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when you want to be in relationship, but at the same time you don’t because you know that you can never have one with the only person you truly want

nothing hurts more than knowing you can make someone you love happy but not being able to because they aren’t yours

i knew you were never attainable, so i love you from afar the idea of you so beautiful, i refuse to seek the true reality

wonder is a synonym for beauty we fall for things we do not understand for the excitement of not knowing intoxicates our souls the thrill of risking everything for the unknown is romantic

strip something of its essence, and replace it with fact and figure, the appeal is no longer existent; the thrill cease to be el sol glows as a gentle jewel hanging from my window up close, she wields enchanting flames of destruction

sometimes i just need to cry out loud

instead of sharing how i really feel

there’s just something about those brown eyes

I love you.

I will think, "I love you,"

like the unshakable fact that it is

it's not contigent on what you do or will do, do not or will not

whether reciprocated or requited, realized or otherwise,

I love you.

I love you beyond reason, beyond words, and beyond compare

to hinterlands and beyond

like a book I think of often, or a map whose lines I followed

or rather a dangerous flower, dried on brittle pages

In another life I'd be your lover

The dragon who stole the princess for a mere moment with the knight

the sailor that made the siren sorry, the pirate that loved the first mate, the orphan that burned down the world

and I would love you out loud.

I would love you in public, in private, and in your presence,

In every place that ever was and ever you were,

I would love and loathe

and I would love without apology, in the world in which I dared

With my heart in my throat like the chamber of a gun I would, I swear,

but in this world, in this life

I choose silence

I choose cowardice and vice

But I love I love I love and I love

I’m sorry i’m i’m love with you. I can’t help it. You are so stupid and dumb and imperfect. I love you so much. I love every part of you. I’m sorry. I wish I didn’t, because I know it hurts you to reject me and it hurts me to be rejected. But i can’t help how deep my feelings for you go.

It's funny, all the stupid stuff I've done just to talk to you for a few more minutes.

just once, once, i wish someone loved me the way i love. just once, once, i wish someone was afraid to lose me.

the way i miss you, i can't talk about it without breaking down. it's the way the sky would miss the sun if it ceased to rise and the way the forests would miss the birds if they ceased to chirp. you made me happy, what am i to do without my happiness?

I want to be loved, to truly be loved. I want someone to look at me and go you make me happy. To be someone’s reason to wake up and stay in bed. I want them to look up at the moon when we’re apart and wonder if i’m also looking at the moon thinking of them. I want someone to care when i’m gone. To see the color green and think of me. I want them to taste lemon on their tongue and visualize my face because we shared a lemon tart one day. When they hear a certain song for them to faintly hear the sound of my voice in the back of their mind. I want to be loved tenderly.

i like you, you like her, she likes you back. you know how this story goes. | playlist

i just want him to love me, why can’t he just love me back

my heart goes out to anyone who was made to feel stupid for caring too much. anyone who was laughed at or "cringed" at for being themselves. anyone who cried silently so they don't be a burden. anyone whose love was taken for granted. anyone who feels unsafe in their own bodies. to anyone who felt devastated because others failed to be humane enough. it's not you, it's them. i hope you find a way to love yourself again. you're not alone. you're important.

My mental state is: If you give me a long hug I might start crying.

tell me you want this as much as i do.

c / all time does is pass