i dont know, who can say, maybe you are my darling =)

ugh content. is tumblr or youtube here to stay? where can i post content so that its semi permanent. im done playing around

hairrrrrrrrrr i wish i had hair all over my body. no skin just thick dark hair

i might come back here. 18 and 19 are over with and, with that time, i have separated myself from the person i was. id have to do something differently if i return, but i dont know what that would be. ill have to think about it

here, the days are so soft and blended that i feel like im falling asleep and drifting away from real life. im clearing my mind but i had such big plans and big ideas and i dont want my thoughts to go away! i havent written much in the last month since ive settled into a routine with my parents but now i cant stop thinking about a potential future!!! as i learn more about what im really interested in and define my responsibilities to myself and to others, i keep landing on "run away before you are in too deep". i can plan, i can build fix cry and im prepared to do whatever it takes so that im happy. im in a game and its so so big and there are too many options!! i want everything

yes the moon is nice on the eyes but im sick of u all worshipping it! stop saying its a she and a goddess! i understand that its beautiful, but there isnt a person in the world who doesnt think its beautiful! so shut up about it! bc you are ruining it!

theres so much music that i love so much i want to hide it away and let noone else listen to it

i have to rent a harp so that its all set when i go back to china but i go in 3 days and i have no options and im really freakin out!

book jackets are useless and i always throw them away as soon as i get a new book

all this time ive wasted, bay-ay-bee...be my....steady date!!!

i really cant remember what time i went to the garage to get that can of soda im drinking, and sometimes the clock just skips time and suddenly i look up and its 15 minutes later than it was one minute ago, and i have no idea whats happening in the tv show im watching, and i dont know why i cant pay attention to anything. and i dont know what im thinking about, but i must be thinking about something if im not paying attention to the clock or the tv or my soda

ive been learning survival skills for the last year or so just in case i finally get the courage to run away and live alone somewhere far away from anyone else for the rest of my life. the more i travel the more i realize that everywhere is the same and that i cant be happy unless im very very alone. it sounds naive but i really believe it would make me deeply happy in a way that an interaction-based life could never do

i just ate hummus out of the container with my fingers ! i hate hate hate hate hate myself

all day monk marathon!