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😭no shinobu…got to focus on Klee and heizou now.

6/26/2022: Switching my fic posting/update schedule while I focus on my Inazuma fic series. Instead of daily I’ll be releasing fic on Saturdays until I’m either done with writing everything I need for this series or the series let’s me multitask both their fics and my other slice of life stories. I can’t focus on doing my 1k daily writing exercises and also work on these long form fics. Some of these fics are exceeding 20k. They were only supposed to be side stories Fjakcjajshdjsj.

TLDR: fic updates Saturday only until whenever.

Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: 原神 | Genshin Impact (Video Game) Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Kamisato Ayato & Kujou Sara, Arataki Itto & Kujou Sara, Kujou Sara/Sangonomiya Kokomi, Arataki Itto/Kamisato Ayato Characters: Kujou Sara, Kamisato Ayato, Kamisato Ayaka, Arataki Itto, Sangonomiya Kokomi, Gorou (Genshin Impact), mentions of other characters Additional Tags: do not copy to another site, Do not repost, Alternate Universe, Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, lavender marriage, Political Marriage, Marriage of Convenience, Slice of Life, Humor, Platonic Relationships Series: Part 8 of there is only this Summary:

“I am but a humble servant of our Shogun,” he finally says, which makes no sense, until he appends that with, “And of course, our Shogun’s most esteemed and wise and experienced high priestess.”

“You goaded her into something didn’t you?” Sara says. This is Yae Miko’s vengeance for something the man has pulled recently. Why does Sara have to suffer for it though? That seems incredibly unfair. Not that much of life is fair. And she supposes, to Yae Miko, if she’s punishing Ayato and causing Sara extreme discomfort at the same time then she’s accomplished hitting two birds with one oddly shaped stone; a grand success all around with minimal work done. “Surely she doesn’t expect us to cycle through an entire list.”

“No, but if we stop at number two she’s definitely going to make a very, very pointed fuss about it and contrive to shove us further down,” Ayato replies. “The farther down the list we go, the less chance we have of her feeling unsatisfied enough with our mutual torment that she’ll deign to stir up trouble.”

- Set during/post "the commitment of a lifetime". Sara and Ayato suffer through calling each other terms of endearment in public. Why? Because Yae Miko said so.

Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: 原神 | Genshin Impact (Video Game) Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Kamisato Ayato & Yae Miko, background yae miko/raiden shogun, background kamisato ayato/arataki itto Characters: Kamisato Ayato, Yae Miko (Genshin Impact), mentions of other characters Additional Tags: do not copy to another site, Do not repost, Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Alternate Universe, Political Marriage, lavender marriage, Politics, Mentions of Fantasy Racism Series: Part 4 of there is only this Summary:

“This is unlike you,” she says. She’s said it before. It bears repeating. “I can’t figure it out. Why would you go this far? Of the choices in front of you — rather than the selfless and much kinder option of letting go of what is most likely a doomed affair, and rather than try to salvage it with the much safer and to risk option of picking some lower ranked family you could bully into obedience, you would face the possible fury of lightning? On the chance that he’s willing to stay with you through all of it? On the chance that your love will be enough?”

“A friend of a friend once said that there will always be those who dare to brave the lightning’s glow,” Ayato says.

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Set before "the commitment of a lifetime". Ayato and Yae Miko talk about gambles and desires.

Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: 原神 | Genshin Impact (Video Game) Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Raiden Ei | Baal/Yae Miko, Arataki Itto/Kamisato Ayato, Kujou Sara & Raiden Ei | Baal Characters: Raiden Ei | Baal, Puppet Raiden Shogun | Baal, Yae Miko (Genshin Impact), Kamisato Ayato, mentions of arataki itto - Character, mentions of kujou sara - Character Additional Tags: Alternate Universe, Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Politics, lavender marriage, Political Marriage, Mentions of Fantasy Racism, Mentions of Makoto, Character Study, do not copy to another site, Do not repost, Unresolved Emotional Tension, Unresolved Tension Series: Part 5 of there is only this Summary:

“My mother died for want of love,” Kamisato says quietly. 

“You are not your mother.” He’s not his father, either. An intimate and prolonged tutelage under death, and the subsequent crucible of a young inheritance have burned those particular vulnerabilities out of him, leaving behind something cooler, harsher.

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The Raiden Shogun, Yae Miko, and Yashiro Commissioner discuss marriage. Set before "the commitment of a lifetime".

Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: 原神 | Genshin Impact (Video Game) Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Kujou Masahito & Kujou Sara, Arataki Itto & Kujou Sara, Kamisato Ayato & Kujou Sara, background kujou sara/sangonomiya kokomi, background arataki itto/kamisato ayato Characters: Kujou Sara, Kujou Masahito, Arataki Itto, Kamisato Ayato, Cameos from other characters Additional Tags: Alternate Universe, Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, lavender marriage, Epistolary Elements, Political Marriage, Politics, Do not repost, do not copy to another site, background OCs - Freeform, Platonic Relationships Series: Part 6 of there is only this Summary:

Masahito hums in agreement. “Kamaji has never done well with silence. It makes him nervous. Reminds him too much of Father. He never learned that if you say nothing, no one can use your words against you.”

“If someone were to listen to us talking right now, they would assume that Kamaji-san was the adopted one.”

Masahito chuckles, fine lines around the corners of his eyes crinkling. When he smiles he looks wholly unlike his father.

- Post/during the latter half of "the commitment of a lifetime", Sara connects with Kujou Masahito and finds that they have a staggering amount in common.

Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: 原神 | Genshin Impact (Video Game) Rating: Mature Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Gorou/Kaedehara Kazuha, mentions of Sangonomiya Kokomi/Kujou Sara, Past Kaedehara Kazuha/Tomo Characters: Gorou (Genshin Impact), Kaedehara Kazuha, Sangonomiya Kokomi, Kujou Sara, Kamisato Ayato, Cameos from other characters Additional Tags: Do not repost, do not copy to another site, Alternate Universe, Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Politics, Character Study, world building, lavender marriage, Political Marriage, Processing of grief and loss, Non-Explicit Sex Series: Part 6 of there is only this Summary:

“Gorou,” Kazuha says when it seems like the man is done, “I’m noticing some uncomfortable similarities between their situation and ours.”

“But you’re also seeing the difference,” Gorou points out cooly, a faint trace of the fury that must have been slowly burning within him for months rising to the surface. Kazuha winces.

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Kazuha returns to Inazuma post "the commitment of a lifetime" and catches up on the changes that have occurred while he was away.

Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: 原神 | Genshin Impact (Video Game) Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Gorou & Sangonomiya Kokomi, Kujou Sara/Sangonomiya Kokomi, mentions of kazuha/gorou Characters: Gorou (Genshin Impact), Sangonomiya Kokomi, Kujou Sara, mentions of other characters Additional Tags: do not copy to another site, Do not repost, Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Alternate Universe, Political Marriage, lavender marriage, Platonic Soulmates, Mutual Pining, Character Study Series: Part 3 of there is only this Summary:

Kokomi stared at him. And then said, without really thinking, “I always thought that when I went there I was escaping from everything. But that’s not possible, is it?”

Gorou, then, looked guilty. And terribly sad.

“No,” he answered. “No, it isn’t.”

- Kokomi and Gorou find out about Sara's engagement.

Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: 原神 | Genshin Impact (Video Game) Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Arataki Itto/Kamisato Ayato, Kamisato Ayato & Kujou Sara Characters: Kamisato Ayato, Kujou Sara, Raiden Ei | Baal, Yae Miko (Genshin Impact), Thoma (Genshin Impact), Arataki Itto, Kamisato Ayaka, Sayu (Genshin Impact) Additional Tags: do not copy to another site, Do not repost, Alternate Universe, Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Character Study, world building, Political Marriage, lavender marriage, Politics, Assassination Attempt(s), Platonic Relationships, Found Family Series: Part 2 of there is only this Summary:

Death is not an unfamiliar shape to him. He’s intimate with the curves and cutting lines it makes upon a body, a soul. Ayato has grown with death’s hand on his shoulder, sliding down his arm, twining their fingers together. He’s grown with it weaving itself into the shapes of his limbs, the curvature of his spine, the interwoven network of fibers that knit together over bone and vulnerable organ to craft muscle, skin — flesh.

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Ayato's POV of the night of the assassination in "the commitment of a lifetime".

Chapters: 2/2 Fandom: 原神 | Genshin Impact (Video Game) Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Kujou Sara/Sangonomiya Kokomi, Arataki Itto/Kamisato Ayato, Kamisato Ayato & Kujou Sara, Arataki Itto & Kujou Sara Characters: Kujou Sara, Kamisato Ayato, Arataki Itto, Sangonomiya Kokomi, Kamisato Ayaka, Thoma (Genshin Impact), Shikanoin Heizou, Kuki Shinobu, Raiden Ei | Baal, Cameos from other characters, Ensemble Cast - Character Additional Tags: Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, do not copy to another site, Do not repost, Political Marriage, Found Family, Assassination Attempt(s), Politics, Character Study, Platonic Relationships, Discussions Of Fantasy Racism, Mutual Pining, Eventual Happy Ending, lavender marriage, Canon-Typical Violence, Epistolary Elements Summary:

“You’re a manipulative snake,” Sara says.

“I know. But I have something I can’t lose. Something that’s mine. Surely even you, General, can understand the desperation and depths a person can develop to hold onto something they love when they have so very few things to call their own.”

“If we’re going to do this, you’ll need to call me Sara.” She barely recognizes her own voice. “Show me the second contract, Ayato. And speak to me no more of the desperation of the starving.” - In which Sara gets married, finds a family, discovers herself, gets drawn into political intrigue, and gets the girl.

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Aether’s just finished putting away his breakfast dishes in the dish washer when Xiao comes home, arrival forecasted by the beep of their door’s security code being entered. Aether double checks that the electric kettle is full and turns it on as the door opens and he hears Xiao entering.

“Welcome back,” Aether calls out. “I left breakfast out for you.”

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Aether didn’t know it was possible to be simultaneously restless and sleepy. Being with Xiao has shown him a lot of things about himself and this world that he didn’t know were possible. For example, he didn’t know that there were people who had “yang deficiencies” as legitimate medical conditions. He also didn’t know that changing that channel during the annual New Year’s concert was tantamount to fraud, theft, murder, and arson. Before being with Xiao, Aether didn’t know that you could taste the difference between two types of salt, both gathered from the Yaoguang Shoal, but now he can always tell.

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the truth the dead know, anne sexton // the black saint & the sinner lady & the dead & the truth, morgan parker.

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Aether stirs when he feels faint movement from behind him and the displacement of air along his back. Blankets are quickly tucked in, once again returning him to a small bubble of drowsy warmth. Aether hovers in that strange place between waking up and sinking back to sleep as he senses a body over his, feels lips graze against his forehead, a hand brushing his bangs and arranging his braid.

Did I delete the post from like a year and a half ago where I said I wasn’t going to play genshin because if I didn’t imagine the absolute comedic value of me reblogging it now