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what fresh hell is this?

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hi I'm sophie and this is weird
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I don't know how to exist on here anymore

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Like... I don't really know how to find my place or my people but also... I literally don't know, like wat are some of these buttons now ??

I don't know how to exist on here anymore

Anonymous asked:

Just wanted to say Iโ€™m so beyond happy you are back on and posting some poems again, they comfort me just as much now as they did when I was 16, you actually inspired me to start writing way back then and I still do, thank you for just everything haha

I'm so happy that you're still writing :') Thank you for this

Anonymous asked:

your writing got me through some hard times in high school and for the longest time i was trying to find you again & the only line from you i could remember was โ€œI was never scared of ghosts until you left but now I see you everywhereโ€ bc that poem hit me very hard. anyway, i found you so yay! i just wanted to say thank you for sharing your writing for so long and thank you for helping teenage me realize thereโ€™s other people who can put my feelings into words.

I'm glad you were able to find the poem and find me again :')

Thank you for this message, I appreciate it a lot

Anonymous asked:

hey this is so weird but Iโ€™ve literally been following your blog since like 2014 when I was 14 and I used to live for your poetry like air, throughout all of my heartbreaks I used to relate so much and I just wanted to thank you for helping me read what I was never able to say

but itโ€™s kinda funny that Iโ€™ve come back now because for the first time ever I think Iโ€™ve felt actual real love for someone and he was perfect the relationship was perfect except for his commitment issues that he never acted on until yesterday he told me he things weโ€™d be better as friends, and now I feel like your poetry again but a million times more than I used to and it sucks

sorry for ranting I just wanted it off of my chest but I guess I just wanted to say it to someone who understands like I feel you do

Sorry again if this was weird hahah

As much as I am happy you can relate and have my writing to turn to, I'm sorry that you're in a place where it resonates. That's a terrible feeling, but you already know that it will pass because you've felt it before so you know it goes away again.

You deserve someone who can commit to you and love you wholeheartedly.

I am so late to the game and I'm sure so many of you have already seen it and fallen in love with it

But I just started watching Buffy the Vampire Slayer and I am so deeply obsessed with it

and I can't believe I didn't know about it sooner. It reminds me of all of you and this time in my life. Like, if I had known about Buffy when I was 14, my Tumblr bio would have definitely been "Hi I'm Sophie and I may be dead but I'm still pretty"

Anonymous asked:

Have you written any sapphic poetry? I grew up reading and loving your stuff about boys but it turns out i like girls lol

I don't write much anymore. I mostly get drunk and write poems in my notes app and then forget about them completely. Here is one I wrote recently:

"I donโ€™t know what love looks like The movies say Iโ€™m not thin enough for it And my mother says it doesnโ€™t exist My father has broken both of our hearts My best friend says love is fucking

She says cum for me I beg Come for me When I call for you And when my arms are too weak to dial the phone Because you know me Donโ€™t leave me out in the cold Or rotting in the garden Every time I try to stand up for myself My knees collapse Catch me when I fall In love with you Or off the ledge Either way Arms open wide for me Carry me home When my jeans are too tight Or when my ribs are showing When I laugh like Iโ€™ve never known pain And when I scream till my throat is raw And donโ€™t get mad when I switch like whiplash Iโ€™ve never known consistency But I hope you can love whatโ€™s inside of me"

Anonymous asked:

you dont have to answer if you're not comfortable, but why did you get rejected from grad school?

they said no sexi girlz with big boobs allowed :(

did you know
red wine turns the cuts on your lips maroon
and you bleed to the touch
heartbreak turns your cheeks black and blue
and your mother tells you, "hush"
you try to sing your favorite song
but you can't remember the words
six more cycles around the sun
doesn't seem like much
but nothing could have prepared you
for the pain of growing up

Me leaving tumblr and then coming back like sorry I went to college is Steve from blues clues vibes

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