this is so crusty and mean but that one post going around about the 14 year old and 16 year old asking for donations bc they want to meet bc they're in love and have been dating six months bleeeeeehhhhhh in other news: rosie is a cynical asshole
man do you have that one person who you're friends with and you love em but you get so stressed knowing that they can see what you post and you have to double tihnk on everything you reblog
sort of nervous tihs one friend who unfollowed my blog has refollowed it and i know it wasn't an accident bc they unfollowed for me posting some fandom they didn't like and honestly having them following me makes me feel kind of paranoid i'll talk about something they dislike again
you read through my blog specifically after i asked you not to? how i can't believe i ever had some sort of crush on you, dickwad (this isn't directed towards any of the people following this blog btws)
me: [is called out on minor personality flaw that sometimes inconveniences others]
me: [latches onto it for hours until self-esteem is in shambles]
i just mentally don't know how many more posts about violence against black people i can handle. i'm literally shaking thinking about eric garner, it's too much, but i don't want people to think i've forgotten
you unfriended me on facebook, GOOD no go away and never talk to anyone i care about ever again
i think i just got asked on my first date. wow. weird.
my little sister got diagnosed with scoliosis
she came to me and told me she's scared and i couldn't do anything
i'm honestly at my wit's end with my sister, she's so unhappy but she doesn't want to reach out to anyone, doesn't want to talk to our parents, she offloads it all onto me and i love her i really do which is why i want to steer her down a path where she doesn't feel like she has to rely on her big sister for everything because i'm not always going to be there and i honestly don't think she could handle anything without me and that's frightening
and i'm no professional but i think she might have depression and i'm trying to get her to talk to someone and she won't and i just don't know what to do!!!!!!!!!!!!!
it usually doesn't bother me that i've never been officially romantically attached to anyone bc it's almost always ended horribly for everyone i know but on the other hand it's like What am i missing out on?? is there something i'm supposed to be doing that i'm not??? hmm
as much as i hate to quote frozen, i really think i need to make like elsa and just let it go. this issue has been controlling me for way too long now and clearly everyone else has moved on more or less so why am i the only one walking on eggshells when no one even bothered to consult with me before dragging me into their mess??
i need to stop taking things so personally. friends come and go from your life. trying to hold them back will just make it worse. it doesn't matter how close you once were, now you're not and that is that. come on brain you get this
stop it! stop talking to people i care about!! stop interacting with them!! why do i have to see you when i've blacklisted and ignored you and yet you still interact with people i don't want to unfollow!! gah!!!!
[loops 'under pressure' 60 times bc it's the only song that can soothe me when i get like this]
wow sure do love holding myself to ridiculously high standards of conduct that i hold no one else to then kicking myself over and over when they're not met haha