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You’re going to receive GOOD NEWS this week.
I CLAIM THAT SHIT
We started in a twin XL bed. Bumping into each other. Endless cuddling. Constantly kissing one another. Making love in such a close proximity. It’s where we perfected listening to each other’s bodies. How can you not listen when you’re that close to someone? Even a whisper can be deciphered. When we graduated, we got an apartment. We decided to get a queen size bed with a wooden headboard. I remember the neighbors banging on the walls every time we fucked. The rhythmic tap tap tap tap of the headboard against the thin walls. My moans being drowned out by the R&B tracks you insisted on playing. The playlist you put together and named after me. “Wait baby. Lemme turn this on and then I can turn you on.” I would giggle each time and begin to undress myself. It drove me nuts but in the best possible way. Against my mother’s best wishes, we bought our first house together before being married. The master bedroom looked empty with the queen size bed, so we upgraded to a king size bed. Many days you or I were too tired to make love. Too tired to speak to the other about our days. I was in my corner and you were in yours. You felt an eternity away in this one bed. Once our favorite place to be together had changed into a bridge in between you and I. Neither one of us willing to cross it to get to the other. How did we allow this to happen? Should we go and grab another twin xl bed and attempt to figure this out?
-ka
I think God gave me a face that doesn’t always look so kind to protect me. He knows that behind my smile-less face is a woman who is vulnerable. A woman who lets way too much slide. A woman who will allow someone to hurt her and then accept them with open arms when they are hurt. It’s some form of natural selection that I was once thankful for. But now, I know it is much too easy for people to still make me into their prey.
ka
I don’t want an excuse to give up
I want a reason to keep trying
Shout out to all of the black women studying in STEM. It gets tough. But you’re tougher and more intelligent than you could ever imagine.
Yesterday I bought granadilla & cranberry tea & gahdamn that was the best 20 bucks I’ve ever spent ☕️️
Maybe I’ve cheated myself of a warm, embracing love by chasing 20 second orgasms from guys who couldn’t give a shit less about me.
Or maybe I’ve just saved myself some heartache.
There has to be more to life than rushing the bad moments. More than waiting until Fridays because the week was so damn bad that you need to drown in a bottle and spend the next two days recovering and dreading the Monday that will be here too soon. There has to be more.
Random Ask List
Put a number in my ask!
1.) Describe the most memorable dream you’ve had recently.
2.) What is a saying or quote that you live by?
3.) When you look in the mirror, do you like what you see?
4.) What is your favorite way to relieve stress?
5.) Are you in a relationship?
6.) What are some of your short term goals?
7.) Would you consider yourself confident?
8.) What are some characteristics you’d want your ideal partner to possess?
9.) What is your favorite type of weather?
10.) Describe what a dream vacation would be for you.
11.) What is your favorite book?
12.) Do you have a close relationship with your family?
13.) You decide to pick up and move tomorrow. Where would you decide to go?
14.) Morning or night person?
15.) Do you like to have the lights on or off during sex?
16.) Have you ever gone through a “rebellious “ period?
17.) Do you express your emotions in a healthy way?
18.) What is your zodiac sign?
19.) If you were given a large amount of money right now, what would you do with it?
20.) What is your dream job?
21.) Describe a crazy party/ clubbing story you’ve experienced.
22.) What is your favorite place you’ve traveled to?
23.) What is one word you would use to describe yourself?
24.) What is one noise you currently hear right now?
25.) Do you use anything to help you fall asleep at night? (Music, visuals, etc.)
26.) Do you really love the last person you said “I love you” to?
27.) What is your favorite clothing store to shop at?
28.) Do you think you’ve met your soulmate?
29.) What is your favorite holiday?
30.) How old will you be on your next birthday?
31.) How long have you been using Tumblr?
32.) If you drink, what is your favorite alcoholic drink?
33.) What is something that always brings a smile to your face?
34.) Have you ever met anyone famous? If so, who?
35.) How many siblings do you have?
36.) What is your favorite animal?
37.) What is a food that is hard for you to get tired of?
38.) Do you have a best friend? If so, describe them.
39.) What is a number that is significant to you?
40.) What is your favorite sports team?
41.) How many hours of sleep do you usually get?
42.) Do you forgive easily?
43.) What are some of your long term goals?
44.) What inspired your username/ what does your username mean?
45.) Would you rather swim in a pool or ocean?
46.) Do you have anyone you can talk to when you feel down?
47.) Are you in love with anyone?
48.) Would you have sex again with the last person you had sex with? (Can interchange sex with kiss).
49.) What is your favorite dessert?
50.) How would you describe your wardrobe?
