for reasons I have yet to fully understand, but I think it boils down to a) the fact society teaches boys that it's not okay to be soft with each other, and b) garden-variety homophobia. Our media only shows men being intimate with one another when they're teamed up against a dire situation, and I'd bet real money it's a huge reason why men gravitate toward activities that simulate being teamed up against an opposing force.

But men are not machines of war. Yes, testosterone absolutely gives you Dumb Bastard Brain, but that just makes you want to skateboard a wagon down a hill or duct-tape your friend to the wall, not kill someone.

The human species looks so much colder standing from this side.

I can see how men might convince themselves that their feelings of emotional desperation is personal weakness as opposed to a symptom they're all experiencing from White Imperialism. Because this human connection, this frith, is as essential for our wellbeing as water is.

So sick. How sick. I want to destroy this garbage.

so as a mental health clinician? so much of the time we spend with cis male clients is going "you can actually interact with other humans and not be weak" sometimes teaching them about toxic masculinity - if they're open to it? sometimes delicately stepping around it if they're not. just so they can fucking function. because yes, actually, this is a legit problem which is ONE OF THE REASON WHY MEN HAVE A HIGHER RATE OF SUCCESSFUL SUICIDES THAN WOMEN.

It's so fucking deadly. if you are on this website, and you are a transman or a cisman or a parent of a cisman, for the love of all that is good, please, do whatever you you can to combat this day to day

if you would like RESOURCES about how to do that?

may I please direct your attention to A Call To Men

This is a non-profit organization by men started by Tony Porter with the aim of "Helping create a world where all men and boys are loving and respectful and all women, girls, and those at the margins of the margins are valued and safe." It is geared towards deconstructing toxic masculinity through male leadership by addressing the source of the problem - the way men socialize other men.

I've been in the room with these guys and with Tony himself and they've been putting their money and time where their mouth is for idk at least a decade to try and combat this from the inside and the top down. It's not a one-size fits all solution but if you're like me and you see shit like this and are like "OKAY BUT WHAT DO WE DO?" this might give you some hope and a place to start. And here's the tedtalk video that set the ball rolling for this org so you can see what they're about.

Didn’t anticipate one of the bonuses of going to a drag show in a smaller more conservative town would be getting to see a bro who clearly wandered into the wrong part of the bar by mistake experience what looked to be a transcendent awakening upon seeing his first drag show.

On of the queens halfway through the show, “Honey, are you straight?”

This man, in a strangled voice, “I don’t know

We love the character development

The reconstructed face of the “Cheddar Man” (c. 7,000 BCE) compared to his living descendant, Adrian Targett    

The Cheddar Man is a Mesolithic skeleton that was recovered from England’s Cheddar Gorge in 1903. At around 9,000 years old, the Cheddar Man is the oldest complete skeleton ever discovered in the UK, and has long been hailed as the “first Briton.” DNA analysis on the Cheddar man from 2018 indicated that he was lactose intolerant, had light-colored eyes, dark brown or black hair, and had a dark to black skin tone. Although the discovery of the Cheddar Man’s dark skin tone was surprising for both scientists and the public alike, it corresponds with recent research suggesting that genes linked to lighter skin only began to spread about 8,500 years ago - approximately 32,000 years later than what was previously believed.  

In addition to the development on his skin tone, the Cheddar Man surprised scientists in 1997 when DNA analysis revealed that he had a living descendant -  a retired history teacher named Adrian Targett. Targett and the Cheddar man share the same mtDNA, which is passed down from mother to daughter. In other words, they share a common maternal ancestor. What is even more remarkable is that Targett lives in Cheddar, only a half mile away where his 9,000-year-old ancestor was discovered.

Targett was not invited to the initial reveal of his ancestor’s new facial reconstruction, but he has since seen it and has commented on the family resemblance. “I do feel a bit more multicultural now,” he once joked in an interview “And I can definitely see that there is a family resemblance. That nose is similar to mine. And we have both got those blue eyes.”

The development of the Cheddar Man’s skin tone has generated resistance, especially among far-right and white supremacist circles. Targett, however, is unbothered by it, stating that it is “marvelous what scientists can reconstruct once they sequence the DNA.” When asked if he thought whether the findings affected the way people think about race, Targett responded: “Yes, I do think it’s significant. Not many people in Cheddar mind it. But the lesson is that we’re all immigrants, whether you’ve been in a place for 10 minutes or 9,000 years. We’ve all come from somewhere.”

Sorry, I could never be a capitalist, I suffer from “wanting humans to have their basic needs met” disorder, where I care about people who aren’t me.

Someone once asked me if, assuming we got universal healthcare, I would be okay with the rise in “healthcare tourism” where people who are sick come to our country to get their medical bills taken care of and life-saving medical treatment cheaper than in their home countries. I was just like, yeah thats fine, I’d actually prefer it if 0 people died from preventable causes kept behind a paywall for no reason.

“even the addicts?” yeah dude did i fucking stutter

the current thing trad losers are losing their minds over is one singular dude on reddit that refurbished and hand painted a grandfather clock and they keep saying the guy “ruined its value” or “threw thousands out the window by vandalizing a precious heirloom” and let me just say as someone densely familiar with the world of antiques, there’s a 99% chance that this clock was a mass produced reproduction and there’s a 100% chance that clock is not as valuable as ppl think it is. when people hear the word ‘grandfather clock’ they’re always gonna assume you’re talking about something that was handmade in a woodshop by a jolly old man when rlly repros take up a waaay bigger slice of the market far more than any handcrafted items. and besides people will repaint or redecorate these ‘oh so sacred handcrafted items’ every day there’s a huge market for them. it’s the same reason why people like long furbies or dolls that have been customized to have like gore mouths or something. this is literally like watching a bunch of pretentious farts make a mountain out of a molehill. also the clock is kinda cool if I’m being honest

this is what’s got them so mad. like the dude didn’t destroy it or anything, just made it more interesting to look at. when I see this I don’t go “this man is a danger to society because he RUINED a precious antique” i just think to myself “huh that’s actually some very impressive work with patterns, getting all those intricate geometric shapes done with just paint must’ve been hard work and it looks cool and the colors really pop” but idk maybe that’s just because I’m not completely deranged

more clock pictures from the original post:

and the plain wood surface before painting: