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@juhaamubayiwa

Yoooooooooooooooooooooo, just FYI, when I talk about how fucking much I hate non-con fics and the culture of creating and sharing and defending them, like……..I just want you to know I’m not kinkshaming you for that.

Like, its very important to me that you guys get that! There is NO kinkshaming going on there! That is not me trying to kinkshame anyone, even a little bit!

Like, to be crystal fucking clear, that is absolutely and 100% me SHAME-SHAMING you for calling peoples’ trauma your kink.

Just wanted to clear that up, thanks!

Also while we’re on the subject, I’m not dumb for getting that you wrote about fictional characters that are incapable of actually being harmed by the fictional events that happened. Nope, like, you’re the asshole who’s dumb for forgetting what even kids reading at a first grade reading level get….the entire POINT of fiction is to evoke feelings and sentiments within readers by conjuring imagery and using language to describe scenarios that mimic or call to mind what that would look like were it happening in live, living color in front of you.

So no fictional characters were harmed in the creation of your rape fic, yup, check, got it, I’m on the same page there but spoiler alert. I don’t give a fuck about those fictional characters and that they’re safe and unharmed, whew, and I never did. My concern is entirely stemming from THE COMPLETELY NON-FICTIONAL AND REAL EMOTIONAL REACTION YOU HAD TO WORDS PAINTING A PICTURE MEANT TO TRANSPORT YOU TO A REALITY WHERE YOU WERE ACTUALLY WITNESSING OR TAKING PART IN THE SCENE BEING DESCRIBED.

Fictional characters may not matter at the end of the day but buddy, pal, friend or at least that’s what you claim everytime you reblog ‘SUPPORT SURVIVORS YEEEEAH’ - the fact that you see no problem juggling both “omg believe and support survivors’ and ‘omg you gotta go check out this fic on Ao3, omg sooooo hottttt, the sexy just like JUMPED right out of that scene, YOU know the one’.,….like, spoiler alert the second, that abso-fucking-lutely matters.

And it matters everytime you reblog or post or tweet or retweet something that’s essentially you saying OMG I HATE RAPE AND RAPISTS AND THAT’S EVIL HOLY SHIT…..RAPE IS SO WRONG…..

Except for when its that really fucking sizzling hot non-con dom/sub whump fic you’ve been following for months on Ao3 along with 2000 devoted enthusiasts of the super hot and omg emotional and compelling and so realistic *fans self* way in which that fic’s author writes scenes where one character taking another one against their will is just the hottest and most exciting and most sexually thrilling thing ever, you just GOTTA hit kudos (first making sure you’re only logged in as Guest, naturally) and let that author know you support them!

Except lol wanna hear something that’s really funny? In that ‘gee, do ya really wonder why a lot of survivors froth at the mouth about your harmless little noncon fantasy fic-a-thons, do you REALLY’ sorta way?

Guess who you’re also supporting every time you add another non-con fic to the pool, or ramp up the comment or kudos or even hit count on one?

Go ahead, guess! I’ll give you two guesses, actually, and I’ll even give you a hint - its NOT the survivors you’re so sad and heartbroken for everything they’ve been through, every time you hit reblog or retweet on OMG SUPPORT SURVIVORS.

Nope. Fun fact, its ACTUALLY all their rapists!

Yeah, see, complex calculus at work here, so bear with me, this is gonna involve a lot of math…..

Like, I don’t claim to be a psychologist and like rape fantasies are a thing, whatever, I neither pretend to know or care why peoples’ brains do that, and honestly, like, we’re not in control of everything our brains do, I’m not the least bit interested in hunting down and kicking in the face of every person whose brain-machine works in ways I don’t get or particularly care for….

BUT! BUUUUUUUUUUUT!

Something I DO claim to get because like, I’m not five and all of us who aren’t in fact five years olds get this, even if some of us are suuuuuuuuper invested in pretending we don’t…..

WRITING those fantasies and EDITING those fantasies and UPLOADING those fantasies and SHARING those fantasies and CREATING ENTIRE SUBCULTURES around those fantasies and rallying the troops with cries of FREEDOM OF SPEECH AAAAAAHHHH to DEFEND those fantasies and the sharing of them and encouraging and proliferating of them specifically…..

That’s not your brain machine doing something funky, that’s your grown ass self going hmmmm, I actually really LIKE this thing my brain machine did here, in fact I like it so much I’m gonna share it with the whole wide world because I just bet I know some other people who would like this thing my brain machine did here and if I’m really lucky, woo-eee, maybe it’ll make one of their brain machines spit out a little something something for me to read in bed later, y’know, all naughty like. #scandalousgigglesomgimsobad

And you know what alllllllll those naughty little noncon fics y’all giggle about actually say? Across every fandom, every time period, every genre, every setting, with every character, involving every sexuality?

The single underlying common message that doesn’t like….its not even lurking deep at the heart of every one of those fics, kudos, comments, hit counts, its actually broadcast in big neon letters just by virtue of the sheer existence of those things, thus ironically making Don’t Like/Don’t Read not only patronizing as shit, but also a completely moot point?

Yeah. That message? Reads a little something like this:

Psst. Hey. You over there, yeah you, c’mere, I wanna tell you something. So like, you know how I just reblogged how omg rape is bad and evil blah blah blah whatever? Don’t believe the hype! Because see, check out this fic here, check out what I came up with or what this one writer I really like and admire came up with and like….see….like….I GET it, man. I abso-fucking-lutely get it. Forget what I said over there, that was just for the Prudes, to like, get society off my back, ugh, its the worst. But no, between you and me and like everyone else I’m whisper-shouting this message to…..I absofuckinglutely understand that in the right contexts, the right scenarios, with the right hotties, like….hell yeah, one of those hotties saying to another hottie, ‘fuck your no, I want what I want from you and I’m just gonna take it whether you like it or not’?……Holy shit do I get it, like, I would neeeeeeeeeeeeever actually do that in real life actually myself, ewww no, gross but like….just the idea of it? Just thinking about what you did, or you doing it again to someone I find really hot, personally, like….dude, you’re right, that is super sexy. I am WITH you, buddy! And honestly? I’m not even really that ashamed of it, I’m like PROUD to broadcast that I GET IT DUDE, I’M TOTALLY WITH YOU (but only sometimes, and when nobody’s watching and also its fictional so it totes doesn’t count, except FYI I actually super love it the most when it like FEELS really realistic and like, you can just FEEL the emotions that those hotties are feeling, like, ugh, that’s the good stuff, that’s what I like).

I mean. I’m paraphrasing. But you get the gist.

And so does every single rapist or wannabe rapist or potential rapist whose ever caught your eye and cracked the code and followed you down the secret Diagonalwhatever Alley where your favorite HP noncon smut fic was set to the secret meeting where you and a couple thousand of your closest friends all meet in secret plain sight to whisper shout loudly about hooooooly fuck how much do they love a well written and realistic depiction of one person violating another’s consent, but in like…..a sexy way, y’know.

Anyway, so, I just wanted to take this opportunity real quick, and say, as a survivor it just…..all those reblogs and retweets and heartfelt comments in the tags saying omg sexual assault is terrible nobody should have to go through that ow my heart is breaking for you ugh why would anyone ever think its okay to do that to another person like what has to be going through someone like that’s mind to even CONCEIVE of such a thing like ugh’, I just…..*wipes single tear from my eye, voice hitches mid-syllable* Your support just really means the world to me, it really does.

And I mean, don’t worry, I’m sure your support and validation also totes means the world to every rapist who’s ever suffered a single moment of self-doubt about whether or not they’d maybe like…..done a bad thing, ignoring or even just wanting to ignore that one hottie’s consent that one time or maybe two or ten! And I’m sure they would totally tell you that themselves if you ever did just give them that “I’m With You, Bro” head-nod of Solidarity across the room or whisper in the hall in passing “I totes get it, omg so hot”, but like its cool! 

We all get that you can’t do THAT, its like lol, omg you cant just SAY ‘ugh how hot is rape I can’t even’, you have to use the CODE, you gotta say its just when its fictional characters and they’re not really doing the things they’re written doing specifically to make you feel as though they were really real and really doing the things they’re written doing, like….DUH, otherwise its not a SECRET.

Aaaaaaanyway, in case you need a tl;dr, here you go: I honestly truly do not give a single fuck about any fantasies you might have or why you might have them unless and until you give me a reason to. Like, whatever’s in your brain is literally just between you and your brain. You talk it out with your therapist, that’s between the two of you. You even wanna do something scandalous with a sexual partner who’s on the same page as you and both of you are equally informed, adult and consenting? You do you, I don’t actually have the time, energy or inclination to spend every waking minute wondering what people do or think when they’re not around me doing things that have nothing the fuck to do with me, so you’re all good there, unless you wanted to literally invite me into your bedroom to watch for some bizarro-reason, in which case, thanks for thinking of me, but hard pass, yanno?

BUT the second you make the conscious, premeditated decision to turn a specific fantasy into words that you share beyond your bedroom, or participate in a culture of sharing and proliferating and defending such works and saying loudly to anyone who says something about this big old rape fic sitting in the middle of the internet-highway HEY THIS IS MY ART OR MY FRIEND’S ART AND I SUPPORT IT, GTFOUTTA HERE WITH YOUR CENSORSHIP UGGGGGGGGGH?

Like, you have absolutely made it my business, because lol i know right, how weird is it for me to have an (unfavorable) opinion about the way it feels like getting drop-kicked in the nads every single fucking time (and that’s a LOT of times) I’m casually perusing the blog or Ao3 profile or fave fics reading list of someone I thought supported survivors because they literally said the words I support survivors except lol also, check out two pages earlier where they reblogged this really hot noncon Voltron fanart with the tags ‘ugh its just *fans self*’

Soooooo weird, right?

Oh well. Anyway, sorry if all of that came off really harsh or judgmental or critical, or like, if it made anyone feel bad about themselves or thoughts or fantasies they’ve had or things they’ve done or written or supported, like….whoops, I really didn’t mean to. 

I mean, I personally can’t relate to being confronted by something some stranger on the internet wrote that just made me feel like absolute SHIT even just knowing it was there, even if I tried to pretend I hadnt seen it, didnt engage with it interact with it, confront the person who wrote it or blocked them entirely, like, being forced to look at some of my most painful or darkest thoughts or memories or imaginings just by virtue of having seen that thing that stranger wrote in passing? I can’t even IMAGINE what that would feel like, let alone having to feel like that every single day when inevitably a dozen more things just like it popped up throughout my day randomly while online, like, ugh, but it sounds just AWFUL.

So just so you know, I totally support you if you’re feeling down because of something you read now today and am so sorry for your hardship, like it really sucks and nobody should have to feel like that ever, ugh, what kind of person would….I just….I mean, that person would just have to be such an asshole to not give a shit what kind of impact their thoughtless or careless words or actions could have on another human being even if they didn’t MEAN for it too. Let alone to KEEP doing it and KEEP posting similar shit just like that first thing even after being TOLD by you and a bunch of your friends ‘Ow this thing HURTS, why did you have to write it’….am I right guys?

…..so……yeah.

Okay, I’m done now. But in all seriousness (not like I was actually laughing through any of that, but ykwim)…..

Making this plea sincerely, passionately, and from the bottom of my heart to all non-survivors who read, write or share non-con fic just as readily as you read, write or share posts about supporting survivors….

If you honestly, truly, for whatever reason, simply CAN NOT or WILL NOT bring yourself to give up your precious rape fics after hearing it explicitly detailed the kind of effect their very EXISTENCE can and does have on survivors, and far more than just myself…..

Then for real? At least do us a favor and stop making or reblogging posts about how you support survivors. Because you don’t. Not when it matters. Not when you’re asked to do something more than just hit reblog.

Bottom line is I just don’t believe you. I don’t trust you. Because the first and last thing to run through my head every time I witness someone listen to me or another survivor SCREAMING AT THE TOP OF OUR LUNGS how much all that non-con fic fucking HURTS, fictional or not……only to later witness that same person who hit ‘like’ on that post or other posts about survivors go on to also hit like, or kudos, or comment, or New Post on Ao3 with the tag ‘non-con’ on clear display over a summary that clearly advertises this is a smut fic, it is meant to get people off?

First and last thing to run through my head then, is always, ALWAYS: 

“Hey, you know who else can’t be bothered to prioritize the health and well-being of actual human beings over their own sexual fantasies or gratifications?”

Mmmm. Yeah. 

And I for one am sick and tired of getting an inaccurate headcount of my supposed allies, and then having to wonder later who was too busy jerking off to fictional depictions of my trauma to show up and support me when they explicitly promised they would.

reasons to be rich: so i can spoil my friends

God I just finished a shrimpshipping fic that made me sob more than once. Like holy shit it’s one of the best fics I have ever read in my life, on par with my favorite ygo fanfic, honestly probably my favorite now. Especially because it was so in character, and so REAL, and Rex was so autistic coded and it was like reading a story about myself and. And I don’t know how to explain? How I feel? Because I am Weevil. Ten THOUSAND percent. In that fic. And I just. God I i don’t know words right now. I’m having a super, super autistic day and I feel confused but not confused and I feel fragile but not sensitive and I feel overwhelmed but I’m not in sensory overload and I don’t understand things. But that fic made me so emotional in so many ways I don’t know how to explain and barely understand and just. Yeah. Yeah I dunno I’m. Dunno dunno dunno. Echolalia echolalia echolalia. Ya know?? Ya know?

Hi please help me to not live with my rapist I’m going to break.

This is me going to be explaining everything that happened to me in detail about the subject mentioned above. It’s just me ranting and letting it all out so just ignore this you don’t have to read it. But If you wanna help hear me out. Warning it may get p graphic. Ok so. My rapist is a family member of mine. A sibling. He’s been making me do sexual acts since I was 5 (+ some other people.). At first he was just molesting me. Then he started raping me. He did it with himself then painful objects around the house. Hell he did it in front of my parents and they never noticed. He forced me to suck him off and other disgusting things like that. It was happening for years. As I grew up I started to be able to defend myself, but he didn’t stop trying. Trying to manipulate me and touch me in any way he could. I was so disgusted and ashamed. I never wanted to tell anyone about it. My parents found out this year. Because a psychiatrist manipulated me to tell her about it and since I was 17 (it didn’t matter I’d be an adult in 2 months to her) she reported it to the police. She wrote them 1 single sentence and put me in danger. The police just came to our front door and gave them a piece of paper requesting my presence with my mom. With that one sentence abt it. He could’ve hurt me. What if my parents weren’t home? What if they didn’t believe me? I had to explain to them suddenly all the horrible things that have been happening to me when I’ve never properly talked about it to anyone. Can you imagine how scary and uncomfortable and how horrible that situation was for me? Of course that thing denied everything and we went to the police. They did nothing. Then social services got involved. They did nothing. Okay. My mom and other family members say they’ll figure it out. I’m still stuck here. My parent’s won’t kick him out and expect me to keep living here and be patient because he’s “their son.”. They even said if it was anyone else they’d kill him. Like. Thanks. And now I’m here still. Stuck in this god damn house. With that god damn thing right next door. The walls are thin too so I can actually hear his disgusting voice right now laughing and talking to his friends. While I here suffer and cry and deal with all the shit I had to and still have to go through. I’m tired. I wish I didn’t want to live so badly so I could just end it all. I can’t do that though. I want to live. I want to be happy and comfortable and safe. This isn’t the whole story but the basic important things are here. Nobody can help me. Except you. If you have just 3 dollars to spare you can buy me 1 ko-fi. ( https://www.ko-fi.com/cutiepatoodieart ). How it works is you buy me a ko-fi which is 3 dollars (you can buy more if you want) and I get those 3 dollars. If all of my followers gave me just 1 dollar I’d be able to move out and live well. So I’m begging you again to help me. Because I just can’t do it anymore. But I realize this is a lot to ask and you don’t have any obligation to do so. But if you are in a position to help someone please do. There are so many other people who need help. Give to charities,help people you know,etc. Just please be kind. I wish I didn’t have to ask for money like this. I’d rather work for it but I’m not able to right now because of my disability and illnesses. I don’t know if anyone even read this but if you did thank you for listening to me. I never talked about it like this. I just have to let it all out and sadly ask for help because my own family doesn’t want to even though they easily can.

please help, my boyfriends father was deported this morning

we all know hypothetically about the horrors of living in trumps america. we’ve all seen the same stories, we know how dangerous it is to be brown, that your whole life can fall down in an instant. we know this. I thought I knew this more than most, with my boyfriend being mexican. in the back of my mind I’ve had this anxiety for months, knowing what could happen - and today it did. 

we were stopped by what looked to  be a cop car in what I thought was an ordinary police stop (scary enough already) but it turned out to be anything but. behind the car were three  black vehicles with tinted windows, literally like you see in the movies. me and my boyfriend are both fresh out of teenager years, and there was just two of us against several armed government officers. 

this was literally the single most terrifying experience of my life. they told us to put our hands up and all I could think was that they’re gonna tell him to step out of the car, they’re gonna kill him in front of me, and I’m gonna have to call his family and tell them that I saw their son die and that he’s never coming home.  they laughed in my boyfriend’s face, asking several times for his name and jiggling the door handle and held us for what felt, to me, like a small and hellish eternity. I’m sure most people can understand what a traffic stop can be like as a brown person in america - i feel like i don’t need to say much more here and honestly just trying to describe everything that happens makes me want to throw up so I’m not going to.

eventually they let us go and somehow it only gets worse from there. we found out that my boyfriend’s father had been picked up by ICE. we believe at present that the point of the stop was to stop me and my boyfriend from driving past the daycare down the road (where his father was dropping off his 3 yr old son at) so that we wouldn’t be able to see what they were doing to his dad. the fact that they know our schedules so well means they must have been following us and watching us for a while. i would say that i’m paranoid except that honestly, this is entirely justified. 

currently, his dad is being held by ICE. because it’s immigration court, not criminal court, he is not entitled to free legal representation. we need at least $5000 for lawyer, not even including the bond. my boyfriend and I both work but there is no way for us to be able to raise this kind of money on such short notice. my boyfriend is basically in shock right now, as I think is very reasonable, and this entire situation feels beyond hopeless. the only chance we have of keeping his family together is through this lawyer, and through asking for help from others.

i know you are all tired from everything you see on the news. i know that there are many stories like ours. but please, this is ours. this is the man I love. this is his father. this is our future together. I never thought this would actually happen and it honestly still feels like a surreal nightmare but it has happened, and we cannot get out of it ourselves. 

you can donate to our paypal here. every penny helps and if you can’t donate i completely understand, just please please share this post. if we dont raise enough and it becomes too late we WILL be refunding the money to whoever donates.

you wanna know what really gets me going?

being registered to vote in the midterms!! vote those nasties out of office!

go vote, gays. 

voting for primaries is coming up! in many states, early voting has already begun. be sure to do your research and vote for candidates that voice their support for LGBT rights! if you’re old enough and you’ve voted, leave me an ask telling me that you did so we can all thank you for supporting us

election day is even closer. Let me make something clear.

50% of the LGBT population lives in a state where they can be fired for their sexual orientation or gender identity. 

50% of the LGBT population lives in a state where they can be evicted for their sexual orientation or gender identity. 

72% of the LGBT population lives in a state where they can be denied access to loans or credit for their sexual orientation or gender identity. 

70% of the LGBT population lives in a state where they can be sent to conversion therapy (aka torture camps), even if they are minors.

This is our last chance for another two years to change anything. Participate in the rainbow wave.

btw this youtube channel has videos for how to vote in every state

I feel like a lot of people don’t want to ask questions they have about gender/sexuality to LGBT people because they don’t want to offend them because we talk about cishet people asking stupid or intrusive questions a lot

But actually when you’re questioning it’s really helpful to be able to ask some ‘stupid’ questions although you’re too afraid to

So can y'all LGBTQIA+ people reblog this if you’re totally fine with people asking questions about your gender/sexuality, as long as they do so respectfully

Full offense but y'all need to stop fetishizing lgbt ppl. Lesbians arent straight men’s entertainment and sexual fantasies. Gay men aren’t your “YAOI GAYBIES xD” and you aren’t “SINNING SO MUCH RIGHT NOW” Bi people aren’t here so you can have a threesome. Trans men aren’t “uwu soft boys so pure” and trans women aren’t “big muscle wife could kill me”.

You aren’t less homophobic for fetishizing gay ships. You aren’t less transphobic for fetishizing trans people.

Stop.

Ok but yaoi was a big thing before lgbt people started coming into the spotlight. (I’m just trying to defend yaoi. Don’t mind me)

…. did you just say that “yaoi” has been around longer than gay people

yaoi threw the first brick at stonewall

Reblog the 500,000 dollar written check from Seto Kaiba and money will come your way.

“Keep the change.”

when asexual woc talk about existing in intersections of racialised misogyny and acephobia, the conversations starts with the fact that our bodies are objectified and dehumanised by white patriarchal culture. lack of sexuality is almost incomprehensible and lack of sexual availability for men – any kind of unavailability regardless of whether they’re ace or not, either bc we’re not interested, not sexually attracted, or in a relationship – it is literally seen as insubordination by certain men who think it’s their god-given right to a woc’s body. 

women of colour are hypersexualised and objectified in different ways because of our race, but our universal experience is based on how our culture promotes the idea that our bodies are for male consumption. as an asexual woman of colour, it means that our lack of sexual attraction is seen as something to be conquered, or fixed, or a wrong to be righted. for white men, it’s another space to colonise. 

so when the predominantly white ace discourse brings up again and again that “acephobia isn’t real” calls ace people “straight people who don’t have sex”, you’re erasing the way many ace woc are trying to navigate our bodies and sexual agency as asexuals. don’t derail this by saying what we face “isn’t acephobia, just misogyny”, we’re facing intersections of both that have arisen from a culture of compulsory heterosexuality and white supremacy. many asexual women of colour have talked about it and you do not get to silence our voices. 

white people on both sides of the Discourse need to acknowledge this, especially in regards to the erasure that goes on in the white ace community and non-ace poc need to stop throwing us under the bus by pretending that we don’t exist and our sexuality is irrelevant. 

i need yall to know that myself and all the ace ppl i know irl are woc and this is EXTREMELY real

This makes my blood boil..They really do not gaf about poor people..

Rest in peace Yeweinisht Mesfin. You won’t be forgotten.

White nerds/fandom will literally shout Fans of Color down whenever we critique pieces of content. Wild.