alright i can get possessed my homie said it was chill
when i first read Gideon the Ninth like a year ago i really did not like Harrow at first because she's so cruel to Gideon at the very beginning, but on my reread every time she does something awful I'm just like "aww wittle Hawwow...."
hi, ummm. this is awkward. haha. yeah um do you think you could push your boulder up somewhere else? like a different hill? because this one’s kind of already taken. yeah it’s the one i’ve decided to die on, so.
yeah thanks. um and if you see that woman who sometimes comes running up here could you tell her that i’m- yeah the one who makes all those deals with god. yeah. could you tell her this is the hill i’m dying on and she needs to find a different one? fuck hang on i can see those two kids with that pail of water again give me a second-
Oh to be a manga author answering questions about your OCs
Forgot the best one (or one of them).
if you give your oc’s weird powers people are going to ask about their dicks
kim dokja's flavor of mental illness makes me so crazy. he's like "i deserve nothing good i want to make something good of me none of me matters i need to try to stay so i don't hurt them there's nothing wrong with me i'm completely normal i will cause problems on purpose i didn't want this to happen i'm unlovable i will fight for our happy ending you loving me was a mistake i want to hold your hand and i want you to let go and it's okay if i go as long as you live i want to stay and i worth less than any of you"
Damn. Fine. I’m on Firefox now. Are you happy?
Oh shit, y’all weren’t kidding. This is a lot better, damn.
Don’t get me wrong I love Gideon. But I do find as a fandom, or even as casual readers, a big focus on Gideon and Harrow’s relationship is the power imbalance that is weighed heavily in favour of Harrow - and how Gideon is a precious selfless himbo. This leads people to wonder what part of Gideon even likes Harrow. Which is fine, and valid.
But I find there’s actually a little more of a balance of power that makes their relationship even more fucked up and great to read when we realize the inherent toxicity of Gideon’s martyr complex.
Gideon, whose sole goal is to put herself in harm’s way for the express purpose of providing spoils and resources to Harrow and her house (which is essentially just Harrow herself) by joining the cohort. Gideon, who wants to see the look on Harrow’s face when she realizes how talented she is, how brave she is, and how much Harrow now relies on Gideon to be a provider within a very dangerous situation. Gideon, whose sole goal can be broken down to the basic premise of, “fuck you, you need me.”
Gideon, who trots right into a room with a beast and has no qualms about fighting it for Harrow because “it’s arms kinda look like swords”, and who is reduced to a gaping-mouthed mess when she’s genuinely praised for it.
Gideon, who, without thinking, offers her life force to Harrow, despite having should have died from the process of Harrow utilizing it and then offering it again even after what she went through. I find people are thinking in a more of a “this is my love for you” kind of way instead of a “see? You need me. And the way you need me will hurt me or put me in danger and it’s only me who can and will do it. Look what I’m doing for you, you miserable bitch”
Gideon, who flops onto a piece of metal to fully sacrifice herself and is absolutely livid when it doesn’t go her way and Harrow decides without Gideon to try and preserve her. To that Gideon simply says, “all I wanted you to do was eat me.” She’s SO mad with the thought that Harrow doesn’t want or need her.
Which basically translates to, again, “fuck you, I’m going to make it so you need me and it will be under my terms, and it will be so satisfying to see you have to admit it”
And like, yes, we know that the way Harrow’s parents treated Gideon and how that behaviour trickled down to Harrow absolutely has something to do with Gideon’s problem, but also we know that she totally gets that from her dad.
Anyway, I love Gideon but something about viewing her actions this way that helps shift the power imbalance makes reading griddlehark much more satisfying in that one of the parties may not be as helpless and innocent as we think
“Do I have Ortus’s eyes? Are these ones mine? I never really looked at them— Beloved, what were my eyes like?”
That which was buried insensate said quite calmly, “She asked me not to tell you.”
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okay but like, reply in the tags what fandom you’ve been in with the best quality of fanfiction
everyone who said one direction owes me five dollars
#locked tomb or captive prince probably#one of those fandoms for popular but not too popular books#granted i havent read many fics for either so that could be it lmao#it's this or like#a canon that was pretty bad#but has fics that elevate the source material#like ladybug or death note or something like that#q
i'd rather see 1000 graffiti penises than 1 product billboard. i'd live in dick city if it meant i could avoid advertisements in my daily life.
fun fact billboards are literally illegal in São Paulo thanks to the 'lei cidade limpa' aka 'clean city law' and it is THE BEST. here are some before and afters for your perusal
Now that's what I call
sensory bliss
born too early to be conceived on the garfield dark ride. born too late to have gay sex on the garfield dark ride. born just in time to watch a video about gay sex on the garfield dark ride
Tumblr as a culture has the worst method of recommending videos to people but by god do I know what Defunctland is now
