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ann2who

@stark-spangled-lovers / stark-spangled-lovers.tumblr.com

I'm not half as good at anything as I am when I'm doing it next to you.

Hello everyone

Hi guys! As most of you have certainly noticed, this site is inactive, these days. As many of you know, Infinity War & Endgame sort of ended this fandom for me. I still haven’t watched Endgame (which annoys my bf to no end), and since Endgame sort of has a snowball-effect on most of the new series and such, I haven’t watched anything new from Marvel, at all.

I have been getting quite a lot of messages lately, asking me why I took down some AO3-fanfictions. Thing is, I wrote some of them when I was quite young, and I’m sort of embarrassed about them, by now, haha. So I actually deleted a few, but don’t worry, the “Say When”-series and all of the other fics I haven’t taken down by now will stay online.

I’m so so grateful for all the comments my stories are still receiving. Please, be assured that I’m reading them all, but I can’t really find the time for answers. I’m so thrilled that my works make you happy and that there are still new readers (and re-readers) enjoying my stories, especially Say When.

I hope you guys know that the series will always hold a special place in my heart, even though it doesn’t look like I will ever continue with Infinity War and Endgame. If I didn’t have a job and such, I would probably give it a go, without having watched Endgame, haha, but I just can’t find the time to do it. Publishing “Say When” on tumblr and AO3 has been a wild ride for me and I’m really proud about this series I’ve created.

In any case: All the hugs and kudos to you guys!

ann2who

So I just read your answer to one fan asking if you would write an Infinity War version in the Say When series and I'm just wondering: did you got to finish it? Or did Endgame ruined it for you? If it didn't, are you still going to write an Infinity War version and an Endgame one? I know the ending of the saga must suck for you but I'm just curious on what are you plannig to do or if your gonna leave the Say When series for good.

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Hi :-) Nice of you to ask! And yeah, when I wrote that comment, I really did believe I’d get around to writing another Say When installment that’d include Infinity War and Endgame. But ... to be absolutely honest, Endgame ruined it for me, yeah. I actually never even got around to seeing the movie. Which - I know, is kinda crazy for a hardcore Marvel fan like me. But I let myself be spoilered beforehand, and then I simply couldn’t go through with it. I still don’t know much about the movie aside from, well, the obvious. And I’m sorta still mourning xD mourning my bby and also sorta mourning my love for this beautiful couple, because I don’t think I’ll be going back to writing fanfics about them. I still love Stony and everything it has meant for me in all of those last years, but 2019 really fucking ruined all of my fandoms (GoT being the 2nd, heh.), and I sorta just decided to ignore it all for the time being.

So, yeah. I’m not sure - maybe I’ll grow up at some point, so I can deal with this like an actual adult person, but for now, I’m still mad and disappointed as hell. And I’m really glad that I ended the last Say When installment on a happy ending, so I don’t have to feel too bad about not writing a sequel. And I really hope you guys will be satisfied with that ending as well. At least here, Steve & Tony got their happily ever after ;-)

Anonymous asked:

I know your angry about endgame but please read this fic: Five Seconds by nanasekei. It will fix all the issues you have with endgame and actually give you a happy ending.

Thanks for the suggestion, it’s very much appreciated, but I’m afraid I’m in a Mood right now, and really not into reading any sort of Endgame fix-it-fanfic, Stony or otherwise. I’m totally aware that I’m being overly melodramatic, but I think about Marvel and the MCU and Stony as well and I’m just … done with it. I’m really fucking sad and really fucking disappointed (Also I should mention that I still haven’t even seen the movie, but I’ve heard some stuff - even though I’m still keeping away from specific spoilers.) and I just …

I was actually looking forward to seeing the big conclusion in the cinema and I’ve heard lots of positive feedback about the movie in itself, but I can’t bring myself to watch it, I can’t even bring myself to google stuff about it. And I’m aware that I shouldn’t let MCU canon ruin a good thing for me, but the fact that my brain knows this doesn’t help all that much in the end.

I think about Stony and I’m still getting teary-eyed, despite being a grown woman and all. If someone knows how to handle that, I’d love to hear it.

Spoilers ahead

Am I allowed to rant? I‘ll use all the spoiler tags.

Anyway, I‘m not even gonna see this movie if what I‘m hearing is true. And I‘m gonna drop fandom in general. Why do they think they‘re being creative killing off characters?? I‘m so mad I don‘t even know how to deal.

Also I‘m crying.

Also: Fuck the Russos.

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What if I couldn’t handle people’s opinions of me? I know that shouldn’t dictate a person’s degree of peace or happiness in life, but the problem is, I chose a business saturated in judgment.