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@oradianto / oradianto.tumblr.com

Walk with me.x Elizabeth; interior/exterior. Common tags: word, art, bb.

I am making this plea anonymously because my online identity is tied to my real life in significant ways.

I am a black lesbian who has lived in fear of her violently abusive and homophobic father for over two decades. He has been physically and emotionally violent since my infancy, and he began to sexually abuse me in 2015. He does not know I am a lesbian, and if he finds out, he will not hesitate to kill me. He has attempted to kill me several times over the course of my life, and after a recent attempt, I have realized that I can no longer put off escaping. More details about the abuse I have suffered are available here if needed.

I initially planned to leave in a year’s time to hide away enough money for rent, prepare what I need, and give myself the best chance of a secure and permanent escape – other women who have tried to flee my family have been hunted by my father and his brothers and dragged back. My father forces financial control on me and other members of my family, and so I do not have enough saved. However, my living situation has become imminently dangerous, and so I must dramatically shorten my timeline.

Please help me leave and stay gone. All I want is to live in peace.

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When a world does not accommodate how you are, when you appear wrong in some way, feeling wrong in your body, being wrong in your body, loving the wrong body, mourning a wronged body, you have to be less accommodating if you are to persist in being who you are being.

Sara Ahmed, “Wiggle Room” (via 4a0000)

Boundaries are not selfish. They aren’t overindulgent or evidence that you’re too sensitive, and they aren’t weakness. Boundaries are conditions that allow you to take care of yourself; conditions that give you the means to survive and keep from sinking. They’re circumstances that honor your needs and respect your feelings. Limits that YOU get to decide on; limits that are inherently valid, regardless of how they compare to anyone else’s. You deserve to create a space for yourself that feels safe and supportive. You deserve to exist under terms that don’t harm you; terms that allow your best self to come through. Even if other people don’t understand; even if it makes them feel angry or rejected or sad — your boundaries are necessary and they matter. Their needs matter too, and it’s not wrong to want to make shifts to accommodate both — but the truth is that you can’t take care of anyone else if your own needs aren’t being met. You don’t have to explain your boundaries. You don’t have to justify them, and you don’t need anyone’s approval. You need to believe that you’re someone worth taking care of, and you need to trust that if anyone is entitled to your protection and care, it’s you.

Daniell Koepke (via internal-acceptance-movement)

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