I will become what I deserve

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“at the start of summer, i planted some basil and shiso in a planter on our veranda. they grew really fast but then a typhoon came in july and the shiso plant got bent in by the wind. when my mother saw it she said ‘that won’t stand up straight anymore, so break it off at the crease. if you do that new leaves will grow in no time.’ but i just couldn’t bring myself to do that. the little leaves at the tip of the bent part were still really healthy. they were fine no different from before the stalk was bent.
a few days later i went out to the veranda and found the damaged shiso plant wilting on the soil, dying a slow miserable death. my mother was right. i had to break it off where it had gotten bent over. the only thing to do was give it a fresh start, let it grow from there and sprout new leaves. still though…i can’t help hesitating. i just can’t help it.”
The thing I love about you the most is that you’re brave. You’ve been through a lot and you put that behind you. You use it to not only make yourself successful, but to help others. You’re so, so brave. - The thing Bobby loves about Jonathan the most.
they wanna break your heart but it’s made of blood and tar you carry all that suffering like a gun between your arms
I will remember your small room, the feel of you, the light in the window, your records, your books, our morning coffee, our noons, our nights, our bodies spilled together, sleeping, the tiny flowing currents, immediate and forever. Your leg, my leg, your arm, my arm, your smile and the warmth of you who made me laugh again.

Charles Bukowski  (via h-o-r-n-g-r-y)

The Shape of Water + Behind the Scenes | Part 2

I asked Doug to join the movie because he’s an actor, he’s not a performer. If you don’t have an actor inside that suit, you don’t have a movie.
- Guillermo del Toro

More little paintings based on eps 6, 7, & 8! At about 3 hours each I don’t think these qualify as speedpaints, but I do do them in one sitting and try to do it quickly. It’s been pretty satisfying!