It’s been 6 years of feeling like shit. 6 constant years. When does it stop?
Tired of this , “ if I hurt someone once I think about it I’ll be a better person “ shit that all these ignorant fucks think .
Why did I ever fucking think someone would love me .
Why the fuck did I trust you with all my insecurities .
Why the fuck did I ever believe you wanted to marry me .
Why am I still alive .
I wish you new how much this gets to me
God this fucks me up and I wish you new how much this gets to me. You left me and found someone better then me he looks better then he has a better job he has a family that’s loving he makes you more happy then I ever could he makes you smile I hate that he makes you more happy then I did…
I FUCKING HATE that he makes me feel like I was never good enough for you because if you compare us to each other he’s everything anyone could ever ask for and then you look at me and I’m just a disappointment that can’t do shit ya know I worked my fucking ass off to make you happy and he doesn’t even have to fucking try… you have moved on and you are happy and I haven’t moved a inch and I’m more miserable then ever like fucking hell I don’t know what to feel like your happy and that’s all I ever want for you is for you to be happy I just really wanted to be the one to make you smile I wanted to be the one to make you happy..
Idk I just wanted to be the one but it’s what ever I don’t even know why I’m writing this your never gonna see it it’s not gonna matter to anyone I fucking hate that I can’t let go of the past.. I fucking hate myself for not being enough for you I’m sorry