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the sun never sets on a badass

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パメラ I fucking love Naruto, not even kidding.
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I have a college love story for you. I randomly sat next to this girl in my business sales class, which was a class I wasn’t even supposed to be in- a class that I actually despised, but they wouldn’t let me drop. And she asked me for notes one day and we gradually started complaining about our professor together and making fun of his outfits and then one day I asked her to be in my group for a project. So eventually I considered this girl, Laura, to be a friend- the only one I’ve ever made in a college classroom- and then one night I was at a party in the apartment complex she lived in so I texted her to come by and she did. And I introduced her to my friend, Tom, who I had lived next door to the year before and had also invited to that same party. And let me tell you about an instant spark- the rest was history for them. They moved to Boston together after graduation and now it’s 5 years later and they’re getting married. So the point of this story is maybe you haven’t had your one little moment of fate that brought you to the love of your life, but maybe you were someone else’s one little moment of fate that brought them to theirs.

And that’s still important

There have been three times in my life where I met someone and had this feeling that I can’t explain. I don’t believe in love at first sight but these people instantly felt like home and that almost sounds crazier. I can’t put it into words but it was a combination of not wanting the night to end, ever, and knowing the feeling was mutual. So basically, I knew the second I saw you. I don’t know what I knew, but I knew it, and I’ve never been more sure of anything. And if you also knew, then maybe that’s what they call soulmates.
If you told me when we met and I instantly fell for you that I’d have to wait six years for us to be together, my heart would have broken. But knowing what I learned in those six years, and the people I met, and the places I went, and the memories I made, and even the people that hurt me and the nights I spent crying on the floor, I realize now that I needed every single one of those days to be able to make it work with you. Because that girl six years ago knew what she wanted but didn’t know what she needed. You can’t end up with the person you’re supposed to be with until you’ve had that one soul crushing heartbreak, the most fun night of your life with people you’ll never see again, at least a dozen mornings filled with questions, multiple first dates you regret the moment you walk in, loves that turned into best friends, a life changing trip with your closest girlfriends, and those very important almost maybes that didn’t work out but still made you happy and taught you more about yourself than you wanted to know. Otherwise you’ll be missing out on some of the most important parts of life.

I remember when I was 15/16 and I begged my mom to let me get my nose pierced. A couple weeks after my uncle (her brother) had been over and was giving me shit about it. He said “yeah just wait until your baby grabs a hold of it and yanks it out.” Like what…I was like 15? And who is to say that I would have had that piercing forever (I don’t anymore, it lasted only a few short years). Babies were the furthest thing from my mind, I had barely even had a legitimate boyfriend. I had absolutely NO DESIRE to have sex, like none. I wanted to save it for when I knew I was 100% ready, I saw it as a big part of myself to give away. Like damn…not everyone is the same as your daughter who had a baby at 16… some of us are responsible. I have hated that man ever since. When he passes I will spit on his grave.

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sometimes i watch youtube videos and halfway through i’m like you know what i don’t care and then i close it