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I'm Ethan. 19. Drummer.

I don’t know if you’ve actually seen this episode, but Pam invites the entire office to her art show that she’s been gearing up for for a really long time. Nobody shows up except for Oscar and his partner (and they critique her work, calling her “lacking in courage” among other things, not realizing she is standing right behind them) and then Michael. And Michael is the only one who tells her she is great just for putting herself out there, and the only one who places value on what she’s done, and he points out all the little details she got right and notices absolutely every bit of hard work she put into it. And then treats Pam like the artist she is by not just paying her for her art, but displaying it where literally everyone can see it.

It’s one of my favorite episodes.

I can't even begin to articulate how I feel about my current situation. I don't want the negative feelings. I'm completely overwhelmed with emotions and I just don't know what to do. I just want to feel loved by her and to feel comforted by her rather than unwanted and unwelcomed physically, emotionally, and mentally. I miss what we had when it was good and I feel we could get there but there's so much ill will and past feelings in the way of everything. And my problems with her are just the tip of the ice burg. I literally struggle to manage my life and people look at me like im just lazy. I work hard every day at at least 1 job and I'm still made to feel like I'm a slacker who can't do anything right. I just. I can't. Life is always gunna be difficult but this is just absurd.