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Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: 僕のヒーローアカデミア | Boku no Hero Academia | My Hero Academia (Anime & Manga) Rating: Explicit Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Aizawa Shouta | Eraserhead/Yagi Toshinori | All Might Characters: Aizawa Shouta | Eraserhead, Yagi Toshinori | All Might, Yamada Hizashi | Present Mic, Midoriya Izuku, Sasaki Mirai | Sir Nighteye, Shuuzenji Chiyo | Recovery Girl, Yoichi | First One For All User (My Hero Academia) Additional Tags: Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Post-Break Up, Getting Back Together, Angst with a Happy Ending, Unforeseen Simulation Joint Arc (My Hero Academia), Injury Recovery, Hurt/Comfort, Mutual Pining, POV Alternating, Hurt Aizawa Shouta | Eraserhead, Protective Yagi Toshinori | All Might, Trans Aizawa Shouta | Eraserhead, AFAB body terms, Vaginal Sex, Come Eating, Marking, Protective Yamada Hizashi | Present Mic Series: Part 2 of die with a smile Summary:

To save him, you must destroy him.

Process: it’s over.

He’s gone.

Mission: save Aizawa Shota by any means necessary.

Status: successful.

Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: 僕のヒーローアカデミア | Boku no Hero Academia | My Hero Academia (Anime & Manga) Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: Graphic Depictions Of Violence Relationships: Aizawa Shouta | Eraserhead/Yagi Toshinori | All Might Characters: Aizawa Shouta | Eraserhead, Yagi Toshinori | All Might, Yamada Hizashi | Present Mic, Kayama Nemuri | Midnight, My Hero Academia Ensemble, Shigaraki Tomura | Shimura Tenko Additional Tags: Post-Break Up, Getting Back Together, Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Heavy Angst, Unforeseen Simulation Joint Arc (My Hero Academia), Poor Aizawa, someone hug this man, Alcohol Abuse/Alcoholism, Suicidal Thoughts, Trans Aizawa Shouta | Eraserhead, Memories, Unreliable Narrator, First Kiss, Mutual Pining, Protective Yagi Toshinori | All Might Series: Part 1 of die with a smile Summary:

It’ll be exactly five years this September.

‘Look at me and tell me to my fucking face that you don’t want me. That you don’t - that you don’t love me.’

“I’m very honored to be here!” the blond effigy at the head of the table booms. His smile is immovable. Shota hates it. He’s always fucking hated it.

Because it’s an illusion. A perfect fucking illusion.

Just like we were, Shota thinks bitterly. Isn’t that right, hero?

Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Stranger Things (TV 2016) Rating: Mature Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Billy Hargrove/Steve Harrington Characters: Billy Hargrove, Steve Harrington Additional Tags: Pre-Relationship, Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Billy Hargrove is Bad at Feelings, Soft Steve Harrington, Billy Hargrove Redemption, Angst, Bad Parent Neil Hargrove, Implied/Referenced Child Abuse, Mild Hurt/Comfort, POV Steve Harrington, implied suicidal ideation Series: Part 1 of different breeds Summary:

“Hey,” Steve calls again, a bit lamely. Billy flings his arms wide in a WHAT sort of gesture.

“The fuck are you doing here, Harrington?” Billy shouts. “Do me a fucking favor and crawl outta my fucking ass, would'ya? Jesus, I turn around these days and your fucking -” Billy waves a hand in front of his face. “Is always fucking there!"

“It’s a small town, man,” Steve complains, slamming the beemer door shut.

hi

been absent for a while. went through a lot of soul-searching and intense therapy. i’m tentatively back. i go by andy now, pronouns are she/her. i realized i am, at the end of all things, a girl.

however

my partner is trans. i am an ally. just wanted to say that for anyone who feels uncomfy with “detransitioning”. 

love u 3000

xx

Sorry but Steve tripping into the Upside Down through Lover’s Lake and he’s fighting off the bats and instead of Nancy saving him it’s -

“What the fuck!” A hysterical, growling voice bellows, “are you doing here, Harrington?”

The bat squeals. Billy roars and slams it into the ground twice. It wriggles up and darts away. Steve rolls onto his feet as Billy whips around to face him.

“What am I doing here?” Steve hollers; he catches the broken metal tube Billy tosses him and slams it square into a bat’s chest. Or it’s face. He can’t tell. Who gives a shit. “You’ve been down here this entire fucking time?!”

“Where the fuck else would I be?!” Billy demands with a growl. His own weapon shears a bat’s wing in two.

“Oh, I dunno!” Steve shouts hysterically, throwing his arms wide; Billy looks a bit insane, his blue eyes surrounded by grit and a little too wide. “In the coffin we fucking buried you in?!”

Billy grins like a maniac. “Gotta try harder than that to kill me, cherry-bomb!”

He’s gorgeous. He’s gorgeous and he’s insane and Steve has missed this psychotic motherfucker like a goddamn limb.

There’s a wicked crack behind him and Steve whips around to find Nancy standing over the body of a bat, holding a broken oar like a mace.

“Oh god,” Eddie says shrilly, “here comes backup!”

“You two can flirt later,” Robin calls, hefting up a piece of rebar she pulls from the ruins of a rusty car overgrown with vines, “it’s showtime!”

And Billy, true to form, tosses his head back -

And howls.

Hi! You probably get this a lot and have noticed I’ve been scrolling through your blog but my GOD does it feel nice to see someone finally realise Billy’s story and trauma and everything in between and how hard done by he was in the show. His abuse is always negated over what he does to Lucas and the other kids in the show/ the fact he’s an asshole. (not excusing the racist aspect - thank you d*ffer brothers- that they so badly wanted Billy to be)

Growing up similar to Billy and as a queer kid I just…it’s so healing to finally see someone who doesn’t demonise Billy and how the duffer brothers just made him a queer coded victim of abuse to villanise instead of write an actual meaningful and story rich anything. Billy has been such a huge figurehead in my mind for years over this, and finally someone gets it. ESPECIALLY since they’ve just done another queer coded character so dirty and for what

I hope this makes sense I got a bit emotional

Thank you <3

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y’all are so fuckin sweet i swear - this is why i hate it when antis go after this fandom. never in my life have i been a part of a fandom that is this sweet or gentle. the empathy and tenderness of the billy hargrove army is just,,,, beyond anything else.

and thank god too. we give to ourselves and each other (and the rat boy) what the world (and the doofers) didn’t give to him or us - softness, understanding, and space to heal. that’s what’s so remarkable to me about this particular sect of the st fandom. we need a space to heal so badly and in our love for billy we found it with our own creations surrounding him and with each other. it’s so goddamn beautiful i can’t even begin to explain.

ilu 3000 bb! i promise to never stop giving the rat child OR y’all the love and healing u deserve 🖤🖤🖤

They really physically placed Steve between the new Hawkins bad boy who is set on gaining his attention and his girlfriend who dumped him the night before and expect me not to read into it too much...

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in terms of cinematography this scene reads like he's looking towards his future (billy) but his past (nancy) keeps coming to drag him into shit. it's literally one of the most subtle but most effective ways through cinematography of hinting at a new romantic partner.

and yet-?

Real talk for a sec, I’m genuinely loving the energy in the Billy Hargrove/Harringrove side of the fandom. Like hell yes, let’s talk about how most abuse survivors don’t respond to abuse in a socially acceptable way. Let’s talk about how people aren’t treated as real victims unless they “act like” victims. Let’s talk about how no one is truly irredeemable and everyone is capable of change. It’s an acknowledgement and a mindset I see so very little anywhere and I’m glad to see it here.

Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Stranger Things (TV 2016), Arthurian Mythology, Sir Gawain and the Green Knight Rating: Mature Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Billy Hargrove/Steve Harrington, Billy Hargrove/Eddie Munson, Billy Hargrove/Steve Harrington/Eddie Munson Characters: Billy Hargrove, Steve Harrington, Eddie Munson Additional Tags: The Beheading Game, Fae Courting Rituals, Eddie Munson is just as mysterious as Billy, it frustrates Steve to no end, the upside down is something else, dream walking, Realm Travel, Fae Curses, billy is Something Series: Part 2 of Cursum Perficio verse Summary:

He falls asleep staring at the rose he’d woken up with three nights ago. It hasn’t dried yet, hasn’t withered and died. It’s just as bright a red as it was when he woke up with it clutched in his hand. The note that came with it is buried under his pillow, in the hopes that he’d dream of the forest again.

It’s been three days since he’s traveled in his dreams.

That changes tonight, as his eyes flutter shut and his breathing slows. He feels the familiar sinking that accompanies these dreams, that means he’s falling through the fabric that separates the waking world from Billy’s realm.

This is my first and probably last post I will ever make. I’m here to consume the content, not necessarily create it.

I see all of you fighting the good fight for Billy and his story. And I wanted to add my thoughts into the ring.

As someone who works with children and adults from abusive backgrounds EVERY SINGLE DAY. I can tell you that Billy checks every single box for being in his survival state 24/7.

I have had extensive trainings about trauma, how to recognize it and the effects it can have on a person and how they act. Personally I have endured a lot of trauma myself and had to unlearn a lot of unhealthy behaviors and ways of thinking because of it.

With that being said: someone who is in a state of survival constantly is not capable of thinking rationally, the only goal is to…survive.

Billy Hargrove was an abused child. A CHILD. Not just physically, but mentally and emotionally as well. Does this forgive his actions? No. But it explains them. Gives us a deeper insight into the “why?”

Neil hit his son, he insulted him, called him a slur and then reminded him that Max, his younger stepsister’s well-being is in his hands. That’s a lot for a 17 year old to go through. Then he goes to the Byers residence where he’s insulted and lied to. His sister (who’s well-being is in his hands) is alone with 5 boys, one of them is his age? THEN to top it all off, Steve punches him? All that built up rage from what just happened with Neil comes spilling out. Oh and to make matters worse, he gets sedated and Max MIRRORS Neil’s abuse by making him repeat himself. Keep this in mind, while all this is going on Billy has absolutely no idea what is going on. He still doesn’t know what Max is doing with all of these boys in this house.

Moving forward- Billy gets possessed by the mind flayer, he still has no idea what is going on and loses control of his own body. He had to watch as his hands take the lives of many people to feed this creature from his worst nightmares. Then this group of children lock him in a sauna, he is FINALLY able to beg for help and sobs. Even then NOBODY tells him what’s going on, no one really makes an effort to help him. It’s only in the final episode of season 3 that El breaks through to him, she see’s his past, his mom leaving, the abuse. Even standing up to the mind flayer Billy has no idea what he’s up against, he’s still in the dark. All he knows is that it’s him or this child that showed him how to come back to himself. It’s him or Max, and as we already know Max’s well-being is in his hands. Nothing is more terrifying than Neil’s wrath. And in his dying breath he apologizes.

For my fellow Billy Stans- Please never let anyone bully you about what characters you can and can’t like. Your ability to see deeper into the characters and push past the hate is needed in this world. Not just in fiction, but in the real world. If you relate to Billy as I do, from past trauma, I am so sorry. I am so very sorry that you have to fight, explain and rationalize your love for him every time. For whatever reason you stand behind Billy Hargrove, it is valid. And unlike Billy’s story, I hope that yours doesn’t end in tragedy. My inbox is always open for those who need to talk.

Now, for the Antis- I want to say, good for you. You managed to take a broken and deeply complex character and reduce him to a heartless villain in your minds. Think what you want about him, it really doesn’t matter. What does matter is how you act to the people who do relate to Billy. The name calling, the hate, the wild assumptions about real people!! It’s so insane to me. I hope that turning into the bully to make a point was worth it. How other people relate to a character doesn’t affect you in any way at all. Somehow many of you have managed to put people down and make them afraid to express their love for a character. It’s not something to be proud of.

I am not willing to argue with anyone on this, this is just my views and my opinion. Dacre Montgomery stated that he worked hard to humanize Billy Hargrove. Seeing his character be dragged through the mud and continuously be turned into the irredeemable monster by the Duffer Brothers and the fans is just really sad.

Billy Hargrove means a lot to me. For a lot of different reasons. He deserved so much more than he was given. He deserved a chance to redeem himself and to tell his side of the story. He deserved a chance to apologize for everything he did in his survival state. He deserved the chance to finally be happy and be surrounded by people who actually cared for him, who wanted to help him.

Just keep going everyone. ❤️

two hours ago, billy hargrove was still lost in the upside down.

he’d been gone for two years.

an hour ago, steve harrington wondered desperately if this attempted rescue was all for nothing.

he still hadn’t moved on.

twenty minutes ago they pulled up to steve’s empty house.

billy showered. steve paced.

now they’re in his bedroom. falling back together like they were never forced apart. the kisses taste like tears and ozone and mint.

africa starts to play on the radio.

and billy starts to laugh.