It’s times like these, after you’ve gone to sleep, that my brain realizes and materializes all of its stay thoughts. Thoughts about how I miss you, your scruffy but immaculately trimmed beard when we cuddle, the thing your eyes do in the dark, the fact that you like my tummy and all of my flaws, just the plain attention we gave each other. You make the whirlwind of thoughts and worries in my head quiet when we’re together. You make me feel /safe/. And the distance now is more unbearable than before, knowing that closeness
It doesn't help knowing that the smell of you has faded from all my stuff
God I sound so sappy,,,

