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Amuse A Little Muse

@amuse-alittlemuse / amuse-alittlemuse.tumblr.com

Run by a slightly crazed teen who actually doesn't know what she's doing. Found here: rants, digital and traditional drawings Frequent on art and some fashion reblogs, lots of homestuck, dangan ronpa, free!, snk, ect. I'm recovering from self harm, and I blog about trying to get better. It's hard, and i sometimes forget to tag things. #musings contains my talkity posts. Depression, Anxiety, ADHD. Please do not be mean to me, I only want to make myself and others happy.
GUESS WHOS BACK, BACK? BACK AGAIN, AGAIN? THE BITCH IS BACK, BACK, WITH HER FRIEND mimi slides in sup sweeties?

it has been a fuckin ass crazy what is it now??? 4, 5 months?????

man, ive been gone for a majority of the gigapause.

my main girl alex asked why the bloody hell i abandoned this blog, making me wonder if anyone even saw my "yo hey peace out" post

basically, I've gone through a lot. of. shit. this past year. 

i mean wow. 

and i needed a breather to get myself together, get my mental health in check. 

cuz anxiety is a total bitch. depression too.

anyways, long story short- i've been piecing myself back together, and im much brighter and happier and i run a new blog, as a front for the store i run

how crazy is that???? i run a whole friggin store. legit the dream come true

check it out here

magical-daze.tumblr.com

magical-daze.blogspot.com

magicaldaze.storenvy.com

now imma disappear in a cloud of smoke again

later, yall.

PSA

Recently, someone pointed out that my blog could create a lot of problems for me, especially if I am posting information about mental health. This blog could- and I could- become a liability. 

I love helping others, but I am working through my own things and I cannot help others 

This is because of several reasons

One, I am a minor. I am not a legal adult.  Two, I am not a professional and I could make things worse Three, I myself am dealing with mental health issues at the moment, putting me in no state to be giving advice. 

IF YOU HAVE FOUND ANY OF MY MENTAL HEALTH TIPS HELPFUL, PLEASE SEEK PSYCHIATRIC HELP ASAP

not because they are wrong, but because they are mental health tips. for people with mental illnesses. and if it applies to you, then you have a mental illness. you have an illness, you are sick. you need to go to a doctor, not the nice girl with chicken noodle soup and wisdom. you need to see a professional. your problems will not go away unless you go and get some professional help.

I will not be posting anything for a while. A long while.  No more reblogs, no more musings.  Not until I have taken care of myself. 

If you are interested in my art, I will be posting my art on my art/inspuuurrartion blog, which has the URL amuse-alittlemuse.  I will no longer be posting or reblogging art references or inspiration on that blog. I will only occasionally put up pictures of art pieces I'm proud of. I might not even do that. Who knows. Bottom line, I will not be publishing any more information on this site. Not in the near future anyways. Maybe when hussie updates, maybe. But lord knows that is months away. 

If you are a friend, you can contact me as a friend. If you want to be friends outside of this site, shoot me a message and I'll give you my skype or email. We can talk as friends. But I am not a therapist, I cannot heal you. 

I need to get better and place myself first.

This blog has become a crutch and it is holding me back

So, on that note.

I hope everyone has a great life, and that the friends I have made on here will continue to stay in contact with me outside of this little bubble of teenage trouble. 

Au revoir, darlings

-Mimi. 

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Baljeet: Boo! Boo, I say! Phineas: Baljeet? Baljeet: Oh, I am not Baljeet. I am the scariest thing known to man: a failed math test. Phineas: Yeah, right. We’re just gonna move on now. Baljeet: You can run, but it won’t be to the college of your choice, I tell you!

I used to think that this was an exaggeration

I was wrong

I made this in an hour because I was pissed. 

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IN AN HOUR

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theburningsea

IF I MAKE YOU FURIOUS, WILL YOU MAKE MY WEDDING DRESS?!

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whovianallover

CAN I LIVE WITH YOU AND LEARN YOUR WAYS

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kia-kaha-winchesters

you could start business called angry apparel 

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iamtheintelligence

dude you’d fuckin’ kill the competition at project runway

The scene plays out in autopsy rooms around the world, not to mention on any number of TV crime dramas: a scalpel-wielding pathologist calmly dissects a lifeless body for clues to an untimely death.

The chest and abdominal cavities are pried open, organs removed and the brain eased out through a sawn-off skull in a medical tradition as ancient as the Pharaohs.

It is a tradition, though, facing very modern competition. Led partly by a prominent Canadian pathologist, some specialists are pushing to augment, or on occasion even replace, those conventional post mortems with “virtual autopsies” that use CT and MRI scans to probe bloodlessly inside cadavers.

Ontario recently became the first jurisdiction in Canada to begin using imaging machines designed to diagnose the living as a tool to uncover the medical secrets of the dead. (Photo: Institute of Forensic Medicine, University of Zurich)

"Everything in my head went quiet. 

All the ticks, all the constantly refreshing images just disappeared. 

When you have Obsessive Compulsive Disorder, you don’t really get quiet moments. 

Even in bed, I’m thinking:  Did I lock the doors? Yes.  Did I wash my hands? Yes.  Did I lock the doors? Yes.  Did I wash my hands? Yes.  But when I saw her, the only thing I could think about was the hairpin curve of her lips..  Or the eyelash on her cheek-  the eyelash on her cheek-  the eyelash on her cheek.  I knew I had to talk to her.  I asked her out six times in thirty seconds.  She said yes after the third one, but none of them felt right, so I had to keep going.  On our first date, I spent more time organizing my meal by color than I did eating it, or talking to her..  But she loved it.  She loved that I had to kiss her goodbye sixteen times or twenty-four times at different times of the day.  She loved that it took me forever to walk home because there are lots of cracks on our sidewalk.  When we moved in together, she said she felt safe, like no one would ever rob us because I definitely lock the door eighteen times.  I’d always watch her mouth when she talked-  when she talked-  when she talked-  when she talked;  when she said she loved me, her mouth would curl up at the edges.  At night, she’d lay in bed and watch me turn all the lights off.. And on, and off, and on, and off, and on, and off, and on, and off, and on, and off.  She’d close her eyes and imagine that the days and nights were passing in front of her.  But then.. She said I was taking up too much of her time.  That I couldn’t kiss her goodbye so much because I was making her late for work..  When she said she loved me, her mouth was a straight line..  When I stopped in front of a crack in the sidewalk, she just kept walking..  And last week she started sleeping at her mother’s place.  She told me that she shouldn’t have let me get so attached to her; that this whole thing was a mistake, but..  How can it be a mistake that I don’t have to wash my hands after I touch her?  Love is not a mistake, and it’s killing me that she can run away from this and I just can’t.  I can’t go out and find someone new because I always think of her.  Usually, when I obsess over things, I see germs sneaking into my skin.  I see myself crushed my an endless succession of cars..  And she was the first beautiful thing I ever got stuck on.  I want to wake up every morning thinking about the way she holds her steering wheel..  How she turns shower knobs like she opening a safe.  How she blows out candles-  blows out candles-  blows out candles-  blows out candles-  blows out-….  Now, I just think about who else is kissing her.  I can’t breathe because he only kisses her once-he doesn’t care if it’s perfect!  I want her back so bad..  I leave the door unlocked.  I leave the lights on. ”

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The most perfect and horrific thing.

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earthlooksbetterfromthestars

I reblog this every single time I apologize

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nurselex

The pain this makes me feel…every damn time

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jordynsthemeswimming

every time i read/watch this i get all emotional sigh

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EVERY FUCKIN TIME

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BEING CALLED CUTE MAKES ME FEEL SO GOOD WOW ANYONE WHOSE EVER CALLED ME CUTE THANK U SUNSHINE KISSES TO U I LOVE U