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Kit, Queer AF. They/Them. Pākehā/white. 35 and thriving. Autistic, disabled, polyam, Taurus. This is mostly a Criminal Minds blog. Ruler of Je T'Emily Garbajistan. Creator of Queerminal Minds. [AO3: w00t4ewan]

Fooled Around (and Fell in Love) - PART 3

Buying a house to remodel means big changes for the throuple. Tara transfers out of the BAU to focus on the renovation, which means she's spending most of her time with her general contractor, Beck. (Who she definitely doesn't have a crush on...)

Tara's position at the BAU is filled by Agent Elle Greenaway, who JJ feels is completely closed-off and arrogant. She's convinced Elle is hiding something, but can she get through her dislike of this new agent so they can find a way to work together?

Meanwhile, Emily is doing her best to keep up with all the interruptions going on in her life and her relationship, but juggling her partners, her job, and the house renovation begins to take a toll on her. 

How can the three women find a balance that doesn't threaten the foundation of everything they've built together?

Portraits By: @artcake || Design By Me

Fooled Around (and Fell in Love) is a queer rom-com AU that explores coming out at any age or stage, polyamory, and above all else, the love shared between JJ/Emily/Tara.

YES YES MALE BODY POSITIVITY

Thank you. Especially to the guy with the acne. Lots of people have acne on the chest and back, but almost no one ever acknowledges that. Young children that just start going into puberty need to know this is normal and not something to freak out/ be embarrassed about. Body positivity in the media helps so many people with self esteem issues.

OH MY GOD AND A MASC NONBINARY PERSON?! YES YES YES YES THANK YOU

when you're younger you make fun of it because it seems boring but one of the best parts of getting older and maturing is recognizing how simply lovely all that cliche shit is. sunsets really are so endlessly satisfying. the hint of lilacs in the breeze really is soft and delicate and sweet. sometimes it feels good just to successfully clean the sink, to find an affordable appliance in the color you've been wanting, to try a new recipe, to finally get through that one television series like how you've been meaning.

it seemed stupid because they tell you - it'll feel quick - but it does feel quick. when i was younger it was like time was molasses. i couldn't get out of there fast enough. all the eras of my life stretched out into taffy. but then you are 29 on a walk with a friend and you both just stop to smell the lily of the valley at your feet. you are both standing there, quiet, enjoying the simple moment of peace.

they say it gets better a lot, which used to have no meaning to me. better for me was undefined and daunting. but here is one way it got better without me trying - a few days ago i was walking my dog and stopped to stand in a sunbeam, turning my cheeks up at the shaft of golden fairylights, the dustmotes in the wood all shivering their little dancing bodies. a stranger stopped and kind of cocked her head and said basking? and i laughed nervously, already moving to get out of her way. instead, she said can i bask with you? and we stood there, full adults, a soundless hum in our chest. when the clouds came back over the sun, we made that awkward small talk - yeah i didn't expect it to be this chilly! and haha spring allergies are comin'.

and you pour yourself a cup of tea and are delighted when you measure the sugar ratio perfectly and you manage to parallel park correctly on the first time (probably because nobody was looking) and yoga really did help your lower back mobility and brown paper packages really do tug on your heartstrings and you love sweaters and furry blankets and watching your little potted plants grow one new and shining leaf and you want to find your younger self and say. yes, i am nostalgic for summers that bent like wheat and were buzzing with low energy and sleep. but darling. adulthood gets better because the time condenses into a prayerbook of your own psalms, these tender beautiful memories. it gets better because things become prettier, gentler, kinder to you - somehow. without you even noticing. you just get to the top of the hill and you realize - oh, this is the thing i've been missing.

Friday Fic Recs

I actually read stuff this week! And all of it was smut! (Hormonal menopause side effect = always horny. So these are all masturbatory worthy)

What I've Read:

Criminal Minds, JJ/Emily, WC: 1516 Rated: Explicit || Author: Jem_ily

Why I Love It: This was so sexy! I love their dynamic, and how impatient JJ is to fuck her girlfriend. Very well written, and hits some of my fave kinks.

Criminal Minds, Alex x Reader, WC: 4185 Rated: Explicit || Author: Kattwylie

Why I Love It: So, I don't usually read anything that's 'x Reader', its just not something I enjoy -- That being said, I tried this one out and HOLY SHIT. It's so good!!! Alex Blake as a soft Dom??? Be still my heart! An incredible fic start to finish

Criminal Minds, Tara x Reader, WC: 2652 Rated: Explicit || Author: Kattwylie

Why I Love It: After reading 'Translucent', I looked through other fics by Kattwylie and ended up here. My love for Tara knows no bounds, so this was absolutely delicious. Tara was extremely in character, and the entire set-up was very well done. Probably will come back to this one again if ever I feel like 'x reader' vibes.

What I Have Marked For Later:

(A new category, because there are fics I want to showcase that I just haven't had time to read yet!)

Criminal Minds, JJ/Emily, WC: 3975 Rated: Mature || Author: sunshineandguns

Why I'm Excited: I know this fic was a long time coming, so I was stoked to see it finally posted this week! I'm very much looking forward to reading this angst fest this weekend. Anything sunshineandguns writes is transcendent, and I know this one is going to hurt so good.

Criminal Minds, JJ/Emily, WC: 12,839+ (WIP) Rated: Explicit || Author: blackbirdphoenix (@unitchiefs-blackbirdphoenix)

Why I'm Excited: Alyssa wrote it, so I know it's going to be amazing. I want to carve out some time to read this whole thing in one sitting because I know it's going to be 'one of those fics', where I won't want to put it down.

What I'm Writing:

Criminal Minds, JJ/Emily/Tara, WC: 19,347+ (WIP) Rated: Explicit || Updates Weekly on Fridays

Update: I finally finished editing all the chapters I had previously written! I also wrote a new chapter this week that I'm really happy with, currently I have 15 chapters fully written and my WC is around 72,000. And I haven't even gotten to the climax of the story, this slow burn is the slowest burn. I think it's kind of a double-edged sword to have so much written in advance, because it means I'm constantly nit-picking over details, knowing these chapters won't be posted for months, but that also means when they do get posted, each chapter will be the best version of itself.

More Fic Recs Under the Cut:

CHAPTER 4 - NOW POSTED

Pen grabbed the pitcher of beer from the bartended, and started back to the table, "Hey, didn't you three meet that contractor Derek recommended? What's their name? What are they like? Tell me everything!"

JJ's body language stiffened at the mention of the throuple's new contractor, because truly the only person she was feeling more frustrated with than Elle, was Beck Wilson. It'd only been a few days since they had her over for dinner, but pretty much every conversation with Tara since then seemed to always be 'Beck thinks this' and 'Beck said that', and although JJ wanted to be supportive of Tara's excitement about their house renovations, she was internally struggling after she'd noticed the undeniable spark of attraction between Beck and Tara over dinner.

"Uh, yeah. Her name is Beck and she seems nice enough," JJ answered with a non-committal shrug.

"That's it? She's just nice?" Pen coaxed, trying to get more information. They set the pitcher on the table and handed out glasses to everyone.

"Who's nice?" Emily chimed in. She scooted over to allow JJ to sit next to her as Tara made room for Penelope on the opposite side of the table.

"Your contractor," Penelope said.

"Oh, you mean Beck?" Tara's whole face lit up at the mention of the other woman. "She's really great. Actually, I think you'd like her."

"And why's that?" Pen questioned.

Tara took a drink of her beer and smiled, "Well, for starters she's a self-identified Butch, by every definition of the word. Short hair, strong arms, the pinnacle of Butch fashion, she actually wore suspenders the other night, and not everyone can pull that off, but she did," Tara paused for a moment while she involuntarily smiled at the mental image, "Oh plus, she even drives a motorcycle..."

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Fooled Around (and Fell in Love) is a queer rom-com AU that celebrates coming out at any age or stage, polyamory, found family, and above all else, the love shared between JJ/Emily/Tara.

Read the whole series: [PART 1] || [PART 2] || [PART 3]

Literally No One:

Me: So in Fooled Around (and Fell in Love), Tara and Emily share a love for music and sharing music with each other is a love-language. They have a joint playlist together in the fic, which I (of course) created to let readers actually listen to something my characters created together.

I also have playlists made solely by Emily or Tara, each playlist has a vibe and covers a handful of genres that Emily or Tara like to listen to. I've thought in depth about this, so I know what artists/genres each character listens to on their own and which songs they listen to together.

JJ, however, hasn't been part of the creative process in making a playlist, up until Part 3. We get our first glimpse at a collaborative Tara/JJ playlist and let me tell you -- it's BUCK WILD.

Tara listens to some Pop, a lot of R&B, a touch of rap, and tons of empowered Black, queer, artists. Some artists she loves: Megan Thee Stallion, Lil Nas X, Lizzo, Beyonce, Janelle Monae. Emily listens to mostly folk/indie stuff, she loves catchy pop songs, and anything she can happy stimm to. She has a playlist for every occasion (although, so does Tara). She loves artists like Avett Brothers, A Fine Frenzy, Mumford and Suns, but also loves pop icons like, Carly Rae Jepsen, Hayley Kiyoko, Mary Lambert.

JJ is a wild card. This woman loves all music, she's not really picky. She loves 80s anthems, anything dancey, and everything in between. Her favourite artists are KT Tunstall and Cyndi Lauper.

How this all plays out is that when I created the playlists mentioned in the series -- I created them with the thought process of 'This is Tara picking songs, not me, what would she put on here?'. Which is to say, my companion playlists are so incredibly well-crafted and planned out. The only songs that cross over between playlists are ones I imagine were introduced by one character to another. Ex: Tara has some Betty Who songs on her flying playlist, because Emily introduced her to Betty Who.

For links to all of the character created and companion playlists, check out the Fooled Around (and Fell in Love) - EXTRAS on AO3.

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Fooled Around (and Fell in Love) is a queer rom-com AU that celebrates coming out at any age or stage, polyamory, found family, and above all else, the love shared between JJ/Emily/Tara.

Read the whole series: [PART 1] || [PART 2] || [PART 3]

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for the love of god, write all the self-indulgent scenes you want.  be utterly  shameless about including every last fantasy.  i know everyone likes to share quotes and quips about how miserably hard writing is, but please please try thinking of it as a joyful act where you get to be a messy human who makes art rather than some pain filled quest for icy perfection.

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“authenticity looks an awful lot like self-indulgence but it is the only way to find your true audience”

Go read an old fic.

There's such recency bias in fandom. As an author you post something, get a few reactions, and then it goes off into the bin. As a reader you check the tags, see what's new, and move on. But a lot of old stuff is really good. It's just sitting there, gathering dust, waiting for someone to take a peek.

So go on. Treat yourself.

Read an old fic.

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Had an idea you might be able to use for something: Klingon Soap Operas.

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(sigh)

Thanks for the thought. I appreciate your kindness!

But unfortunately, because you've sent me the idea and I've read it, I can now not use it, ever. No matter how much I might like to.

This isn't about you, you understand. And in its way it probably seems like a cruel paradox. You were only trying to be helpful! But if I was working on something for Trek and this concept came up even in casual discussion, I would be honor-bound (and contractually required) to inform them that the idea had come to me from a reader or fan. And then—rightly, from their point of view—they would forbid me to use it, because the idea's originator might some day, despite all their friendly intentions now, sue them over it. And the evidence that I was at fault would be easy to obtain. Sending a DM on any major platform generates an electronic "paper trail" that will confirm its target has opened and read the message in question. And that electronic record can be subpoenaed and submitted as evidence, and would stand up in court.

"Oh, come on, who'd do a thing like that, what are the odds...?" people will say. But it's not generally known that I've already been involved in a high-stakes lawsuit in which someone tried to sue Mattel over material I wrote when developing the initial form of the "Barbie: Fairytopia" universe (and the first Fairytopia film) for them. I'd never so much as met or communicated with the person suing them, had never read even a word of their work... but they still went to great trouble and expense attempting to prove that I'd had access to their material and used it without permission.

Mattel won the suit (as I'd frankly been expecting: the attorney handling their defense was one of the most expert IP lawyers in the US). But it gave me the chills... and made it clear how very wrong things could go, and the kind of damage that could be done to my career and my personal life, if I even accidentally used ideas from unauthorized sources.

Seriously, folks. I know you all mean well! But please don't make me tap the sign. DO NOT SEND ME STORY IDEAS, no matter how vague or general or unformed they may be. To do so is to absolutely guarantee that they will never, ever happen.* (And in my own universes, your innocently-meant suggestion could mean that neither you or anyone else will ever see that particular Young Wizards or Middle Kingdoms plot, no matter how much you'd like to... because I take this stuff seriously.)

...Thanks, all.

*This is also why I don't read fanfic set in my universes. Which you also shouldn't send me: please and thank you.

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Please read this before you send me ideas or links to fanfic of any of my stuff. Please.

Anonymous asked:

Is it just some kind of internal misogyny or are so many female characters not written all that well? Like, they seem a little flatter than their male counterparts. The show I just finished is mostly dudes, but there are a a couple main and recurring women. But so many women we see are just there as love interests for the guys and they never seem all that interesting. I know they’re only there short-term, but I just feel like they could be better, ya know?

Anon, it's not internalised misogyny. It's very largely society's external misogyny. Female characters very rarely get given character development like make characters do.

I don't have the capacity to give a full gender studies lecture here. But you should read up on the Bechdel-Wallace Test, then think about it every time you consume media

If media doesn't pass the bare fuckin minimum of the Bechdel Test, then why are you trying to blame yourself for the way the media treated female characters?

Love your self, Nonnie. It's not your fault that the world largely hates people who aren't white cishet dudes. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

as a bi person, the bisexual flag brings me infinite joy and always puts a smile on my face, however as a person who has a Passion for Graphic Design, that undersaturated shade of purple infuriates me when it's used digitally

like, on an actual flag - which was its original purpose - it looks great!

those look fine! lovely, even! with the semi-transparent fabric, the way it catches the sunlight, it looks beautiful!

but now look at how it looks digitally

the pink and blue are so vibrant compared to the sad, lonely lavender!

and let's look at this statement from Michael Page, the creator of the bi flag:

(sidenote: he created this flag in 1998, so if his takes on bisexuality is different from yours, it's okay to notice that! a lot has changed since the 90s when it comes to lived experiences and the way we describe them. but, it's also important to respect his thoughts about this and the way he presented them, even if today, we'd probably not say that bi people "blend unnoticeably into both the gay/lesbian and straight communities.")

so in pantone colors, the pink is 226 C, the blue is 286 C, and the purple of the flag is 258 C.

but...here's the deal

Michael talks here about how the key to understanding the symbolism is to know that the purple blends into both the pink and blue. and on a physical flag, I think you can see that!

but digitally, it absolutely does not blend. it clashes badly, and looks oddly separate from the other two colors.

which got me wondering...what purple do you get if you actually blend 226 C and 286 C?

oh! oh, my god.

look at that! look at how nicely it fits between those colors!

look at it next to the original color scheme! look at how much more vibrant the purple is!

and friends. this is just blending through rgb! you get even more purple variations when you use other color spaces!

let's compare all of them:

(top: original, lab. middle: lrgb, lch. bottom: rgb, hsl)

look at all of the different purple options you can get just by combining these two colors!

if you want almost too-vibrant saturation, you can go hsl, if you want something more relaxed that's closer to the original, you can go lab or lrgb. and if you want to split the difference, lch is bright and violet, while rgb is there with its saturated but darker purple.

anyway, I guess I don't really have a point here? this isn't so much an informational post as it is Me Getting Weird About Colors, but I think it is a useful lesson about how colors look very different on screens compared to how they look on objects in real life.

and sometimes, I think it's okay to compensate for that.

out of all of these, this is my favorite bi flag:

it's the one where the colors were blended in lab color space. for me, the lighter, softer purple is close enough to the original bi flag purple, while also feeling like a smoother blend of the blue and pink

but that's just me! and it might not even look the same to you, since every screen is different, because technology is a nightmare!

anyway, thank you for coming with me on this colorful journey! I will now retreat back to inkscape and make pained sounds about inkstitch gradients until something tangible pulls me back into reality

Finally, color theory that's not in a children's hospital.

Finally, color

theory that’s not in a

children’s hospital.

Beep boop! I look for accidental haiku posts. Sometimes I mess up.

Are you sure about that?

*facepalm*

Outstanding bisexual disaster post. Has never sat properly in a chair.

Went to bed early last night bc I had a bad meltdown that sort of made everything go to mush. But going to bed by midnight meant I woke up at 6.30am with Doom Them, had breakfast, did my morning routine and I'm at my work desk by 8am!?!?! Do NT people know how wild it is to just do this everyday??? This is like a special treat! A holiday! A once a year occurrence. LEt's hope my brain cooperates!

Update: I've already edited/reworked an entire chapter, and I've also written nearly 5000 words on top of that -- all since 8am (that's 4.5 hours). Absolutely gobsmacked by this.

I'm 100% anti 'hustle' and 'productivity' culture. But damn, I DO love days when my body and brain all collab to let me get tons of work done!

Stand Like This for 2 Minutes Per Day from http://jamesclear.com/body-language-how-to-be-confident

No, for real, though—this is a thing.  Not sure about the science behind it, but it makes me feel fancy and powerful regardless.  I highly recommend it.

COME ON PEOPLE, EVERY DAY, DO THIS :D

@reallyndacarter found this old post, and honestly this is something that helps me so much!