Difficult Suggestions

i loved you, i gave you everything, you said you loved me back but you left me for him. why? what did i do to make you not love me anymore? why wont you love me again? did you get tired of me?

He thinks giving me money and gifts will make me be his friend--or more--but he's a liar and a hypocrite and I want him to hurt

how do i delete memories

Your mistake was believing I was like those girls. I'm not. I'm not someone who's going to have sex with you then leave you for another man. You never realized that I was committed until you fucked up. You did what you hated the most. You did what those girls did. You had to do it to me before I did. You fooled yourself. I never had ill intentions. I was true. And now you want to hold onto what's left of us. But I'm not sure if I want to do the same...

I wish our relationship never happend, you used me, cheated on me and left me with the most uncomfortable feeling in the world, Now I feel worthless and I wish I could be with other people without the tought of you coming into my mind everytime. I wish we never existed.

you sang me a love song and then when i kissed you two days later on the forehead you texted me "i don't like girls" and "i'm DEFINITELY straight" and you got your little bitch to agree with you and she thinks i'm abusive but you caused ALL of my meltdowns and you abandoned me when you promised i could talk to you and you hid behind your friend and you LIED TO ME and you TALKED SHIT ABOUT ME too!!! you changed, so fucking much. and even though i said i would always love you, you're NOT you.

how DARE YOU misgender me twice. i told you my pronouns, and you decided to ignore them. other people ignored them too but i told you them TWICE. I TOLD YOU I'M NOT A FUCKING GIRL, AND WHAT DO YOU SAY TO YOUR LITTLE BITCH FRIEND? "I am not and never will be interested in her." "Then" "*Them" you're a disgusting piece of shit. just like him. and you know what he did because I TOLD YOU WHEN I WAS CRYING IN THE BATHROOM AND Y O U WERE CAUSING FLASHBACKS AND SHAKING. YOU WERE MANIPULATIVE.

remember the photo of you you sent me one night thinking i had died? it came with the caption "If there's a god out there" a similar photo, with "Please". and then i called you on snapchat and i got no answer and then you called and i got a sniffle. we cried for 15, 20 minutes. you loved me, didn't you. you were too afraid to say it since you were questioning but i know you did. the look in your eyes in the photo i saved is full of love and empathy. i hold it to my chest sometimes.

for christmas, you changed, and set me free with your uncaring hurtful words; gave me the gift of becoming a hedonist and you gave it with help from your bitch friend. you made me a hedonist because you made me realize after two extremely manipulative and abusive relationships, i wasn't going to let there be a third time pining after someone who didn't care about me, who used me, who led me on, who yelled at me, who h u r t me. you hurt me. why did you hurt me? "i'm sorry. i didn't mean it."

I know I don’t mean anything to you but please let me stay near you. I’d do everything for you

Respect is linked to love. You can say you love me all you want, but if you don't have the tiniest bit of respect for me and only belittle or look down on me, I'm not going to waste my time trying to justify it anymore.

Fuck you! No sincerely and truly from the pit of my heart, fuck you for fucking me up and making me hate myself and doubt myself! I'm not putting up with your shit anymore! Go choke on a pine cone and drown in a lake you piece of hypocritical, judgemental garbage! 🖕🏾🖕🏾🖕🏾 I'M GONNA GET BETTER WHETHER YOU LIKE IT OR NOT!!

My mom always asks me why my room looks the way it does, but I’m waiting for her to realize it’s a reflection of how horrible and sad I feel inside. When is she going to notice I’m so unhappy. . . I feel like I have nothing to live for.

I broke it off, you even agreed that you had been neglectful and at this point most of the time I don't think about you. But every time I play that game we got so we could spend more time together across the miles between us, I look to see if you're online. I shoot you a message saying "Hey, wanna join me?". But even if you're online and I know you're seeing my messages, I never get a response. I don't know why I try, but I can't stop. I didn't cut it as your lover, but why can't we be friends?

Both of them are stressing me out. Why can't you understand that it's possible to have more than one love. Why do you tease me with what could be. I can't mess this up because the two of you are everything to me. My heart feels like its about to split in two. I just want to feel like i deserve what I want and that what I want isn't evil. I just want to love.

i’m sorry i pushed you all away. i’m sorry i could see clearly enough to see you. i’m sorry i stained every good memory with the pain of losing someone. i’m sorry i met you.

I promised I would be glad to see everyone outgrowing me and leaving me behind so that it wouldn't hurt so badly when I left but it still hurts just a little bit.