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Phantasmal and resplendant

@pangurbanthewhite / pangurbanthewhite.tumblr.com

I write fanfic. I like to think it is awesome fanfic. You can find my work at AO3 under CatKing_Catkin. Credit for icon art goes to bottleshark here on tumblr.

Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Dice Will Roll (Podcast) Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Volio Via & Eriato Bati & Royari San Sarnax, Volio Via & Oddbody Characters: Volio Via, Oddbody, mentions of others Additional Tags: Introspection, Character Study, Hurt No Comfort, Suicidal Thoughts, Mental Breakdown, Identity Issues, C02E42 - Blights & Boglands, Spoilers, Canon Dialogue, Ambiguous/Open Ending, Unhappy Ending, Delirium, Speculation, referenced deadnaming Summary:

"Nothing in life came for free. The more you were loathe to part with something, the more it would fetch as a price. And the more you wanted or needed something, the higher that those who had it would drive up the price in turn.

It all came down to understanding what you were prepared to lose."

(An attempt to trace the train of thought that leads to a clown buying a box of gunpowder.)

Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Dice Will Roll (Podcast) Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Characters: Eriato Bati, The Professor, The Circus of Wayward Wonders, Myron Stendhal (in flashback) Additional Tags: Implied/Referenced Child Abuse, Implied/Referenced Abuse, Past Abuse, Imprisonment, Starvation, but only in the past, Rescue, Hopeful Ending, Past Character Death, Introspection, Character Study, Team as Family, Developing Friendships, Fluff, Speculation, C02E25 - Catfolk & Curtain Calls, Hijinks & Shenanigans Summary:

The bomb has been diffused, the pathetic man has been saved, the source of so much pain in their lives has been arrested. Now all that's left is to clean up some of the many messes she left behind.

Eriato keeps a promise, reflects on how far she's come, and takes charge of seeing the new recruits settled safely at their new home.

Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Dice Will Roll (Podcast) Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Stirvyn Banyan & Tashlock Banyan & Ledorick Banyan, Stirvyn Banyan & Eriato Bati Characters: Stirvyn Banyan, Tashlock Banyan, Ledorick Banyan, Mentions of Eriato Bati Additional Tags: Near Death Experiences, Aftermath of Violence, Family Feels, Family Dynamics, Speculation, Character Study, Brotherly Affection, Brotherly Bonding, Cooking, Partial Mind Control, Character Development, Developing Friendships, Himbo Tashlock Banyan, Companionable Snark, Domestic Fluff Summary:

In the aftermath of their rescue from the temple of Dagon, Stirvyn gets his first lesson, Ledorick has a nap, and Tashlock is here to help however he can. Together, they all learn what a difference a well-made stew can make.

(When looked at from a certain point of view, Tashlock is the only one to really have his act together anyway.)

Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Dice Will Roll (Podcast) Rating: General Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Khufar/Royari Characters: Khufar, Royari San Sarnax, Panacea, mentions of others Additional Tags: Awkward Flirting, Pre-Relationship, Introspection, Seasickness, Light Angst, Friendship, Developing Friendships, Developing Relationship, Team as Family, Trauma Bonding, Past Abuse, Self-Esteem Issues, Religious Guilt, Religion, Takes place between Book 5 and 6, Post episode 68, Pre Episode 69 Summary:

A snapshot of a day on a ship sailing away from Willowside.

Khufar helps Panacea deal with seasickness, learns a fun fact about the sun, learns a horrifying fact about horses, and then gets Royari to fact check it all.

The Makeshift Wonders have a lot to learn about the surface world, but at least the swaying of the ship beneath their feet can be the least of their problems. After all, traveling with the Wandering Three is never a dull affair.

(Especially when you're busy trying to wrap your head around the fact that you're in love with one of them.)

Hey gang I made another music video! This time for Our Flag Means Death! Set to Running Up That Hill (Track and Field Cover) because I am both cringe and free.

Spoilers for the entirety of S1!

Honestly I think it might be one of my best vids that I've ever done (and I certainly got it finished the fastest) - but it helps that I had such great raw material to work with.

look, I know that everyone brings their own baggage to their responses to fiction and fictional characters, but sometimes I wish people would own that a little more. like, sometimes you can say “I don’t like this character because they remind me of people I had bad experiences with” and not pretend that you have some kind of objective understanding of the true meaning of the work and what the character is really about

im gonna say it.

you cannot separate monsterfucking from queerness.

& for the love of fuck i don't need babygays coming at me with "you're equating being gay with being a monster!" go back to tiktok, this is for the adults.

monsterfucking is so queer bc so many of us feel unlovable, so many of us can't relate to real world affections & attractions. (aces & aros in particular)

so yeah, i wanna fuck that monster, bc deep down, i hope someone will love the monster i think i am.

also monsters are Very Hot & that needs no explanation so.

when your art program’s closing message hits you straight in the heart and makes you stop and contemplate the state of it all

because of the huge response to this post, I decided to make a version of the art that includes the text

(I’ve also uploaded this version of the design to INPRNT, Society6, and Redbubble)

Stede’s crew: Stede isn’t a real pirate captain so we should mutiny, we want to work under a real pirate

Izzy, a real pirate: You’re going to listen to me when I tell you to do pirate tasks

Stede’s crew: You’re going to be in so much trouble when my dad gets home and hears you tried to make me do things

A problem I have when reading romance novels is I cannot empathize with disliking someone but finding them attractive regardless. If I dislike someone I'm like "You are like a wadded up ball of sweaty socks and I want you to burn in a pyre, undying and screaming for days"

"He infuriated her, though she was willing to admit he was a handsome man" I couldn't begin to tell you what the people I dislike look like because I see red instantly. If you were like "Is he the blond one" I'd be like "idk he's the one who most looks like he should die"