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SMART AND BEAUTIFUL STARFISH

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cis. bi/queer. Christain. mentally ill. fat. feminist. mid thirties. geek. Halloween fanatic; final girls and superheroes are pretty much constants. Zack Snyder and DCEU fangirl. WARNING: I like problematic things including potentially squicky ships. I try to always tag. If you want me to add cw/tw tags to anything, feel free to ask! :)

there is...a lot going on right now. and it is stressful and scary as hell. hope everyone is staying safe and that you are able to see to your mental and physical well being. rn i am giving myself some space from current events because i am not in a place - financially or otherwise - to do anything, and that helpless feeling is not doing me good. so i might be on here more, but not reblogging anything to do with real life stuff. might wind up making a boat load of horror edits or something.

love you guys.

does anyone ever go through a period where nothing engages your brain into hyperfocus/hyperfixation and you have a sort of identity crisis and just kind of exist like you’re waiting for something to grab you and in the meantime you want to scream because you need something to grab you?

like i am good in a lot of ways in that i have some hope/optimism in my bones again because rob and i finally decided we’re moving to the pittsburgh area but it;s a ways off which sucks but i have been really struggling with identity and lack of focus and it suuuuuuucks 

add in the fact i am questioning my gender identity, probably dealing with a grief-triggered midlife crisis, have credit card debt to pay off, am surrounded by family who are redicalized conservatives and yeah my brain is a mess lmao welp

does anyone ever go through a period where nothing engages your brain into hyperfocus/hyperfixation and you have a sort of identity crisis and just kind of exist like you’re waiting for something to grab you and in the meantime you want to scream because you need something to grab you?

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a small list of forehead kisses i need to see more of

  • forehead kisses to ensure everything will be okay
  • pulling away from a kiss, placing your lips on your lover's forehead
  • forehead kisses that simply say ''i'm here for you'' because nothing i say will mend your pain
  • a forehead kiss as we hug: you pulling me closer and me nuzzling my head into the crook of your neck
  • male characters being kissed on the forehead
  • an exchange of forehead kisses. you kiss me on the forehead. i kiss you on the forehead. repeat. our friends and family think we're disgusting but we don't care
  • trailing kisses from your lover's forehead to their lips (or vice versa)
  • forehead kisses without reason. we don't need reasons. kiss the forehead
  • a quick kiss on the forehead when tending to your lover's wounds, grateful they're home safe and back in your arms
  • it's too early in the relationship for good night kisses, but forehead kisses is a good substitute
  • a forehead kiss that reads ''i love you, but you know damn well [insert character flaw]''
  • having to stand on your tippy toes to reach your lover's forehead
  • a kiss goodbye on the forehead, you're unrequitedly in love with me and i'm telling you to let me go
  • kissing your friend's forehead because platonic affection <3
  • supposedly we hate each other, but when i show up at your door looking for comfort, you extend your arm and offer me a hug. as i wrap my arms around you, my tears soaking your shirt, you can't quite help but to lay a kiss on my head
  • silent forehead kisses because we've had a pretty bad argument, and neither of us are currently in the right mindset to talk it out, but i want you to know that i love you, and we're going to get through this
  • kissing your lover goodbye on the forehead instead of the lips, because the only thing that's going to keep me from missing you to death until we (hopefully) reunite again is the thought of finally collecting that kiss we didn't share from you (and if we kiss each other goodbye, it feels like the end of something)

Touches Ask Game

Prompts for writing human connection, intimacy, belonging.

Hand-holding

The purest form of human connection.

  1. tiny hands in big hands
  2. calloused hands in soft hands
  3. cold hands in warm hands
  4. hands with the perfect ratio to each other for hand-holding
  5. platonic hand-holding
  6. running their thumb over the other’s hand
  7. dancing with their hands holding onto each other
  8. squeezing hand for comfort and encouragement
  9. holding hands across the table
  10. happily doing everything with just one hand, if it means they don’t have to let go
  11. not wanting to lose each other in a big crowd
  12. possessive hand-holding
  13. linking hands together during sex
  14. grabbing hand to show them something
  15. loosely holding onto each other’s hands, laying in one’s lap
  16. only linking the pinkies together, not ready to let go completely
  17. holding hands while skating
  18. excitedly grabbing each other’s hands during a concert, jumping up and down together
  19. playing with each other’s fingers
  20. pressing the other’s hand against their cheek
  21. holding hands while one is balancing on a small wall
  22. grabbing the other’s hand to pull them back from something
  23. holding hands under the table
  24. only realizing it when they have to let go
  25. standing in front of each other, holding both their hands
  26. holding their hands above their head, fingers linked together
  27. passionate hand-holding
  28. grabbing the other’s hand so they don’t fall
  29. holding hands while running through the rain
  30. brushing against each other, linking fingers together for a second
  31. grabbing their hand to grab their attention
  32. not really paying attention, both doing something else, but still holding hands
  33. bandaging the other’s hand and not quite letting go
  34. holding hands while driving
  35. grabbing the other’s hand to pull them back to them
  36. unconsciously searching out each other’s hand while sleeping
  37. not realizing they’re holding hands till someone points it out
  38. swinging hands back and forth, skipping like children
  39. holding hands in a museum to pull them to the next exhibition
  40. letting go when there is an obstacle in their way and immediately grabbing each other’s hand again when they pass it
  41. loosely holding onto each other’s hand
  42. dragging the other with them, holding their hand
  43. raising the other’s hand to their lips to kiss it softly
  44. holding hands while jumping down from somewhere together
  45. comparing hand sizes, then linking fingers together

Hugs

A warm embrace.

  1. friendly hugs
  2. hug around the waist
  3. hugging while twirling around
  4. comforting hugs
  5. side hugs
  6. hugging and gently holding the other’s head
  7. pulling someone into a hug
  8. hugging while walking
  9. eye-to-eye hugs
  10. hiding their face in the other’s neck
  11. clinging to each other
  12. hugging while lying down together
  13. group hugs
  14. hugging with head on shoulder
  15. tender embrace
  16. ‘not wanting to let go’ hugs
  17. hugging from behind
  18. bear hugs
  19. hugging with hands in each other’s pockets
  20. cuddling
  21. hugs and kisses
  22. hugging and jumping up and down together
  23. familiar hugs
  24. hugging with height-difference
  25. gentle hugs
  26. hugging with patting on back
  27. piggy back hugs
  28. quick hugs
  29. hugging while slow dancing
  30. one-sided hugs
  31. hugging while straddling the partner
  32. long-lasting hugs
  33. ‘picking them up’ hugs
  34. hugging while grabbing butt
  35. cuddle pile

Kisses

Showing affections.

  1. goodnight kisses
  2. hand kisses
  3. smiling while kissing
  4. lips barely touching
  5. morning kisses
  6. slow kisses
  7. passionate kisses
  8. kisses on the cheek
  9. first kisses
  10. goodbye kisses
  11. welcome home kisses
  12. kisses on the corner of their mouth
  13. frustrated kisses
  14. kissing each other breathless
  15. soothing kisses
  16. nose kisses
  17. kisses as a promise
  18. short pecks
  19. forehead kisses
  20. kisses on head
  21. “we’ll face this together” kisses
  22. kisses in the rain
  23. life-or-death kisses
  24. kisses for a cover
  25. hard kisses
  26. giggling while kissing
  27. desperate kisses
  28. neck kisses
  29. hushed conversation in-between kisses
  30. eyelid kisses
  31. gentle stroking of cheeks
  32. small kisses
  33. kissing it better
  34. jaw kisses
  35. wake-up kisses
  36. kissing away tears
  37. public kisses
  38. relieved kisses
  39. kisses for comfort
  40. tummy kisses
  41. kisses to shut them up
  42. slowly kissing down the body
  43. “we’ll see each other again” kisses
  44. kissing each finger
  45. sleepy kisses
  46. angry kisses
  47. feather-light kisses
  48. kisses with trembling lips
  49. secret kisses
  50. kisses with their last dying breath

Touching

Feeling another human’s touch.

  1. touching foreheads
  2. running fingers through hair
  3. hiding face in neck
  4. caressing the other’s hand
  5. feeling their pulse
  6. patting the other’s head
  7. holding hands
  8. shielding the other one with their body
  9. listening to the other’s heartbeat
  10. spooning at night
  11. laying their hand on the other’s neck
  12. pushing a strand of hair behind their ear
  13. nudging the other one
  14. putting an arm around the other’s waist
  15. hugging each other
  16. massaging them
  17. holding the other’s chin up
  18. squishing the other’s cheek
  19. high fiving
  20. bandaging/stitching up an injury
  21. kissing the other’s brow
  22. falling asleep on the other’s shoulder
  23. carrying the other one in their arms
  24. whispering in their ear, lips touching the skin
  25. stroking the other’s arm soothingly
  26. kissing the top of their head
  27. pulling the other one towards them
  28. feeling for each other in the dark
  29. tickling the other one
  30. grabbing onto their arm
  31. doing a pinky swear
  32. caressing the other’s back
  33. tasting their smile
  34. washing the other’s body
  35. kissing their bruises and scars
  36. lifting the other one up
  37. putting their head on the other’s chest
  38. stroking their leg
  39. leaning into the other’s side
  40. patting them on the back
  41. sitting close and knees touching
  42. braiding the other’s hair
  43. giving them a piggy-back ride
  44. sitting on the other’s lap
  45. feeling their temperature
  46. linking arms with each other
  47. touching their elbow to get their attention
  48. dancing with each other
  49. holding onto the other’s shoulders for support
  50. putting a hand over the other’s mouth to shut them up

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Emergency Writing Comissions

I had a card payment, a phone payment and a payment for my gym so I’m in need of money. Badly. So I’m reopening writing commissions until I’m good again. Right now, I’ll have four slots and when one reopens, I’ll update the post.

There are only two options this time:

$10=1,000 Words

$20=2,000 Words

I Will Write For: 

  • Marvel
  • DC
  • Disney
  • Various Video Games
  • Obey Me
  • MLP
  • Star Wars
  • Just ask me and I’ll probably be able to do it

I Won’t Write:

  • Noncon/Dubcon
  • Incest
  • Pedophila
  • beastiality
  • Reylo (don’t even ask why)
  • Anything racist

I do write self inserts and NSFW too.

Slots

1. universejunction

2. arkgoz

3. rabidfirefoxfan

4. Open

5. Open

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If you can afford a fic, that’s fine. Just reblog this, share this with whoever you can. Thank you! 

the way in ten years when this situation has been britneyified people who are in my replies right now saying “umm did she not literally cut his finger off????” will be on twitter lecturing me about how “we were ALL complicit in the abuse of amber heard 😔✊” and people making youtube videos with “expert” analysis of ambers body language and facial expressions to prove that she’s a liar are gonna be making videos like “how johnny depp tricked us all 😳”… insanity. girl when that time comes speak for your fucking self because we were not ALL gullible misogynists

just a heads-up for those of you (like me) who have triggers surrounding animal harm/death, PETA has released a youtube ad with sounds of owls screaming in agony and goes into graphic descriptions of ‘mutilation’ and death. it’s unskippable. 

if you see a black screen with audiowaves on it or hear owls/johns hopkins, get out of there

if you’re reblogging this to spread the word please remember not to tag it with the above triggers!! the people who have those tags blocked need to see this the most

There’s fanfiction…. And then there’s FANFICTION. The kind of shit you happen upon at like 3am or some other ungodly time because you were trying to find a fix for ur fixation at the time and you are just SUCKED IN and every sentence feels like a line of cocaine and it has quotes and imagery that permeate your brain and it’s the shit that sticks around in your consciousness forever and it never goes away and it’s always going to be one of Those Fics.

i am definitely a bad person cause I keep rewatching [redacted]’s death scene from [redacted] that got leaked on youtube lmao welp

8. Innocence - Varek/Sonja (Skinwalkers)

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TW: blood, implied/referenced murder and flesh eating

There is something in you that feeds on girls like her. All slender limbs and brown hair and doe eyes in a pretty face. Something in you needs to destroy and devour; you relish the taste of innocence. 

It’s never enough. It’s never the right face screaming up at you, never the right blood soaking into your fur.

She doesn’t scream when you tower over her. Her dark eyes are pits; her mouth doesn’t drop open to let out the fearful wail that usually comes by now. Acceptance and apathy permeates her smell.

You grin, a mouthful of gore-stained fangs.

(also on ao3)