This post was made 2011, ten years ago.
Todays mom called me, they have to put her down. She would be twelve this year. But they found a rapidly growing tumor in her throat that is in a place that cant be removed with surgery. So mom made the hard decision today to have her put down, instead of letting her live a few extra month in pain by slowly suffocating from the tumor.
And I cant visit her at the vet because of covid.
I love you Selma. I love you so fucking much. Youāre the best dog Iāve ever had and ever will have. All the times I could bury my face in your fuzzy, impossible-to-untagle fur. All the times I was met with a shower of dog kisses when I came home from school, exhausted. Every day I told you I loved you. But it was never enough. You simply cant fully express how much you love a dog like her. I love you. Jag Ƥlskar dig. Min fina fina finaste Selma. Who is gonna keep mom company now? Who is gonna yap at the door as soon as I ring the doorbell? Itās gping to be so hard to visit mom next time, and not see you there. My heart is breaking just thinking about how much I will forever miss you. I love you. I love you.