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"Another belief of mine; that everyone else my age is an adult, whereas I am merely in disguise." -Margaret Atwood

hello people.

i have been mulling over this for quite some time, and i have finally decided i will stop posting on this blog.

there are many personal reasons. one of them is school, and another is that i'm attempting to wean myself off the internet. maybe not fully. ah, i don't know how to explain it, i just feel a need to cut down on the amount of time i spend on the net and actually get serious about my real life commitments. i have played far too much.

to be fair, i spend considerably less time on this blog than my other kpop one, considering how i ensure there are always posts queued for this one. but in recent months i have stopped coming on tumblr often, be it on this blog or on the other. maintaining the blogs seem like too much work, when all i want to do is to sleep and sleep the day away after a long day. 

i hardly talk to most of you here, but i do wish for many good things to happen to you all. i'm really thankful for the many encouraging messages i have received, it's these messages that drive me on to continue posting even though many times before i have set my eyes on abandoning this blog. i'm going to be honest here; i have long since grown weary of maintaining this blog, and i see posting pictures an obligation. how did something i had enjoyed doing previously turn into a duty, i still wonder.

this is getting too long. in a nutshell i am intending to stop posting on this blog. i won't delete it but i won't be here anymore. 

if you have read it all, kudos to you.

thank you all so much and hope you all have a great day ahead!

Sometimes, it’s easier to tell a stranger something very personal. It’s like there’s less risk, opening yourself up to someone who doesn’t know you.

Linwood Barclay (via larmoyante)

I don’t want to be little again. But at the same time I do. I want to be me like I was then, and me as I am now, and me like I’ll be in the future. I want to be me and nothing but me. I want to be crazy as the moon, wild as the wind and still as the earth. I want to be every single thing it’s possible to be. I’m growing and I don’t know how to grow. I’m living but I haven’t started living yet. Sometimes I simply disappear from myself. Sometimes it’s like I’m not here in the world at all and I simply don’t exist. Sometimes I can hardly think. My head just drifts, and the visions that come seem so vivid.

David Almond, Jackdaw Summer  (via seols)